Catching up with those from TTC thread- 2

[MrsC87]

So I went with the same thread title so everyone could find us.
@sunshine1987 @SullyWifey @mrsof20118 @GemmaJen @RanchoRelaxo @Delilah7 @Crossfitgirl @EltzBee @MrsEG (tagged from memory, will come back and tag everyone else- baby brain 🙈)

Ahaha i just found this and can't stop playing with it. This explains alot about why I feel there's not enough room in there!

www.msichicago.org/experiment/make-room-for-baby/

@CookieWaffle that's very cool, it is amazing how soon things all get pushed out the way!
I had cramping in my tummy yesterday, think just everything moving and stretching.
How are you doing?

@bettythecat, I'm so sorry you're also going through this. Sending you all my love and support. Message me if you want to talk, it sounds like ours are very similar, even our symptoms /lack of were similar. I have my follow up scan on 1st March. So far nothing has happened. I have already decided that if it comes to it, I am having the procedure. Drink all the wine, eat all the chocolate. Maybe @flapjackered and I will see you back on the ttc board when we are ready? Xx

So so sorry @Bettythecat

Hi all, thank you for your messages of support. I feel a bit more philosophical about it today- just want to get it over with so that we can start trying again really. It's been very mixed emotions all day- feeling very sad and then feeling more positive.

@FivexFive I know how strange that we have mirrored each other right from the beginning and we got our BFPs at the same time as and yet it has also come to this for us both. I've got another wine on the go now- we are on holiday in the lakes next week which will be great to have a break and chill and look after ourselves. I'm booked for the second scan on the 5th when I'm back from my holiday. I want it to either happen naturally before or I will be having the procedure for sure. I think the pills sound pretty grim. How are you feeling now about it all?

@FlapJackered I should have mentioned you too: how are you and how are you feeling?

@FivexFive to respond about the TTC thread my gut feeling is I will try to go without it this time round: I think it can add to the anxiety and obsession and I want to try to be kind to myself this tome round.

Sending hugs and love to everyone who is going through something tough or has been through it before and love also to all of you whose pregnancies are going well. It's actually lovely and comforting to read about: it will be us soon enough I'm sure. Xxx

@flapjackered thinking of you this morning for your scan xxx

@bettythecat I am so so sorry to hear your news. I'm shocked this has happened to so many of you, I hope you 3 are keeping OK, being well looked after and have support during such a difficult time.

I will catch up with the thread properly later today, and reply to all the messages I don't have time to just now. Gonna be late for work haha.

had a manic week this week with my student at work, and as I have gone back to crossfit I'm currently debating whether to take part in the Crossfit Open tonight, or whether to just not bother and support my friends doing it instead. (It's an event where they release workouts each week for 5 weeks, and you do them all and get scored on them) but they make an event out of it at my gym every Friday and its normally really fun with everyone getting together and cheering each other on etc.
My coach said I can still do it and just modify it. Just dunno if I can be arsed to he honest! The first one is all cardio and I know I'll hate it! Haha. Plus just doing stairs at the mo gets me out of breath. Hmmm. Anyway...

Thank fuck its Friday!

Ah ladies, thinking of you all going through tough times at the moment xx

@EltzBee I've had loads of those weird cramping stretching feelings. I asked midwife about it yesterday. When baby moves around it can move your insides about too and sometimes those feelings are actually baby kicking things about.

Funnily enough a couple of hours later I felt a sudden flutter. I can only believe it was baby kicking about. I couldn't focus on anything else for the rest of the day in the hope that it would do it again! So excited I actually felt it moving!

@CookieWaffle ah interesting, that makes sense too. I had a weird feeling to the right of my belly button this week, which I've never felt before and haven't had since - it was almost like a 'dun dun dun dun', or as if a ping pong ball was bouncing up/down/up/down. I'm only 13weeks today so probably too early to be Bean (although who knows, looking online some ladies do start to feel things early depending on their position and Bean's bounciness!).

Ah you must have felt so excited! I really can't wait to start feeling the baby moving about! I definitely 'feel' pregnant now - my tummy has changed shape and I feel much more aware that there's something growing inside me there :)

@Crossfitgirl oh wow you're better than I am, I don't think I could do a crossfit class if my life depended on it! lol. I get out of breath going up the stairs still at the moment, and I'm still sleeping for 12 hours each night and afternoon naps on top, doh! I'm sure fatigue is meant to pass soon, it is getting 'better' than it was a couple weeks ago! If your trainer says you can tweak it could you go to support your friend and participate but adjust it suit what you need right now?

Hi Ladies.
Hope you're all well.
Just wanted to say farewell for now.
I unfortunately found out on Tuesday that I had had a missed miscarriage at around 7+2. I would have been 11+2 today and had my first scan scheduled for this morning. The baby didn't have a heartbeat and the sac was an irregular shape so they suspect it was a chromosome irregularity.
I had SMM (surgical management) yesterday as I decided I couldn't pass the pregnancy naturally. It was too heartbreaking and sore to prolong any longer. The hospital was absolutely amazing and I couldn't fault anything about my care and how quickly I got seen to.
Has been the most emotional rollercoaster I've ever been on and has broken our hearts into pieces and it's hurt me in places I didn't know existed. My husband has been absolutely incredible and so have our friends and family. I'm so glad they knew all about the pregnancy as I couldn't have done it without the support and love we had.

Just want to wish you all the very best with the rest of your pregnancies and your future little bundles of joy. I will pop in now and again to see the progress you're all making.

But for now I'm gonna look after myself and try again when my body feels ready to. I'm a strong believer that everything happens for a reason.

Lots of love xx

@MrsLBear I'm so sorry to hear your news. I know exactly what you are going through. Having been ok yesterday (or thinking I was- I actually think I was in shock) I spent the whole morning crying and feel so emotionally exhausted. I'm so sorry for what you have gone through and all of us on here who have been through the same thing lately. Sending you love and light. Xx

Oh @MrsLBear I'm so so sorry to hear that. I'm so glad you have plenty of support around you. Literally in tears at the office for you and all the ladies on here. Take care of yourself xx

@Bettythecat I hope you're taking some time out and get some rest. I can imagine it's going to be pretty emotionally draining for a little while. Treat yourself xx

@MrsLBear I'm so sorry. Thinking of you xx

@MrsLBear so sorry, I'm glad to hear that you have lots of support. @Bettythecat sending hugs. Look after yourselves xx

We've got our 'combined test' result back today, thankfully low risk. Feel like a big weight off our shoulders.

@Bettythecat I am so so so sorry I didn't read down the thread at all. I feel so stupid now. I am so sorry for your loss 😢😢😢😢
I felt the exact same as you. I just knew something was wrong and everyone kept telling me it was ok. It's amazing really how you have this instinct and you can't even justify or explain it to anyone. I know what you mean, feel like my whole life has taken a left turn (albeit hopefully not forever) but for now my future looks so different to the one I had planned. I went for the surgical route and honestly I have to say it was the best decision. I feel so different today post surgery. Didn't think it would make a huge difference to me emotionally and I thought I'd be in more pain physically but I was actually more uncomfortable the past few days. I really wish you all the best with everything. I just keep telling myself it was unfortunately a process of natural selection and there must have been something drastically wrong for the baby not to survive. As much as that kills me to say, but for me I'm finding comfort it that as I'd never want my baby to suffer.
I can't even think about the struggle of TCC - the anticipation and anxiety 24/7. I also have such long cycles so I'm praying this doesn't mess them up even more.
Sending you virtual hugs and I know that I completely and utterly feel the heartbreak and heartache that you do. We will have our moments but time is a wonderful healer and I think we need to allow ours to be upset and have those moments. We will be ok ❤️❤️

I agree with you both @FlapJackered! I've actually found that a few glasses of port of an evening as completely settled me and helped me fall asleep cos my mind goes into overdrive the minute my head hits that pillow no matter how exhausted I feel.

Thank you for your kind messages ladies. I honestly wish you all the best of luck and enjoy every single of moment of all those pregnancies woes. It's all good signs ❤️❤️

Can't wait to hear all the lovely (and possible traumatic - but hopefully not too much!!) birth stories 😘 and I hope to be back soon. I'm not letting this defeat me but only make me stronger xx

When your boss knows your early days pregnant and still sends you on an errand... TO A CIGAR SHOP

So I had my scan and from nothing showing up last week and being told my hcg was not rising enough, there is now a sac and yolk and visible growth. They couldn't see a heartbeat and said it looked about 5 weeks size-wise but from my ovulation I should be over 6 weeks. The doctor said that ovulation isn't conception though and that conception can happen upto 7 days after ovulation which I didn't know?! I am still trying not to get hopeful though as my symptoms have completely disappeared which I don't think is a good sign, I just don't feel pregnant anymore. I have got to wait 2 weeks for another scan which I am not sure how I am going to cope with. So I am in limbo at the moment.

@MrsLBear I am so sorry. It is heartbreaking and it is hard to see the way forward but you're a strong lady and you will get through it and you will have a healthy baby soon. I am so glad you have such a good support, I have felt so lucky going through this that I have my family there for me, they have been amazing and I didn't realise how much I needed it. Take your time to heal and be kind to yourself. Xx

@MrsLBear Oh I am so sorry lovely, I had a D&C 2 weeks ago and like you would recommend it to anyone who has to make the same decision. Makes you so thankful for our NHS doesn’t it! I really hope you’re okay and if you have any questions about the next 2 weeks feel free to message me. I have to do my pregnancy test this weekend to confirm it’s turned negative and I’m dreading it a bit, but otherwise feeling okay and hopeful for the future. I am just so sorry you’ve had to go through it and so pleased to hear your family and friends have been wonderful.

To all the other ladies on here, I try to keep up with you on these threads every now and again and cannot wait for some babies to be born (am I right in thinking around April time they’ll start bounding in to the world??) - all the very best to you all ♥️

@FlapJackered sorry to hear you're still in limbo. Once you ovulate, if the egg gets fertilised it then has to travel down the tube to the womb and it can take up to a week for it to 'implant', i.e. the fertilised egg to embed in to the womb, which I think is what they're referring to. I think that is why even if someone ovulates 'late', they could have implanted quickly, so it's why EDD aren't accurate from just last period or ovulation date. I don't want to get your hopes up but like they said if you're 5 weeks, they wouldn't see a heartbeat til about 6 weeks. Sorry if that was all a bit long winded I hope it helps from the body side in plain English. Look after yourself and take care.

@AngeloMysterioso uh that sucks, can't imagine that the smell was particularly tolerable!

Ahh @FlapJackered I can imagine the not knowing is pretty tough right now. I'm glad it's not the end yet. As EltzBee says it's all about that implantation rather than the ovulation. It sounds like it's a little early for a heartbeat too. Will be keeping my fingers crossed for you. Meanwhile find some nice things to do in the next couple of weeks xx

@EltzBee it was absolutely foul, and the place was tiny (like, the size of my desk tiny) and had two men smoking cigars in there... it was all I could do not to vomit over the counter

Catching up from a while ago now... Well trying to!

@sunshine1987 @chaosmoon @mrsc87 I've been told different things about how my holidays work, was hoping I could take my years annual leave in a chunk before I go off, but I think it's pro rata from April to my due date then I accrue more when I'm off and can tag that onto the end of my mat leave. Euh had a look at mat pay and it's not a lot! Def gonna have to cut back. You guys seem so organised! I need to ring payroll and maybe get them to do me a bit of a breakdown.

@eltzbee go public whenever you and DH feel ready. No right or wrong!
@gemmajen time will speed up after your scan, it goes soooo slowly before. Embrace the nausea, but hopefully it'll be gone soon!

@sunshine1987 @sullywifey aww I'm so excited for hearing the heartbeat hopefully at my 16 week appt next week. I'm def gonna record it now! I don't think I've actually felt movements yet, but I'm feeling and listening hard every night now as I'm 16 weeks today! Lol. Every little tummy rumble I'm like ooooh... aaaah no that's not it. Lol.

@cookiewaffle I'm feeling fat too. I've noticed just today, tiny little red veiny marks on the sides of my tummy.the beginnings of stretch marks!!! I'm seeing it as a good sign that baby is growing 😊

I'm halfway there to responding to what I can for now, will finish the thread at the weekend, hope you are all taking care of yourselves xxx