Due April/May after MC 🌈

[BellaBella38]

Hi everyone, I know this is might be a bit early to start a thread but after more than 2 1/2 years of trying the overwhelming excitement is real!

Me and my husband lost out first at 10 weeks back in December 2020 and to be honest had kind of given up. I only peed on a stick at 16DPO because a banana repulsed me to the point of spitting it out! Trying not to be too excited or paranoid, but we'll see how that goes. 🤣

I've ordered the Pregnancy after Loss book by Zoe Coates Clark in an attempt to keep my sanity, but the going to the loo fear of seeing blood is real. And I've booked an apt to talk to my GP on Thursday at 5+3 to talk about whether or not progesterone would be appropriate.

Thankfully my husband is level headed and reminds me not to get too ahead of myself yet, but it would be great to meet others in the same boat for a hand hold.

@HoneyPea and @Mrs173 I'm sorry for what you are both going through. I've been watching these threads but have been feeling very sick and haven't been able to reply until now. Hope you are both going ok.

I have my first scan today. I'm really dreading the moment when they scan me and I'm waiting for them to say something...

@Anoushka1986 good luck. It is so hard - and waiting for it is hard. Hopefully the sickness is a good sign. How many weeks are you now?

I also have a scan today but not until 7pm. Not had a scan for over 2 weeks. No idea at all what's going on in there x

Good luck @Anoushka1986 @Janefx40 . Our next scan is still over 2 weeks away. So much time still to wait 😭

Mine is two weeks away too! It seems ages away 😩😩 xx

Thanks everyone. Scan went well. Good size and heart beat. It's a relief but not a total relief. Countdown on till next scan in one month.

@Janefx40 hope your scan went ok too.

I'm measuring at 9 weeks 2 days x

Glad both went well @Anoushka1986 @Janefx40 . I'm so tempted to get another scan before the 9th. That just seems so long away.

@Anoushka1986 Glad your scan went well

@Janefx40 Thinking of you and hope your scan goes well tonight ❤️

My dating scan is on Friday. I’ve never been this far in pregnancy and honestly, I’m terrified. I’ve still got 4 days to go and I feel shaky thinking about it. I feel like a fraud

Sorry totally misread those messages @Janefx40 good luck tonight

Thanks everyone

@Essexgalhere I know what you mean. I keep saying I'm 10+2 or whatever but am I? For all I know it's all ended already. Ugh I hate this but am trying to enjoy this last day of "maybe I'm pregnant" before the scan breaks my heart.

Hi all, I've been lying a bit low lately, feeling very anxious about my 12w scan and not really wanting to talk. But it was today and good news is all quite positive! Measuring ahead so have been put forward to 4 May DD and all measurements as expected. Now waiting for blood to get drawn for the combined test, but NT measurement looked good.

The relief is real, but fleeting...

@Janefx40 fx for your scan. I know how hard it is to be optimistic/hopeful on your own behalf so I'll be over here being hopeful for you. 💚

@Anoushka1986 glad your scan went well, and @Melusina123 thats great news about the 12 week scan. Good luck tonight @Janefx40.

@Essexgalhere I hope it goes well on Friday. @IWillBeWaxingAnOwl I don’t have my scan until a week on Thursday at ~13+2. I last had a scan at 9 weeks which was ok, and I have had nausea, sickness etc since then. I’m still not convinced that it’s continued since then until someone tells me. I lost faith in my body telling me anything.

@Janefx40 I feel like I don’t belong in the club of woman who get good scans and have a healthy pregnancy. I had a scan last week and have a photo of babies foot with their little toes. Couldn’t believe that my baby has survived this far enough to be able to see that… Last couple of times I went in the hospital a mum to be and left stripped of that title! so just assume it’ll happen to me at my 12 week scan

Great news @Melusina123

I just cracked under the anxiety @Blue2020 and tried to book a scan for this week and none of the clinics in Glasgow have availability anyways 🙈🙈🙈

@Essexgalhere the only thing I can say (and it's easy to say it to you but harder to believe it myself) is that it can happen despite how we/you feel about it. I spent my whole pregnancy with my DD thinking that I would never be a Mum and that it could never happen for me. I expected the IVF to fail, to miscarry or for something to go wrong at every point. Even when I was in labour I didn't really believe I would get to meet her. But I did. I still pinch myself every day that she's really here and she's 3.5 now. I really hope this happens for you. It's good for me to say that to myself right now too.

@Melusina123 thank you. That made me cry. So pleased your scan went well.

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl oh no, the clinics are making the decision for you. No spaces anywhere, they must be busy or on half term.

Im going to try and hold out for the next 10 days. A four week wait without knowing what’s happening feels a lot longer.

@Janefx40 I think you are so true that sometimes the voice in our head is the most negative of all and takes over what is actually happening. I have not gone through infertility myself but I hate how much it and losses take away the excitement of pregnancy. Some of my friends see a positive test within a few months and go on to be mums. I am so happy for them but I ask why not me

@Essexgalhere I know. I saw my cousin the other day and she announced her pregnancy - she's 13 weeks so it's not unreasonable to be announcing it or anything but the assumption that all will be fine is so different. They're making plans for the baby already. Then she said she'd just done a 10K run even tho she'd not run for ages. I know logically that exercise is good for the pregnancy but I'm too scared to move in case it causes a miscarriage. Anyway I hope it works out for her but it's a window on a very different world.

I'm starting to panic now and I can feel this pulling type pain in my uterus. So worried it means something bad. I'm on blood thinners and I've not taken them for 2 days because they can ruin the result of the NIPT testing that we're doing tonight but now am worried. I don't have a clotting disorder - it's just standard to give them at my clinic so it should be fine not to take them but everything is making me worry right now. Have to work for another half an hour then go home to a house full of DPs family before the scan. Very hard to focus.

Sorry for the splurge xxx

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl sorry you couldn't find a scan! Frustrating. Could you travel to another town or is it better to wait it out?

@Janefx40 I have been feeling really anxious and down because some of my friends are pregnant at the same time of me (first pregnancies, conceived quick, never had a loss) and they are so excited for their scans, buying baby bits early and can’t understand why I’m so worried about this scan on Friday. They are literally so sure they will be meeting their babies soon it makes me jealous that I can’t feel that positive. I describe this as blissful innocence I wish I had before loss. I’m also not knocking them for it, I would rather be so certain and not worry about everything I do.

I have the pulling feeling atm, been going on a few days. Hope your scan goes well xx

So pleased your scan went well @Anoushka1986 sending hope and good wishes to everyone. I’m going to leave this thread as I’m starting to prepare for my TFMR. My hospital called this afternoon to tell
me all my levels of hcg and Papp-a and I don’t need the diagnosis test to tell me what the result will be. I am still getting it of course before doing anything (it’s still A week away and then 3 days for the result) but I’m very certain from all the info I have available that I know the results already.

wishing you all the best xxx for your rainbows 🌈

@Mrs173 thinking of you so much through this awful time x

All our thoughts @Mrs173 - I hope it goes as well as it possibly could do. Wishing you all the best for healing.