Due April/May after MC 🌈

[BellaBella38]

Hi everyone, I know this is might be a bit early to start a thread but after more than 2 1/2 years of trying the overwhelming excitement is real!

Me and my husband lost out first at 10 weeks back in December 2020 and to be honest had kind of given up. I only peed on a stick at 16DPO because a banana repulsed me to the point of spitting it out! Trying not to be too excited or paranoid, but we'll see how that goes. 🤣

I've ordered the Pregnancy after Loss book by Zoe Coates Clark in an attempt to keep my sanity, but the going to the loo fear of seeing blood is real. And I've booked an apt to talk to my GP on Thursday at 5+3 to talk about whether or not progesterone would be appropriate.

Thankfully my husband is level headed and reminds me not to get too ahead of myself yet, but it would be great to meet others in the same boat for a hand hold.

Good luck today @Essexgalhere and @ArrrMeHearties glad it went well. My scan is Monday so just 🤞🤞🤞 for that

Feeling v tired, vommy feeling in morning, and my boobs are huge. On holiday and my husband is definitely finding me in a bikini more distracting than usual!

Thank you! Scan is in 4 hours

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl my husband is the same 😂

@Essexgalhere good luck with the scan today!

@Essexgalhere Hope your scan went/goes well today! :)

@Janefx40 For a week the only thing I felt any enthusiasm about eating was feta cheese. Now I think I'm off it again. 😩

@Melusina123 thank you! It’s in 45 mins
feeling so anxious

🤞

Scan went well! Baby waving at us as wiggling it’s arms and legs, currently due 2 days before my birthday!

@Essexgalhere hooray and phew!!! Great news. Another massive milestone passed. Hope you can have a relaxing evening to recover from the adrenalin. Even when it's good news this stuff is so draining!

@Janefx40 thank you! Yes it is, I’ve been Googling miscarriage risk after 9 weeks and worrying something bad will happen now. Never ends even after having a happy scan

@Essexgalhere great news! 🎉

Had my scan today at 7+6 and all looking good and measuring on track! Very relieved and happy tho I also feel a bit numb.

@Janefx40 I’m feeling off today too. I feel like I should be jumping for joy that my baby is perfectly healthy at 9 weeks seeing as my last 9 week scan was awful but today I’m feeling lots of emotions. My twins due date comes up in less than 2 weeks and got 1000 thoughts and emotions going in my head right now

@Essexgalhere just be kind to yourself. Milestones are tough and although it's great that your scan yesterday was good, it's going to be a reminder of the time it wasn't. My memories of my final miscarriage scan are so clear it could be happening now - and I can still physically feel how it felt to go through it and hear those words. We have been through a horrible trauma and these pregnancies, whilst wonderful, also make us relive it. Think about your twins and cry for them and celebrate them. It doesn't mean you won't cherish this little bean when you are ready x

God I feel like a walking set of ailments right now. Last week had a UTI, then once I got through that I came down with a nasty cold that was going through the office (first one in like 2 years yay) and now tail end of the cold I just figured out DH and I have head lice! Like wtf, we don't have small children nor do we hang out with any (at least not in the last month) so god knows where that came from. This all sounds like we're super gross people but I swear we're not! 🤣 Now everything fabric we've even looked at in the last week is going on a blastingly hot wash cycle ASAP!

So anyway add that on top of pregnancy symptoms (or what I think is symptoms but could be coming from one of the above!) and I don't even know if I'm coming or going lol

But anyway, glad to hear there's been lots of good scan news on this thread, (congrats @Essexgalhere and @Janefx40, so pleased for you!!) makes me feel a little more optimistic my scan tomorrow will go okay! I'll be 7 weeks along, so I've got everything crossed they can see something and it's positive news.

@Sera123 headlice prefer clean hair! Sounds bloody stressful

@Essexgalhere @Janefx40 so glad scans went well

Hi all just found this thread (I’m on the pregnancy after loss one and someone kindly mentioned this group in there!) I’ve just spent about an hour reading through every post. Very sad for those who have had to go through the heartbreak again and those who have had really difficult circumstances. I should be 10+6 today. I had a scan at 6+1 at EPU due to 2 previous MMC and and then a private scan at 8+1 (as I convinced myself I lost all my symptoms 🙈) and lovely heartbeat both times. Now just waiting for my 12 week scan date to come through - still can’t stop worrying something has gone wrong. My first MMC was at 11 week private scan but baby stopped around 8 weeks. It’s so hard not to worry about everything but these groups for support are lovely. I’m hoping my 12 weeks will be early ie 12+1/2 rather than waiting til 13!
hope you all have a great day.

Welcome @Mrs173 and congratulations. Previous loss really does take the excitement away from current pregnancy, doesnt it?!

@Mrs173 welcome and sorry for your losses. It's so hard. We just have to hope I guess.

I had a moment of feeling happy after the scan yesterday but today I've lost the metallic taste in my mouth and no longer feel sick so am panicking again. Trying to not say it to my DP as he finds the constant up and down hard to cope with. Ugh. What must it be like to just get two lines and assume you'd be giving birth in 9 months time!

@Janefx40 absolutely - must be amazing! I know someone that conceived within 4 months, announced to everyone at 6 weeks, sailed through, has healthy baby. Imagine that!

Scan went well today. Approx 8+4. Now just have to wait another 4 weeks for the next one 🙈

@IWillBeWaxingAnOwl great news, congrats!

I'm feeling very pessimistic today. Pessary came out brown this morning, but more than that I just have in my head for some reason that at the 12 wk scan I'm going to discover another MMC at 9 or 10 wks. I don't know why. I felt like such an impostor at my booking appt, like, why are you spending all this time on me when I probably won't even make it to next appointment?

I'm not going to go for another reassurance scan because I only had the last one <2wks ago and the NHS scan is in 2wks exactly. And the scans only reassure me for 0.5 seconds anyway.

The mw decided to do me a referral to perinatal mental health on the basis of my experiences, mood at the appt, and some other context I gave her. Hopefully that will help (if I get there).

@Melusina123 I’m feeling the same. Felt like a total fraud at my midwife booking appointment on Saturday. Was thinking, I don’t belong here, this isn’t going to actually happen to me is it? Told MW my fears and she said all I can do is stay positive

12 week scan is on 28th October so I’m counting down the days, but like you I have this feeling I’m going to turn up and it’s not going to go as I hoped for

@Essexgalhere sorry to hear you're feeling the same. :(

I guess it's nice to know that what I'm feeling isn't completely abnormal of others are feeling the same, but I'd rather we were both feeling calm and hopeful. 😔

@Melusina123
One minute I’m thinking of names and the next I’m wondering how I’m going to survive another loss

such a mixture of emotions xx

@Essexgalhere @Melusina123 I do feel similarly most of the time! This morning before scan I was mostly preparing to hear "I'm so sorry but...". The scans only reassure for about an hour! Even though I know the stats that a healthy scan at 8+ weeks usually leads to a baby, well those stats didn't apply last time!