Bleeding at almost 8 weeks

[Greenglassteacup]

Not much but it's there when I wipe and it's red. This has happened a few times, at around the time of implantation & then at weeks 5 and 6. Never much but there nevertheless. Mild cramps too. I've got a bad feeling this time

Came 'round from the anasthetic with tears streaming down my face and feeling very sad. Very sore and crampy still. Thought I'd sleep well but was awake every hour or so.

Oh green I'm so very sorry.

Sometimes ga makes you sleep but other times it can mess with your patterns. Combined with pain and sadness it's not surprising you can't sleep.

Can you take some time off work to recover? Your body I mean, the heart takes longer.

I've been where you are and though it's different for everyone I felt the same way. I cried on and off for days. It's all the hormones crashing on top of grief and sadness. If you cab get raspberry leaf tea or tablets they help with the hormones a little.

The grief...Everyone is different. I'd recommend taking time for yourself, being off work and counselling. But everyone is different.

No I am not able to take time off work, I need to go back tomorrow.

Do what you need to, but please don't push yourself too hard if you are unable to take time off as you don't what them to know, my doc put post operative recovery on my sick note. I told them Gynae issues and they left me alone. But if you need to be at work to take your mind off it, just take it easy on yourself. Good luck

Oh that's shit. Can't you get a doctors note? Is there anyone there (oh?) that you can tell confidentially so that if you need to get away for five minutes to cry or just breathe then you can?

We all cope in our own way I now have 5 new hobbies/interests each taken up after a MC to take my mind off things.

My partner is very supportive, he is wonderful. Taking time off work is not an option for me. I am in a new job in a busy clinical setting. Today I am resting and napping and eating. I have a hot water bottle for the pain. I will go to bed early tonight ready for work in the morning.

Sleep well green. If you have an occupational health department, talk to them if you want support at work. Good luck for tomorrow.

No occy health. I don't want to talk to anybody at work about this, it is too personal. Thank you for you well wishes. I need to do this my way

Your well wishes

Hope tomorrow is ok for you. Take care.

Hope works goes well tomorrow Green. I went straight back to work after both my miscarriages as I wanted to get back to "normal" and it took my mind off it all. We all cope in different ways so do what's best for you. Take care

Still cramping and bleeding and feeling sick. How long should this last? Hard to try to move on when still experiencing these symptoms. Fuck my stuppid body that can't do it's job

Oh that sounds hard. Give it another day or two. And take all the paracetamol you can.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. The sickness could be a left over from the op. For pain can you get some codeine? Give it a couple of days and have a lot of hot baths if you can.

It could taper off very soon or last a couple of weeks, there's no knowing for sure.

Perhaps also ask your gp if you can take codeine before taking it.

I am taking codeine and paracetamol. That's what the hospital gave me. I am having a bath tonight as am fed up with having showers. Then hot water bottle and bed. I hate myself and everyone else tonight.

Especially the two pregnant women in the supermarket tonight

Oh green that's shit. It's hard enough seeing pregnant women afterwards but so soon after is just...Well shit is the only real word for it.

Definitely look into counselling down the line. Hating yourself is pretty normal, at least in my experience, feeling like your body has betrayed you too. All you can do is try to be kind to yourself.

I won't pursue counselling but thank you for your thoughts and kind words

I am having what I think is a normal reaction to a life event.

I think this is a pretty shitty life event, any reaction you have is normal. I don't think there's an abnormal.

What I mean is I don't think therapy is necessary, it is 4 days post surgery, I'm still cramping and bleeding, I expect anyone in this biat would feel like shit.