Due April/May after MC 🌈

[BellaBella38]

Hi everyone, I know this is might be a bit early to start a thread but after more than 2 1/2 years of trying the overwhelming excitement is real!

Me and my husband lost out first at 10 weeks back in December 2020 and to be honest had kind of given up. I only peed on a stick at 16DPO because a banana repulsed me to the point of spitting it out! Trying not to be too excited or paranoid, but we'll see how that goes. 🤣

I've ordered the Pregnancy after Loss book by Zoe Coates Clark in an attempt to keep my sanity, but the going to the loo fear of seeing blood is real. And I've booked an apt to talk to my GP on Thursday at 5+3 to talk about whether or not progesterone would be appropriate.

Thankfully my husband is level headed and reminds me not to get too ahead of myself yet, but it would be great to meet others in the same boat for a hand hold.

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl thats great news about the scan.

Great to hear it @IWillBeWaxingAnOwl !

2 more weeks @MO22 !

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl that's great news ❤️

1 more day until my 12 week scan. I’m still struggling to believe that I’ve got this far this time. Extremely nervous, working is going to be so hard today!

@Essexgalhere wow it's finally here. What time is it tomorrow?

@Janefx40 9am 🤞🏻 I hate it when the hospital book me in for scan and then are delayed, so hope it goes on time.

Does anyone else work and feel like their anxieties / pregnancy is affecting their work? I have been making some mistakes this week I think my minds not straight

10000% @Essexgalhere - my mind is just somewhere else and I am super tired

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl I feel like I’ve been like this now since we found out. I have just not fully been with it in life in general! Even simple tasks at home sometimes just take up all my energy because I’m worrying every day

@Essexgalhere omg I am making SO MANY mistakes and I also don't remember anything, my brain won't retain any information! I hope this gets better in the second trimester.

Good luck tomorrow!

@Essexgalhere hope it all goes well tomorrow. I know that wait when they are delayed is horrible, mostly for the full bladder for me. Once I just had to go to the toilet after waiting 30minutes. I managed to partially empty it and apparently that still counted as a full bladder for them.

@Essexgalhere my work is a disaster! And I'm on loads of tight deadline. Will be thinking of you tomorrow.

@Blue2020 one day I will wage a campaign against the "full bladder" rubbish. It's just lazy advice that makes women uncomfortable. You don't need a painfully full bladder in my experience just one that is mostly full. They say the same for embryo transfers - they tell you to drink 2 litres of water - what a load of shit - and women are crying in pain when you only need to have some liquid in you. It makes me cross as you can tell!!!

I agree ladies, I feel like I've been sooo bad at my job this whole year, because of the miscarriages and now because of pregnancy. No one has said anything but I feel very guilty. Just find it so hard to keep track of everything in my head.

@Essexgalhere @MO22 @Janefx40 @Anoushka1986 work has been rough. 😂 I feel like I've been doing a mediocre job since January what with everything going on. I've been having to tap out to lie down several times a day when I've been working from home, and avoiding cognitively taxing tasks, and forgetting things I've asked people to do and countermanding my own instructions. Messy. 😬 Emotions are very close to the surface too. I sent a cranky email I definitely shouldn't have sent yesterday, just because it made me feel better to send it, for example, and usually I am pretty mature about that sort of thing. Fortunately I work with great people who don't know the reason why I've been so scatty but we are all very understanding of each others' foibles and committed to supporting each other.

At the 8w scan that turned out to be an MMC the sonographer made an amused comment about how full my bladder was, which irritated me because FFS they tell you to turn up with a full bladder!! So now I am much more casual about it.

@Essexgalhere thinking of you today. Hope your scan is perfect. 💙💚♥️

Thank you everyone I really appreciate your support
1 hour until scan
I have my lucky rainbow socks on
This could be the first time I’m successfully 12 weeks pregnancy - I’m terrified but trying to hope all okay

@Essexgalhere best of luck!

Baby looks all good! So relieved
Due date 9th May

@Essexgalhere congrats, so glad to hear it!

Woohoo @Essexgalhere !!!

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl I think we have the same dates. I'm 11 + 4 today.

Yay @Essexgalhere!

@Myotherusernameisaferrari I'm sure they'll change a bit at the "12 week scan" (actually 13 weeks) but for now it looks very close!

@Essexgalhere happy for you!

Thank you! So relieved

I found it hard at first, not only the anxiety but the woman in front of me were having twins and the nurses were congratulating them for it. But I lost twins in April and I really struggled with it.
I really struggle when midwifes ask if I know if I’m having a single pregnancy or multiple because it brings back memories to me. Or when we went to get a rainbow baby grow after our scan this morning, there was a woman buying 2 and told us she was having twins.

I am beyond relived that this baby is all well but I think it will take me a long time to not cringe every time someone talks about twins

Definitely @Essexgalhere . I think I'm going to find it hard people saying "aww your first!" Or things like that when actually it would be our first living child. If this pregnancy works out, when this baby is born they should have had a 2 year old sibling, but that baby didn't survive. I'm worried that being pregnant now will mean that previous pregnancy is erased by midwife's and by people in our lives.

Sorry - that's maybe a different but related thing. However, what I mean is I know words still hurt.

@Essexgalhere hooray and congrats on the scan.

@Essexgalhere @IWillBeWaxingAnOwl Totally understand about the losses. I think constantly about my lost one. S/he would be 19 months now. I hate that I don't know if the baby was a boy or a girl - I don't know why that matters to me but it does. Someone asked me yesterday how far along I was when I miscarried. I hate that question because it always feels like they're trying to work out how valid my grief is. Obviously I appreciate that it must be even worse the further along you get but a loss is a loss. It's the loss of the child and the future more than a 9 week embryo, They will always be our babies c