Pregnant after Loss and Dreaming of Rainbows - 5

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I've had a wobble today as haven't felt the baby move for three days. I'm 19 weeks so I'm trying to tell myself that movement is very sporadic at this point. I spent all night lying on my left, having a cold drink, having a hot drink, totally focused but there's nothing going on right now.
I rang the on call community midwife and she said they won't do anything about movement until 20 weeks.

My 20 week scan is on Thursday and I'm going to try and get an appointment with my own midwife this Tuesday.

I can off the home miserable and tearful but I'm trying to put it out of my mind. There's nothing they can do even if they did see me.

@footprintsintheslow sorry your having such a tough time of it, it's so difficult, especially when they're saying they won't do anything. I'd definitely try to get in to your midwife for a listen with the Doppler. It's hopefully that baby is just curled up in a new position, they're so tiny at that stage that when they move around it can totally change how you feel them. Sending you big hugs and positive thoughts for the next few days x

Ah @footprintsintheslow I'm sorry :( it definitely is early. I didn't feel anything at all until past 22 weeks and I was a nervous wreck! I kept lying on my side, drinking cold water etc and nothing... but everything was absolutely fine. I hope you feel something soon and good luck with your scan on Thursday. As people say baby can go into different positions and they are really not very strong at that stage so you often don't feel things. I totally understand how worrying it is though xxx

I wouldn't worry if I hadn't felt anything up until this point as it's early but I've been having movements for a few weeks now. Just here and there and faint, but most days.

Anyway I'm the last few minutes I'm pretty sure I've had some movements.
I'll still be chasing the midwife tomorrow anyway.

@footprintsintheslow really sorry you’ve got this stress. I had this but luckily at 22ish weeks so they saw me. She’d gone right back into my pelvis really low so I couldn’t feel her. She’s now also oblique lie, so at 32 weeks I do feel her as she’s bigger but it’s nowhere near what I got when pregnant with my son. Hopefully yours has moved into an awkward position where it’s more tricky to feel their movements. Really hope the midwife can see you tomorrow as it’s so worrying when you’re left waiting. xxx

Happy Monday ladies.

Hope everyone is doing okay.

@footprintsintheslow - that sounds terribly worrying for you and I'm frustrated they couldn't take your converns more seriously at this stage. Glad you think you felt a little movement after making the initial post and hope all is well with the MW tomorrow.

@rachael123 Best of luck tomorrow. Will be thinking of you!

Updating my weeks again. I think my next milestone will be hitting the big 3-0.

@Bellsx 37wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 39wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 35wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 35wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Knotemma 34wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 31wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 31wks (26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@TunnocksTcake 33 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@avocuddles 33wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Sunflower1608 32wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣ GIRL & BOY
@SunStruck 33wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 31wks due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 33wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 25wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 32wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 32wks (due 11/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@Hagster 30wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣ SURPRISE
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 23wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 28wks (due 07/11/20)⁣ BOY
@Shefliesonherownwings 26wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 19wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 24wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 24wks (due 05/12/20) BOY
@footprintsintheslow 19 wks (due 10/01/21)
@turquoisebaby** 16 weeks (due 24/01/21)

@footprintsintheslow how are you doing? If you can't go to the hospital could you ask the community midwife if she could listen to the baby's heartbeat on the handheld doppler? It obviously wouldn't be as reassuring as a scan but might be an alternative option?

I'm also 19 weeks and feeling sporadic movement. I do find it very worrying because it's only natural to be listening for a pattern, even at these early stages.

Let us know how you get on x

Loving all the pic updates! @Knotemma you look fab hope you enjoyed your not baby shower!

Hope everyone is feeling better now the temperature has dropped a fair bit, I know I struggled with it and it was nowhere near as bad as some places here in Glasgow!

The nerves for induction kicked in last night and I had a wobble and a big cry to DH and I can just tell il probably be the same today. I think the biggest struggle is that I need to go in myself, silly really. Ended up a restless sleep awake from 4-8 then crashed and woke at 11, what a waste of a day!

@Rachael321i didn't even think about having to go in on your own. Are they doing an outpatient induction of do you have to stay in? I'm sure you've got this and you definitely haven't wasted the day, getting some rest now is a high priority! I'm sending you all of the good vibes x

@Bellsx 37wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 39wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 35wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 35wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Knotemma 34wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 31wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 34wks (26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@TunnocksTcake 33 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@avocuddles 33wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Sunflower1608 32wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣ GIRL & BOY
@SunStruck 33wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 31wks due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 33wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 25wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 32wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 32wks (due 11/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@Hagster 30wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣ SURPRISE
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 23wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 28wks (due 07/11/20)⁣ BOY
@Shefliesonherownwings 26wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 19wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 24wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 24wks (due 05/12/20) BOY
@footprintsintheslow 19 wks (due 10/01/21)
@turquoisebaby 16 weeks (due 24/01/21)

@Knotemma nope need to stay in, he can only drop me off and then when on the ward i will get an allocated visiting slot when he can visit for an hour.

@Rachael321 pleased he can at least visit (I'm looking for silver linings!) Hope everything goes nice and smoothly for you x

@Knotemma I'm hoping the ward is quiet and they aren't too strict for the visits. Thank you

@footprintsintheslow sorry to hear your concerns re movements, I get how nervous you must feel. Hopefully baby has just changed position and all will be good at your scan. The suggestion re getting a midwife to listen in is a good one, I hope you can get some reassurance as soon as possible.

@Rachael321 the thought of being induced alone is definitely not that appealing and one of the things that is making me very much on the fence over whether I want to plan an induction in or wait things out.... I hope that it works quickly for you and that your DH is back in with you ASAP.

Updating my dates again....

@Bellsx 37wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 39wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 35wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 35wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Knotemma 34wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 31wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 34wks (26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@TunnocksTcake 33 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@avocuddles 34wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Sunflower1608 32wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣ GIRL & BOY
@SunStruck 33wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 31wks due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 33wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 25wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 32wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 32wks (due 11/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@Hagster 30wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣ SURPRISE
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 23wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 28wks (due 07/11/20)⁣ BOY
@Shefliesonherownwings 26wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 19wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 24wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 24wks (due 05/12/20) BOY
@footprintsintheslow 19 wks (due 10/01/21)
@turquoisebaby 16 weeks (due 24/01/21)

Hi all. @marmitecheesetoast I hope you can get some reassurance today, sorry you've had a stressful worrying time. @Rachael321 when are you going in for your induction, is it this week?

I need to rant I'm afraid. I was meant to be having my 28 week growth scan this afternoon but it's been cancelled. They tried to get another consultant to fit me in but there wasn't any space. I should get it rearranged for later this week, either with my consultant or another one.

But I had really psyched myself up to be scanned this afternoon. Over the past 2 or 3 days baby's movements have been less strong and although I've felt him, I've had a couple of times when I've had to eat something sugary or drink a cold drink to get him going and movements have been less powerful if you like. I had been rushing around the past few days and I'm sure he's just moved positions. As I say i have still felt him plenty and in fact he's been stronger today but I built myself up to see him today and check the position so I could reassure myself all was OK. Now I'll have to wait until the end of the week probably. I also had a pretty intense counselling session earlier and then got the news the scan was cancelled so I've been a teary mess all afternoon. I'm just so disappointment we couldn't get to see him today after working myself up to it.

@Shefliesonherownwings induction is tomorrow
Sorry to hear about your day, that's rotten, shame they couldn't have done the scan and just spoke to consultant another day

@footprintsintheslow hope you get seen soon

@Shefliesonherownwings ugh cancelling appointments is the worst as we so build ourselves up to these dates! I hope you get seen soon too xxx

@Rachael321 oh no induction on your own sounds glum. I really hope it goes well for you. When does hubby get to join you? Do you have to be in full labour??? I'm finding these corona rules really confusing and a bit heartless tbh...

I'm really struggling with the acid reflux again. I had it under control but I'm back at work now and bending over just makes me burp up acid and feel like I'm going to be sick. I'm trying to find jobs to do without having to bend over (I'm a gardener) but my boss wants me to just down gxviscon and get on with it. I can see why he wants this but I feel really nervous about taking any medication in pregnancy, especially since the acid doesn't seem to be a problem when I am upright at the moment... am I being too precious? I know plenty of you take gxviscon... perhaps I should try it and see. I also feel really nervous about using the ride on mower at work. It is super bumpy. I used it last week and even though I was driving super slowly the bumps are still so full on, I started to feel a bit funny (dont know how to describe) in my cervix/womb area and the baby was going totally nuts too, so I just got off and someone else finished it. My boss wants me to carry on using it but I don't feel confident to - I'm practically in my last trimester and there are other people who can do it, it's by no means necessary for me to do it... feeling disempowered, but ultimately I will do what I like, I'm not going to get pushed into anything I'm not comfortable with, because realistically I only have 2 months left there and they'd be very bold to try and sack me whilst pregnant. I hate my boss so much, he's told me that I might be sacked if I can't do all of my usual duties, he's told me I can't get paid antenatal leave, he's told me I can't get my holiday allowance from my maternity leave, and he's refused to do a risk assessment for me that I feel is adequate (he just printed one off that is intended for office workers i.e. all about sitting at a desk...) I've been treated like crap since I've been pregnant and I'm fully mad about it.

Actually I've made up my mind, I'm going to go to his boss tomorrow and make a formal complaint against him. I've been way way too tolerant of his shit and now that he's asking me to use a machine with heavy vibrations when I literally told him that it made my bump tighten, and made me feel sick, and the baby was going nuts - that's too far. What if there was another woman who was less assertive about just saying "well whatever, I'm not going to do it". It's also stressful and unnecessary. I have so much shit that he's said to me now. Sorry for all the swearing I hope mums net bleeps it out!

Oh it didnt bleep me, sorry!

@Shefliesonherownwings I feel your pain on cancelled appointments, so frustrating.

@Rachael321 good luck for tomorrow!!! I think I’m the only person who wouldn’t mind being on my own 🤣 I’d suggest taking loads of downloaded stuff, books etc, and try and move a lot, even if it’s just by your bed. Can you take a birth ball in? Or ask for one... they brought me one from the MLU to labour ward when I had my son.

@MOGMOGMOG85 I can’t answer about gaviscon etc but it would really p* me off someone telling me what to do that’s best in my pregnancy! I’m stubborn at the best of times but I’d be really digging my heels in if someone who wasn’t a medic thought they knew best. Do what you feel is best. Or get clarification from midwife and tell them you’ve been advised not to use certain kit? He sounds awful. If you’ve got the energy maybe even a letter from an employment lawyer might scare him? Not sure I’d the proper roots but I’d be tempted to really go for him!

@MOGMOGMOG85 yes to the complaint!! Well done for having the energy for that. Sending good luck and power to you!

Thanks @tmc14 it's really heartening to see that you're cheering me on! Thanks for the luck :) xx

Updating weeks, today is a good day I felt my first proper movement!!! Happppppy happy.

Best of luck for the induction tomorrow @Rachael321

@Bellsx 37wks (due 20/08/20)⁣
@Rachael321 39wks (due 20/08/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@Hoping2020 35wks (due 13/09/20)⁣
@SammiLou2312 35wks⁣ (due 17/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Knotemma 34wks⁣ (due 23/09/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@LilMrsS 31wks (due 24/09/20)⁣
@didslysquiddlydoo 34wks (26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@TunnocksTcake 33 wks (due 26/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@avocuddles 34wks (due 27/09/20)⁣ GIRL
@Sunflower1608 32wks with twins (due 28/09/20)⁣ GIRL & BOY
@SunStruck 33wks (due 28/09/20)⁣⁣
@Scout20 31wks due 29/09/20)⁣
@Littlegoth 33wks (due 30/09/20)⁣ BOY
@HighHopes20 25wks (due 03/10/20)⁣⁣
@Treaclepie19 32wks (due 07/10/20)⁣⁣ GIRL
@tmc14 32wks (due 11/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@Hagster 30wks (due 12/10/20)⁣⁣ SURPRISE
@DressingGown87 18wks (due 20/10/20)⁣ GIRL
@rachelrainbow 23wks (due 28/10/20)⁣
@teaandtantrums90 13wks (due 05/11/20)⁣
@AnxiousLady1 28wks (due 07/11/20)⁣ BOY
@Shefliesonherownwings 26wks (due 09/11/20)⁣ BOY
@MrsG3 18wks (due 16/11/20) GIRL
@MysteriousSheep 19wks (due 21/11/20)
@Whiffle77 24wks (due 02/12/20)⁣ SURPRISE
@MOGMOGMOG85 24wks (due 05/12/20) BOY
@footprintsintheslow 19 wks (due 10/01/21)
@turquoisebaby 17 weeks (due 24/01/21)

@Rachael321 good luck tomorrow. I should be getting a date for being induced in next week or so and am both excited and terrified lol!

@Shefliesonherownwings I completely get your annoyance at the appointment cancellations...I am currently being messed about with my last growth scan. They have cancelled and rearranged it 4 times now. Not to mention that in consultant led care, I have only actually seen/spoken to consultant once! I have a midwife appointment tomorrow so going to speak to her about how much stress it is causing me. Hope you manage to get seen this week x

@MOGMOGMOG85 I am practically living on gaviscon ATM. Heartburn has properly cranked up as I hit last trimester and even more so this past couple weeks. My midwife recommended taking it as needed as it's perfectly safe for during pregnancy. I would definitely put a complaint in against your boss if that's how he has been treating you, it's not acceptable. He has a duty of care to conduct a proper pregnancy risk assessment for you at the very least. Hope you get it sorted.

@turquoisebaby so happy to hear you felt movements! It's so fantastic!

@MOGMOGMOG85 your boss has been dreadful from day one and they are on very thin ice. Remind me are you in a union? You can quickly join one.