The best shit place to be grads - Early pregnancy after miscarriage - hopes and fears

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So heres a thread. Hope you all find it!

Congrats we've made it this far

My worry at 5 weeks is I just feel apathetic and numb. Not excited, not looking forward. Not even fear. Just.... nothing. Constant knicker watch.

Plus wondering whether to push for an early scan and if so when? Losses were 9 and 11 weeks.

Oh pickle you poor thing. I am truly very sorry. I wish you a sticky bean next time.

office please inform your dh. It's his baby too and you shouldn't be going through this alone . . And your dr too. Your spotting may be entirely normal which I very very much hope it is but either way you need your name down somewhere to make sure you receive the right care whatever route this takes.

Incidentally the mw called yday so I've scheduled my booking in app. And i spoke to her about my worries. She did her best to reassure. through my sobs .
Had an hour of real soreness earlier. I can see how it is more than likely just everything stretching etc but it's so hard to remain rational. I have 2 days at work then I'm off for 2.5 weeks but I really wish I could just start mat leave indefinitely

I need to weigh myself but I'm bloody terrified because I've been a huge porker and my mw app is in 2 weeks and I worked so hard to get under the bmi limit for the mw led centre.

Morning ladies how's everyone doing?

Chasing it would be lovely to start mat leave now wouldn't it!

Well I don't know whether I'm just unlucky or its a load of rubbish but driving has not helped my morning sickness! I spent the journey retching and was sick on getting out of the car. Fantastic! I've stocked up on mints, salt and vinegar crisps, ginger beer (pop), and some bin bags and tissues for future car journeys! I guess I did ask for morning sickness so I shouldn't complain! I asked in superdrug if they had anything and they had something called a sea-band. Its for travel sickness but states it can help morning sickness too so I'm going to go back and buy one after looking them up online! Has anyone any experience of them?

I tried absolutely everything last time from bands to ginger gums.. yuck! I had to take anti nausea tablets when I just couldn't cope anymore. I'd vom so much is burst blood vessels behind my eyes.

I need to buy sickness bags ready for our holiday ok sat. It's a 4 hr car journey sob.

Oh Chasing that sounds awful :(

Hello all.

pickle I am so sorry to read your news. take care of yourself

officelady would going along to the epu be an option? I remember that feeling of not knowing what's happening well

well I too am suffering from exhaustion and bad nausea. I've not been sick yet but the slightest thing sets it off. The only thing that is remotely helping is sucking on a lemon or drinking hot water and lemon. Focusing on Friday and my early scan at the epu. I hope they can see something.

oh and re those bands, my friend wore them when she had terrible MS, I think she felt they helped. I'm thinking of getting some for my commute in on the train/tube.

genni Sorry you are feeling poorly too :( thanks for the tips will try the lemon. Fx for your scan! Not long to go now. Hope it brings you some relief from worrying.

I could cry over the nausea today. Has been progressively getting stronger and for longer..sickness isn't far off now.

chasing sorry you're getting worse. Fx its a good sign though. I feel better for being sick atm- I don't bother fighting it. I'm yhe same with hangovers, I'd rather get some respite from the nausea albeit shortlived. Luckily its first thing for me though.

I still have no positivity for the pregnancy. I don't book in with the teaching hosp until nearly 12 weeks and that is when a scan is arranged. I'm worried about the very short time window.

My nausea has changed. Last week is was just that kind of mild nausea that you get when your blood sugar is low and is relieved when you east. Right now I can't think of anything I want to eat. Nothing.

Still don't know if I feel bad enough to have any confidence in the pregnancy. But I think the symptoms are more like they were with dd. Of they are, this is going to get worse over the next week.

Anyone else off their food? What are you eating?

My scan is a week today.

Morning!

pickle I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope to see you back again soon.

office I hope you're doing ok.

I'm getting nausea on and off but nothing too terrible yet. I used to get travel sick when I was a kid and tried all sorts of things like bands but nothing worked. Is ms likely to be different? At the moment I can smell milk from a mile off. This has not proven to be useful so far. I think it's going to be a nervous few days as Thursday will be the equivalent day I started spotting last time. I know it's not in any way related, but I think I might feel a bit better if I get past that and everything seems ok.

Looks like we are all going through it!

I am off food also. I spent my whole lunch hour trying to find something I fancied... made harder by the fact I can't have gluten! I settled for leek and bacon mash from M&S. It smells nice but will no doubt waste most of it as not at all hungry.

I also have super smell. Its really not a good thing is it! I can't stand the smell of raw meat or anything cooking :(

God, I haven't got super smell yet but I did with dd. Ugh. Couldn't stand the smell of my DH.

Fingers crossed Sasha

Hi Sasha Fx you get your BFP!

Guy that's funny, our friends are due any day now... and from very early on she made him buy a new bed to be further away from him as she said he smelled I'm lucky OH doesn't smell just yet!

Is anyone else still finding pregnancy announcements/talk hard? I thought getting pregnant would help and I wouldn't feel so down at work but no such luck. The talk of someone at work's 20w scan today has me on the verge of tears :( Maybe its cause I'm just not feeling too hopeful about this pregnancy?

Fx Sasha

I have scan tomorrow, terrified!

I agre, Amy, lady at work has same due date I did with MC, so so painful to hear her talk

Reverse what time is scan?

I'm living off crackers water and biscuits. mostly biscuits I can't ever decide what I want either.

fx sasha.

Yes I still struggle with announcements and with those with due dates near what mine should have been. its so hard. Getting a bfp hasn't made it any easier has it.

Good luck for tomorrow reverse - is this an early scan for you?

Oh and re food - struggling here. nothing takes my fancy except water and maybe crisps. I've gone off everything.

Oh good luck reverse will be thinking of you! How far on are you now?

No BFP has definitely not made it easier sadly. Hopefully when we all get good news about our babies that might help.

Only thing I want to eat tonight is a dippy egg with soldiers. May have that every night this week.

I realised today that I'm scared of miscarriage happening again but I'm not necessarily scared of listing a baby. I'm not sure if that makes sense. I haven't really even considered the possibility that this pregnancy might work out and result in a baby so the reason I'm desperately hoping for it to work out is because I don't want to go through the pain and bleeding and emotional trauma of a miscarriage again.
If we do get positive news at scan next week, I'll probably freak out that we might actually be having a baby.

Guy I feel exactly the same re miscarriage. It's odd isn't it. I get my scan Thursday and I think that may alter my thinking.

Also.

Fuck you nausea

Great news Sasha! I'm currently cd32 so I'm just a couple of days in front of you at 4+3.

Best of luck!

Congratulations sasha! Can I see your test. I love seeing bfp's!