@Crossfitgirl ah Hun! I think we can all relate for sure. But you know what? We're doing an amazing thing growing a mini human inside us, and growing and supporting a new organ to feed and to support it whilst it is inside. Not even thinking about our organs being rearranged to make room, or boobs growing overnight and our muscles stretching, then hormones playing havoc. Is hard work and I know I was totally unprepared for just how hard it would be physically and emotionally even in the early days.
You're totally normal to feel like crap. You're only human you know! I have cancelled every social plan that involves me leaving the house since three first couple days of January and have almost lived in PJs and slouchy clothes. Make-up? Forget it. Cleaning? Pah! The bare essential if I could but DH has had to take on more. Some things don't get done. So what? Growing baby and feeling better is most important, hoovered carpets can wait.
Money is terrifying. But everyone says they manage. Work out your essentials and your joint income, which you've probably not long done from when you moved house anyhow so hopefully not too much work, and look at what you need to cover when you're earning less, and any thing you need to cut. I know I'm unusual in that we've been moving to hundred each to a separate account each month for a few months now top up when I'm off. But even if you did a hundred each between now and when baby comes, you would have a grand to top up or do some treats. You will manage because you have too, and remember babies don't need the shiniest top brands and to begin with, so long as they have a safe place to sleep, a bottle or boob feeding them and someone changing their nappies, with some cuddles too of course, then their needs are met.
Please don't beat yourself up. It's hard work in itself, even more when you're working and running your house too. Don't look at all those perfect famous people who always seem to be glowing from day one. When someone cleans your house for you, sorts you're shopping, cooks for you, even works or what you're going to wear ... It isn't real life!
Oh, and if you don't already, look at online grocery shopping. We've done it for a while and honestly it has made list much easier the past couple months too. I also think it's still be much easier than dragging a baby around a supermarket! We do an annual delivery pass, and when you work out even cost of fuel to drive to supermarket it pays for itself, not even factoring in the time spent doing the bloody shop and queuing and trying to park etc!
Please don't beat yourself up. You are doing great!