Depressed

[BalticUnicorn]

Hello i think I have prenatal depression. I'm irritated and hate everyone. My friends have disappeared. I'm up all night on the loo so I'm exhausted in the day. I just can't be bothered with all the baby talk and people keep saying my bump is small so I think there's something wrong. Needing a piss constantly means I can't get comfortable and I feel weak probably From losing so much water

Ive been on them before they think i have genetically low serotonin. Im considering not taking the ADs tbh im terrifed of the side effects to the baby. How you feeling soul?

How is everyone else?

I decided not to take them again... They made me feel too loopy! I've actually been ok the last couple of days as been too busy to be down (despite the horrible sertraline side effects). So... I've got a packet and if the fog comes back over me I'll know to start again.

Any better OP?

Hi ive been busy too and have actually started to buy things! A bit less tired as im not getting up for work too. I haven't started the meds im not too sure whether too

How is everyone?

I've had a worrying weekend with spotting and have horrible stomach pains today but I think they are digestion related rather than anything else. Needless to say, it has not helped my anxiety.

How are you? Any more thoughts on taking the medication? I have decided not to take the antidepressants I had been prescribed but for now I am going to say I am.

Is anyone finding the help useful? I'm considering contacting my midwife and asking for help - I refused anti D's at my 16 week appointment but I'm really not coping well

I found talking to the psychiatrist who then prescribed me the ADs useful, I'm hindsight. We talked for about an hour and a half and it felt good just to be listened to. I would be interested to know if talking therapy is something they'd offer at the frequency needed over ADs. Probably not, but may vary from hospital to hospital.

Fuzzy im doing the same its not a risk im willing to take. Havent heard anything from mental health team been over 2 weeks. Ive joined an app called mush to meet other mums too

How is everyone?

Im feeling tearful again. Nothing from mental health team yet. Im due back at work next week to face the music too

Can you google your mental health number and call them? I've rung mine about half a dozen times and they have always called back when I haven't been able to get to the phone in time. I need to ring them again but am still bleeding so waiting until I have a scan before seeing if there is much point in speaking with them again.

I feel teary as well and if I do miscarry again, I don't think I can put myself through this another time.

Hope today is a little better for you and can you get signed off for a while longer?

Fuzzy and Baltic Feeling the same - and supposed to be on holiday feeling happy! Have to try and block it out till we get back I suppose.

Fuzzy when is your scan?

Wish I had words of wisdom for you both!

I sometimes find situations where I am supposed to be happy far more of a drain and emotionally tiring so I hope it isn't too bad for you Little. How long are you away for?

Scan is tomorrow now.

Yeah I found that massively on my birthday last week - just couldn't reach that apex of joy and I knew it was showing to others too because I'm not normally like that.

Away for another week or so, it really is a beautiful place and aside from the depression it's nice to not be on the go, or to have to pretend to be happy as it's just me and DH and the kids!

God hope everything is ok tomorrow... are you still bleeding?

I can imagine. I think it is even worse when you try so hard to be normal and know that you aren't managing it. Hope you are still able to have some kind of enjoyment whilst you are away.

Thank you and me too. Yes, I have been since Friday. Starting to feel quite pessimistic about this pregnancy now even though I saw a good, strong heartbeat a fortnight ago.

Why on earth haven't they seen you earlier? That's really bad form! How many weeks are you? Are you feeling movement yet? Could you go in as an emergency case? Sorry if too personal.

That's ok Little. I am nine weeks now and under the recurrent miscarriage clinic so I knew I could always go in as an emergency if I had to, but the bleeding was so light to begin with that I only called today. The early scan I have had with this pregnancy is the only time I've had one and things have been ok, so psychologically I tend to do everything possible to avoid scans in the first trimester (even though I know it makes no difference to the outcome).

Oh you poor thing, that's properly rough :-( I really hope the best for tomorrow.

Any news owl? How is everyone?

Thank you and big relief that everything went well.

How are you both today?

Everything went well? That's great news! Were you able to talk to anyone about access to MH services today or was it not the appropriate time?

I'm under the perinatal mental health team and have asked them to give me a call tomorrow, so hopefully I will get to speak to them then. How are things for you?

OK today, which is good! Glad you're getting something sorted and having a chilled night with a bit less worry on your plate.

Do you get classed as high risk or anything if you've spoken to your doctor about feeling depressed?