Well, i think I’m out.

[Iswallowtoothpaste]

Just done another test and it’s no darker than the one I did 2 days ago. Not sure how many DPO I am but symptoms have gone too and have low abdominal cramping.

It’s taken us 2.5 years to fall pregnant again after last M/C and looks like it’s happening all over again

This baby is so wanted. Feeling very sorry for myself.

@whiteonesugar it’s kind of a control thing with me and wanting to know so I can brace myself for the worst if I have to.

Thought I was feeling slightly nauseous on Monday and again yesterday but nothing major (and maybe wishful thinking) but today I gagged and spat up bile this morning and about 30 minutes ago I spewed up a tiny bit of sick. It’s more of a gagging feeling in the back of my throat though with an occasional wave of nausea in my tummy. Don’t know if that’s normal. Someone described it as a hangover but I wouldn’t say it’s as bad as that, more sea sickness.

No shouting at you, though I am going to follow PP's lead and buy shares in a POA company...

When do you get to do teh prpoper testy thing?

There is no such thing as normal

Definitely looking nice and dark there OP and those things are notorious for not giving very dark lines so if you've got a nice dark one like that I'd be happy! :)

Ohhh that one looks good!! Thank God you're not me OP, I'd go straight for blood tests! Looks really good!

They won’t do a blood test but everything looks more positive now. Didn’t think I was going to get dinner cooked ast night. Eventually managed after I’d stopped gagging. Stomach is churning a bit this morning. Never been so happy to be sick and I fucking hate being sick

@ISwallowtoothpaste I felt like i was on a boat for the first 8 weeks of my pregnancy with DS and gagged walking past the bin store of our block of flats every single morning! In fact when I got pregnant the last time it was the waves of nausea that made me do a test. All sounding very positive! Hang in there x

I’ve not been too bad today, felt a bit rough first thing but it passed and then had a bit of dry heaving but no actual sick yet.

If I remember correctly, it used to affect me more during the evening with DD. Of course I’m still worried that I’m imagining it and it’s all wishful thinking.

That's only natural I was the same every single time after the first loss.

I’ve been getting anxiety about DD too. I’ve never coddled her but for some reason today I just didn’t want her to go to school. I know it sounds stupid but was terrified something was going to happen to her and I would’ve be there. Have burst into tears randomly a couple of times thinking about it.

Of course, I picked her up at 3:15 and she was fine. Completely irrational.

Wouldn’t not would’ve

I’m pretty sure being completely irrational is a common pregnancy symptom - it certainly is for me! Be kind to yourself

@Aozora13 I’m sure hoping so!

Oh I have the irrational anxiety too. I had it with my last pregnancy and have it again. Keep panicking that my partner is going to crash the car with is in it. He's actually a really good driver. I was walking across London bridge the other day and was worried about falling in. I was nowhere near the edge!! I had it for the first few weeks that I had my baby too then it disappeared.

@mintich yes I was like it after DD was born too. I’m really struggling with sending her to school every day at the moment. I guess it’s a sort of ‘no one can look after her like I can’ sort of thing.

Just bought all of the deluxe versions of Florence + The Machine’s albums and pre ordered her new one. Have to do something to calm the nerves now that alcohol is off the menu.

Have had another very, very small bleed this morning, slight cramps but nothing like I haven’t had. Have been feeling a bit sea sick but sore boobs have all of a sudden disappeared.

Arrrggghhh why!? Just as I was starting to relax and enjoy it a bit more. Whyyyyy?

The boobs thing does come and go - it's not a direct indicator of whether everything is ok.
Call your EPU if you've had a bleed x

I’ve rung my doctors, they’re going to try and get me a scan a bit sooner. I really am sick as fuck now. I just want to know

Well at least they are taking you seriously and trying to fit you in for a scan. A tiny bleed really doesn't have to mean anything bad, bleeding can happen throughout pregnancy and it doesn't sound like there's a lot of it/it's bright red etc?

Try to stay as calm as you can, I know it's so stressful, but if you're going to have little bleeds (some women do) you need to try and get a handle on it so it doesn't drive you mad with worry, easier said than done, I know.

Iswallowtoothpaste when I had bleeds I was given a progesterone and it stopped, that's the reason it's helpful for a professional to see you, it's not just for reassurance
Hopefully you ll get EPU appointment shortly

And good luck / fingers crossed xxx

As one of the older generation of mums before pregnancy tests, scans etc, I can't believe the amount of angst women go through today. We didn't go to see our GPs until we had missed 3 periods because the testing years ago wasn't reliable enough. The sample was sent away to the hospital and we waited a week for the results. The thought of constantly testing all the time would drive me mad and frankly I really don't see the point of doing it after just a few days of a period being late.

Well my stomach is churning, just come on in the last half hour. Feel ghastly.

@idratherhaveacupoftea, they say knowledge is power but I really wish I didn’t know so much. For future reference I’ll remember that simplicity is key and to only buy pregnancy test in packs of one. It’s a good job I live rurally and the thought of having to drive several miles into a rammed seaside town to purchase pregnancy tests puts me off, otherwise I’d be neurotic and bankrupt by now.

sorry that it didn't work out OP. x

@ProperLavs, still have no idea what’s going on.