Well, i think I’m out.

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Just done another test and it’s no darker than the one I did 2 days ago. Not sure how many DPO I am but symptoms have gone too and have low abdominal cramping.

It’s taken us 2.5 years to fall pregnant again after last M/C and looks like it’s happening all over again

This baby is so wanted. Feeling very sorry for myself.

That's good news, OP. Good to hear you feeling more positive. Fingers crossed no more setbacks.

Just sitting right. Still no more bleeding. My back has been aching slightly this afternoon but nothing out of the ordinary. Boobs have been quite tender all day. Have been reading stories with tests that look similar to mine, there are a fair few that don’t end well (however have also seen that many of the women did indeed go on to have more babies eventually ) there are also quite a lot that do have a happy ending.

Woken up to another day of no bleeding, sore boobs and back pain.

Just been working things out and could really only be 19-20 dpo today (which would still mean that the CBD was behind 😕)

Just sitting tight and hoping for the best but preparing for the worst.

No bleeding is great. Have you found a scan clinic near you?

There one about 40 miles away but I was thinking of waiting a couple of weeks so that there’s something to see when I go IYSWIM. That’s basically due to the fact that my dates are VERY rough and I’m actually starting to think that I’m not as far on as I originally thought.

But then again the doctor was sending off for an early scan so perhaps I’d better wait for that providing there’s no significant bleeding in between times.

OP you're still worried about the cbd dates, did you read my post from a couple days ago?

*Cbd are the work of the devil.
They're banned in some places and you regularly see people on here stressing that they aren't showing 3+ that go on to have a healthy pregnancy.

They are notoriously unreliable and inaccurate and cause nothing but worry.

The table I've attached shows the huge range that's normal for each week the test can't cope with that. A level of 7,400 would be normal for 5, 6, 7 and 8 weeks. A level of 50 would be normal for 3, 4 nd 5 weeks.*

@zaalitje yes, apologies, I did read that and it reassured me greatly! I can imagine that they’re not the most reliable of things. Had also read somewhere else that the thresh holds were ridiculous and that everyone’s HCG level fluctuates anyway. Have been looking on google images and most of the chemicals HPT’s didn’t get as dark as mine. In fact with my own chemical my lines didn’t get as dark as the ones I’ve got now.
Just got to keep thinking positively but at the same time prepare myself for the worst.

Just in case anyone’s interested, these are the tests from my chemical. The second one is barely there. It’s giving me hope that mine are a good bit darker than these ones.

Can you post a pic of your most recent tess?

These are all of my FRER - most recent taken on Thursday AM with FMU which I thought was slightly lighter (although the last two tests were from amazon and both lines were dotty, the test line is also lighter on the last test that the ones above even though the control line was slightly lighter - hope this makes sense, so thought they were a bit dodgy) also had 1-2 on a CBD on Saturday and had positive OPK’s.

These are my OPK’s last oneis the latest that I took yesterday, should probably ignore the second one as I spilled some green sh1t on it so that’s why it’s mega dark lol.

I see. Have you taken a CBD? I can’t remember if I saw you mention it.

@SecretStash yes I took a CBD which said 1-2 weeks

Set it free usually.

@Tinypawz ?

Omg so sorry wrong thread. Totally wrong thread. Op sorry you are having such a bad time

@TinyPawz i did suspect haha. No worries

OP I'm sorry you're going through this. I get exactly what you mean about needing answers and I know how awful it is when no one can give you them - which they really can't right now. I always think the most anxiety inducing part of being a parent is how much you can't know and can't control - for someone like me who deals with anxiety by over planning and basically being a control freak it is a hard hard thing to overcome, especially when you have first hand bona fide experience of things going wrong. Wishing you all the best.

@HaroldsSoCalledBluetits it’s terrifying. I’m sort of clinging onto hope but have accepted that it could all likely go wrong too. If we ever try again, I have no idea how I’ll cope!

1-2 weeks would be right wouldn't it? It means 1-2 weeks since you conceived, you add in the time before ovulation so for me 1-2 weeks would mean I'm 3-4 weeks pregnant.

@franktheskank I’m not sure as I have no idea when I ovulated but it was definitely considerably later than it should’ve been.

Just got into work and boss asked if I was ok, she said I looked tired and as though I’d lost weight, I just burst into tears and spilled all. She burst into tears too and we were both just sat there like WTF!?

I’ve accepted that it’s probably not going to end well but the not knowin is killing me off.

Well when was your last period? That's how pregnant you would be.

You seem to be very anxious about this and from what I've read there's no reason to worry, I know you had a bleed, but you said you had those with all your pregnancies?

Have you tested the last couple of days?

@franktheskank my last period started either on the 23rd or the 24th but I ovulated at least a week later than I should’ve done.
Haven’t tested since the CBD on Saturday.

Why not buy a couple and do one tonight and one in the morning? Put your mind at rest?