@AlviesMam how are you feeling? It's overwhelming isn't it when you finally settle at home and all is well so to speak, there's all this emotion but with no where to go or channel it to.
The anxiety and worry and having the end point, the birth, has a weird way of sustaining you and focusing your mind. The baby goal keeps you laser focussed and distracted in lots of ways. Then once the baby arrives it can be difficult to move on I think from the pregnancy and the way you've got used to getting through the day, this is a new normal and it will take some getting used to.
Even though your totally besotted with your baby and no doubt thinking about her all the time, it is like 'what now?' or 'so my life is now this?' or even 'how will I cope with this baby, how do I care for this baby for the rest of its life!'.
All so so normal, in fact you only don't feel this I think if you've got children already and you kind of know that the feeling totally passes, though of course those are questions you ask yourself for ever. Especially as phases come and go.
With my ten year old I hadn't asked those questions to myself for a good year, then the last few weeks I've found myself asking them like she's a baby again. I think because she'll be moving up to secondary school in September, she's just done her 11 plus, so that was the focus the last year like a pregnancy is, and now the 11 plus baby is born so to speak, I'm now back to worrying about her and her future, my future, her safety as she fly's the nest a little more every month and every year that passes. How do I keep her safe.
It doesn't help for us expectant mums that there is nothing open for interaction with other mother's and father's, and other babies. Plus the midwive visits and health visitor support has been taken away post birth.
Phone calls are not the same are they really!
Anyway all the love to you, and we are all here for you 🥰