Due Feb/Mar after MC 🌈 🙈

[MooBugz]

Hi all,

4+3 according to Flo app, pregnant after a miscarriage in March at 11 weeks so feeling very anxious / scared and needed a safe space to speak about pregnancy worries without thriving anyone of joy!

Feel free to join and share the journey together.

Congratulations to you all. Hope everyone is doing well.

Anyone else struggling with dreams where no heartbeat is found or with birth dreams?
Only two more weeks left until we can finally have our scan and know if everything is ok or not - it feels like forever since we got our BFP.

Finally got the progesterone after a total wild goose chase! I have been really stressed out by it today and got some bad cramping - hope I haven't ruined things getting stressed about getting the thing that seems to have been helping.

I know what you mean @MooBugz - I haven't had as much trapped winded anymore to be honest so I don't know what cause my stomach pain yesterday. I was feeling good about things but the tummy pain last night and the cramping today has put me on edge. That's exciting telling people though...hope I get to do some announcements next week - fingers crossed x

@Hagster and @STom2 yes the solid bit at the top! I'm cautiously looking at maternity clothes but don't want to to get anything until the 12wk scan next week.
Hubster has been trying to do some maths for when the baby comes (fingers, toes, everything crossed) and asking whether we'll need a double buggy as we also have a 20 mth DS.
Is anyone in the same position?

@Want2bMumof3 I have had quite a few dreams of bleeding and then dreams of a baby and a toddler. I had one or two a couple of nights before the 12week scan of there being no heartbeat and woke in a right state. I think after everything we’ve been through and how much we all long for these babies it’s completely normal to have irrational dreams spesh when we are so hopped up on hormones too.
I haven’t had any since the scan a few days ago but already starting to worry again about the little one in there. I think once it comes back to scan time they will creep back up for me. Fingers crossed they will fade for you aswell after your scan in a few weeks. Xx

@gamergirl84 I'm waiting until my official NHS 12 week scan before I get on the maternity wear also. Because I was breastfeeding until a few months ago, I literally only packed all my maternity clothes away to the loft about a month before getting pregnant. Won't be buying anything new this time around I don't think as I got carried away with the maternity clothes spending when pregnant with DS. Seraphine was dangerous!!! Got gifted loads of bits as well.

My DS has just turned 21 months so in the same boat with pram considerations etc. But again, refusing to think about any of that for another while yet. I'm thinking for a while I'd do sling wearing with the baby and keep DS in same pram. Really don't want to have to go and buy another pram!!

@Gamergirl84 we're in the same boat and if all goes well I'd like a 3-wheeler but again, probably will wait until 20 weeks for that just in case.

@Want2bmumof3 have had a couple of anxious pregnancy dreams too. Although last night I had such a vivid dream that I'd had a boob job, woke up really confused.

So glad you've started to feel you can tell people @MooBugz, it's a nice time.

And glad you got the progesterone @RedElleJ! Sounds stressful but I'm glad you won't have to worry over the weekend.

For those hopefully due their second - have you considered a Buggy board? Not sure if it's a handy idea (rather than buying a new pram), or a terrible idea with a toddler who doesn't enjoy listening to me lol.

We bought the uppababy vista as we planned to have 2 close together and it’s really good as a double pram and can get a buggy board too but after 18 months of infertility and then 2 miscarriages, my son will be 3.5 by the time I’m due - god laughs while you’re making plans I guess!
i just hope he has a bond with this new baby and it’s not too big of a gap, I so wanted less than 2 years, or 2 and a bit!

Hey all, love the buggy chat .. we had also thought about having them close together but the universe has got involved and they'll be a bit further apart now although maybe still useful to have a double buggy if this one sticks as my DD currently 23 mo. Not sure! Anyway I like the look of the mountain buggy double one. But haven't really looked much!

Having a slight worry wobble today as did another cheapie test after doing one yesterday. Had nice dark line yesterday but today it's basically same or maybe slightly lighter. 😬😞 I actually used SMU yesterday and FMU today so maybe that has to do with it? But thought FMU would be darker/stronger? I'm confused as have had good line progression since finding out I was pregnant so was feeling confident it's not a chemical at least but now I'm not so sure. But perhaps I just need to not worry as I should really test two days apart at least plus it's still early days. Here is the test today (first pic) and test from yesterday (bottom test) and test from Wednesday (on top on second photo).
Also the progesterone is fatty and comes out in my wee (ha) so wondering if affecting the tests at all .... 😬
Thoughts?

Did a close up screen shot of each... The one from today is the single one. The two together are yesterday and Wednesday. Maybe today's does look very slightly darker?? Am I imagining?

@Skylark1990 today's defiinately looks darker 😊

I notice how some people know their bpm for baby's hb. How do I get this this information please.
I had a scan on Monday and yesterday where I measure 2 wks behind which is worrying because I know I ovulated on 18th June I asked about bpm but they said they can't measure it?

@Skylark1990 todays does look darker for sure but also lien progression can be hit or miss too depending on the type of tests so please be kind to yourself!

With the buggy chat we had an 18months gap between my boys and had the double buggy with the baby style egg and it was the best buggy ever so smooth and easy to use too. Buggy board we also bought and it was good. Only tho with buggy-board would be for naps etc you would still want the pram.

My youngest is 2 in a few weeks so will be 2.5 by time baby is here (hopefully) and so we probably won't bother with the double buggy just the buggy board as she prefers walking and will be getting ready for starting nursery not long after.

@Skylark1990 that's definitely darker. And just so you know, I NEVER got a dye stealer on the easy at home tests and I tested all the way up to 7 weeks (after 2 scans and morning sickness taking over need to POAS 😆)

Is anyone else still feeling weird about telling people even though they've had their 12 week scan? What a vicious circle. I was so eager to get to that point and now I wanna climb back into my secret bubble again, this is a little bit of limbo land until you can feel movements to reassure you though I guess. I do still have nausea though too.

Thanks @madeinthe80z , I'm actually feeling quite low today as did another test this morning and think it's lighter than yesterday 😞I don't know if it's just because tests have natural variation sometimes.or if it's actually lighter because my HCG is falling or not rising. I suddenly feel really sad and like it's going to end. I wish I hadn't done the tests since Fri, it's just given me worry. I also did a clearblue digital and it came back 2-3 so that's good but that could still just mean it rose for a while and then stopped or falling as I'm 4+4. Feeling really emotional and can't stop thinking about it and then I feel guilty as I'm not paying enough attention to DD or helping DH with stuff around the house. 😩
Here's today's (18dpo) and yesterday (17dpo). Currently in bed having just done the progesterone pessary lying down so it absorbs and crying and feeling very worried.

Morning all

@Skylark1990 Sorry you are feeling low 😔 it's a horrible journey after loss you can't help but always thinks negative but I hope it's not the case and I have heard the cheapy tests although good at picking up positives are not the best for line progression. Just know that you are doing all you can and there's nothing else you could be doing to make this happen ❤️

@madeinthe80z I've started telling people and plan on telling my in laws today. I've been having dreams though last night I was bleeding and couldn't rinse the blood or clots in the bath it was the weirdest dream I woke up feeling very uneasy. As I said above I imagine that is totally normal journey after loss you never quite get to 100% enjoy pregnancy for the beauty that it is

@Skylark1990 im sorry you’re struggling today, these early weeks are so anxiety invoking aren’t they! I know it’s hard but I wouldn’t worry about your test today…HcG is meant to double every 2 days so you may not see a difference until tomorrow anyway. Plus those tests are a bit hit and miss (in my experience) with how much dye is in them to how dark they can go!

In one of my pregnancies I bought a HCG blood test privately to know where I stood, which was helpful rather than looking at tests every day!

@Skylark1990 I made point of only allowing myself test every 72 hours as HCG doubles every 48 to 72 hours in those early weeks. Also get yourself some FRERS for line progression if you can.

Getting a 2 to 3 on a Digi at 4+4 is definitely a good sign.

@Skylark1990 4+4 is still so early and I agree with STom- 2-3 weeks at that stage is a really good sign. I had 2-3 weeks around 6 weeks (when I did my first test) so your hcg is clearly doing somethig right!

I'm also hesitant to tell people, I'll tell my brothers after the 12 wk scan but everyone else I'm just going to leave unless they ask or it comes up in conversation.

Enjoying all the buggy chat! I'm trying to decide between a stacker which can convert to a single if DS is at nursery or a side by side which can easily accommodate two toddlers.

@Skylark1990 I genuinely don't see anything worrying about those lines but I completely appreciate that that doesn't necessarily offer any comfort - it's so hard, especially in these early weeks, not to second-guess every single thing. And I don't know if this is true of you, but since I didn't see it coming when things went wrong the before, it's almost like I don't want to get caught out this time so I'm always assuming the worst. Like the more I know, the less it controls me and I'll see it coming and it won't blindside me again. Of course I know that's not how it works but I just wondered whether you felt anything like that too. Either way, offering lots of sympathy, I hope time speeds up for you and I hope that line gets darker for you soon.

Thank you ladies for your kind words and reassurance @MooBugz @Franklin321 @Gamergirl84 @Hagster @STom2

Worrying about a line feels so petty and silly in some ways but I know you all get it. Good advice tho re not testing as often (I give this advice myself 😩🤦‍♀️) and also getting FRERs (again I advise this lol). I wanted to do cheaper ones as did FRERs last time, had great lines but still lost baby. So I know these tests don't guarantee anything. But yes @Hagster that's it, it's such uncertainty, I hate it... Any little thing to help and give some reassurance.... I just had some FRERs delivered, will do one tomorrow probably but I also don't want to test obsessively 🤦‍♀️

Woke up at 5am busting for a wee so had to do the tests then for FMU... Pleased to see two good dark lines today and a dye stealer on frer. This is good for 19dpo isn't it?!

Will stop now. No. More. Tests. Or Worrying.

Great results there @Skylark1990 🥳

Good idea on no more tests, if only no more worrying was as simple! Good luck and hopefully you can believe it's happening now and get yourself booked in ❤️

Hi! I’m 13 weeks today, due 13th February. I lost my baby at 18 weeks earlier in the year for reasons still being investigated and had decided to not try until we heard back from that, I made that decision after one impulsive unprotected time because we so desperately wanted to be pregnant again and apparently that one time was all it took so here I am. I’m happy to be here, and feel so lucky how easily it happened (that was not the case with my last two pregnancies!) but also equally terrified to go into this without knowing exactly why it all went wrong last time. I’ve had a good 12 week scan and also have a scan at 14 weeks and 16 weeks as well as 20.. so they are keeping a close eye on me which is reassuring. It’s so tough to be out of the usual danger zone and still not feel excited and able to tell people but I’m clinging on to what I hope is a good gut feeling that this time I’ll have a baby in my arms. I hope I’m not too late to hop on the thread. It’s lovely to see so many of you have had positive scans and I really hope every single one of us gets our happy ending ❤️

Congratulations @Skylark1990 that dye stealer is great! Sounds like you've got a great plan although we're here for you either way.

Welcome @doingitalllagain, you're not too late to join at all. I'm so sorry to hear of your previous loss, it sounds like it was a very difficult time. Congratulations on this pregnancy and fingers crossed for you - glad to have you on this uncertain journey with us.

Hi @doingitalllagain loss is painful at any stage of the journey but I always feel that extra heart wrenching feeling when someone talks of a loss after the first trimester, so sorry to hear this happened to you and I hope this time the journey ends in a positive way 🌈