Back home now, English funerals are bizarre, I'll explain later, very different, cried a lot with different people, but mostly sit with her hubby a long time, spent some time with her kids, her brother put family pictures up everywhere for people to take home, that's a nice touch, and probably will do a mini funeral with some of the primary school kids, her ashes will be scattered on her favourite sea spot by husband and kids only, absolutely nobody else allowed, which I think is very sweet, so that'll be the place for our memorial with the kids, followed by a picnic, cos she was very fond of a picnic, never understood the warm sandwiches myself but will indulge her once more, got her neighbour number now, she's a wonderful woman and between us will keep an eye on those plates not falling, hubby will be helped whether he likes it or not. I spent some time looking at pictures with her daughter, and her son gave me an extra long hug, he misses her, me too, he's autistic so he really meant it, her brother was really zombie like after the effort of making all the arrangements, and how did you know my sister? Tooom! (not his real name) sorry, frank, of course I know you.... quite a few of the school mums, and the traditional we must meet more often, this shows how precious life is, I hope we actually do and more than just the four that always do, today it really hot me, this shit is real and there's no going back, but good graces, she deteriorated in just a week, so didn't suffer long, she had some happy weeks feeling good before that, and my last memory of her is having tea and cake for her birthday surrounded by our children,
Had to leave before the very end but most people had left, school run plus way too much for an introvert, also didn't want to monopolized her hubby cos lots of people wanted to obviously talk and share memories with him, will see them next week, when all visiting family has gone, I am going to put together in a little album all the pictures of her I got through the years to give to her husband and kids, but I need to think it through, not in my nature at all but I want to make a keepsake that her kids can look to when they are much older
Ok, I am going to shut up now, I'll be back tomorrow
Ps I have an estrange yellow snotty looking cm, urgh....
I didn't manage to get my passport appointment but it's no wonder today, next lot out on the 15, and now I know how to do it, should be fine, not out of date quite yet