The Berry-Copter!!!

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The Berry thread - berries (over 30s) pregnant with first baby after trying 12+ months.

Support, advice and hand holding from the grads.

Don't forget to CLENCH!

Thank you ladies, your support means so much but I can barely see to type so will have to leave it. Waking up the next morning sure is shit, it wasn't some hyper real shitty dream. Dh is crying this morning and keeps apologising, says he didn't expect it to feel so bad. He is meant to go into work. We've just spent the first part of this morning crying and cuddling. Feel so gutted that my dream was dangled and then snatched away, you ladies are right life can seem v cruel sometimes. So sorry for any of you that have also been through this, thank you for sharing and for your words.

Oh Bushy :( My heart really, really goes out to you. It is everyone's worst nightmare and it shouldn't have happened to you.

You will be back here, though. I know that probably doesn't help right now but you will be. Just take really good care of yourself.

Bushy, hope you and your DH can take all the time you need to cry and cuddle and work your way through this nightmare together. Thinking of you.

Bushy I'm very late to this but just wanted to say how sorry I am that this has happened. It's such a cruel turn and I know words can only go so far, but I'm thinking of you and your husband. Be kind to yourselves, and to each other

Still thinking of you bushy.

Thank you guys, I really appreciate it. It was lovely and v touching to read all of the messages on here and some of the private messages you'd left. A lovely surprise, I haven't replied individually yet as it really starts me off again. It was really sad to see how many of you have also had miscarriages but in some ways makes me feel less alone. tallyra you've had such a tough journey but am I right in saying you've now had your baby? ( my brain is a bit fried at the moment so apologies if I've got things mixed up)

After lighting bleeding and cramping this morning I went to the loo and felt a bit pass, looked on tissue and sorry total TMI but noticed livery discs about a cm big, quite meaty and lots of big dark red blood clots. I expect that's it. Made me so sad again and was in tears. Does this sound like sac/ fetus/ baby? I did flush it away in the end, know some people keep and bury it. What I'm thinking of doing is planting some nice spring bulbs in a bed as baby would have been due February time so maybe snowdrops as they come in early. I'm crap at looking after big plants so maybe little bulbs would be nice and also pretty.

Told a friend yesterday, she's taking me out for lunch today. Have the chiropractor later. Dreading it a bit as I'd previously told her I was pg as she needed to know to make the treatment safe... Going to have to say I've lost it. I think it's helped not telling anyone before 12 weeks as having to un tell them is going to be painful. I only have chiro and yoga teacher.

Can I ask other ladies that had mmcs- who did you tell about your mmc? Dh said I could tell who I wanted to but he is funny about saying we had IVF. Wish he'd told me this before yesterday as told my good friend. Will just tell her today not to share that bit with others. Think he said we'd only say about the IVF if people asked.

Sorry to hog and I don't want to bring anyone down on here. I am really pleased for you guys and hope all will work out for you. X x

I hope that was it for you bushy, and you've passed most of it. I have no experience I'm afraid as I opted for surgery after my mmc. Planting some bulbs sounds lovely. I didn't tell many people about the mmc. Work knew, and a couple of friends. I was also glad I hadn't told many people about the pregnancy (or in fact anyone!) which made it easier. Also made me super cautious about telling people thus time round. I had some really dark days after the mmc, and I think you have to allow yourself that. But, it did get easier. You are not alone. Xx

Oh, bushy, you've been in my thoughts since your news. So sorry again. You strike me as a strong woman and you're coping very well. I hope the physical process is as quick as possible to give you and your oh time and space to heal. Sending you all the good things in the world. xx

Ps. I know it's not an mmc, but when I had the ectopic last November, we went from no one knowing I was pregnant to all our close family and friends knowing what had happened. I don't know why we decided to tell those close to is, but we both found it was a good thing: we felt supported and all our friends rallied round in the least obvious and loveliest of ways. I felt very exposed, yes, but I am glad we told them. It's different for everyone though and you and your oh should do whatever feels right for you.

Bushy you are handling this so well. I'm really in awe at your strength. I hope that is it for you now and your body will give you a break.

Just chill out and enjoy your Devon trip. Have a big glass of wine and do lovely relaxing things.

Everyone is thinking of you xx

Think that's a lovely idea about planting something bushy No experience here as had surgery after my mmc. It was nice to talk to a few people in real life about it so do open up if you need to. None of my friends have had a mc but a few of DH's friends had and it was really nice to talk to someone who really understood how I was feeling. Have you considered the miscarriage boards on here if you don't fancy talking to loads of people in real life? They really helped me. Thinking of you x

How is everyone today?
I am exhausted after driving to town, getting my hair cut, and driving home again Am supposed to be driving up to Yorks on Mon and may not cope!

Bushy hope you are getting some tlc time with DH xx

I'm alright thanks RP, I went to pregnancy yoga yesterday! Everyone was much more pregnant than me! But I'm keen to try and stay fit. It was quite good! 15weeks today. Come on 20 week scan!! I'm much less tired and nauseous now, hopefully the tiredness will ease off for you soon RP.

I'm still exhausted too rp - have spent most of this afternoon in bed fantasising about a strawberry milkshake and too lazy to get up and make one/buy one! Hoping it wears off soon and I have a spurt of normal energy levels for a few months soon. You off to Yorks for work? Swishy new hair! I really need to do something about the way I look - really in need of some DIY, but to exhausted to even shave my legs at the moment.

Oooh, win been researching pregnancy yoga classes recently - they're bloody expensive! All around £18 a class! Will keep looking methinks. Can't blv you're now 15 weeks. All going so quickly.

Got my nhs letter for downs testing in the post today. Gave us 1 in 6000 chance, so they don't want to to further tests. Still no news on Harmony bloods but I'm not that worried, although I do feel that I've paid good money for them so want the results anyway.

How is everyone doing? bushy hope you're as ok as can be. xx

Good news on results Feather!

Yeah nausea is gradually passing, though it still takes hold at inconvenient moments like when the hairdresser is doing a scalp massage. I have had a refurb this weekend! Boots have an offer on a new range of gel-look nail varnish so I bought a lovely bright red and did a proper mani-pedi. Also put on make up for about the first time in 3 months and felt so much more human with my hair cut!

One bad result of the nausea passing is I can now eat sweet things again and the dino is all about the Cadburys chocolate fingers. I definitely have a carb bump though not showing otherwise. Win pg yoga is probably a v good idea.

Off for 1week research / working hol and then one week proper hol! Will stay with DPIL and DM.

I have the makings of a little bump RP. When do people normally start showing?? Enjoy your time off! Congrats on your test results feather! Hope the harmony ones come through soon.

Quite fancy some swishy new haircut!

Bushy been thinking about you the past few days, planting bulbs sounds lovely. I hope you and DH are finding strength and comfort in each other x

Hope the rest of you are doing well x

So, new pregnancy symptom for me, I fainted this morning! Woke up on the bathroom floor! Called nhs direct and they don't seem worried, but have organised for me to see a doctor at 12 just to get blood pressure checked etc. think I'll stay in bed till then, although feeling fine now.

Win, gosh! Are you okay? Did you hurt yourself?

How scary! I would def ring the MW on Mon.

Crikey win - hope all ok. That must have been scary. Let us know how you get on with the docs later.

Back from gp. They checked temp, uti, blood pressure etc. they're not worried, said it was probably low blood pressure. Thankfully I didn't fall, I'd sat myself on the floor because I was feeling dizzy.

Anyone up to anything nice today?

Well, that's a relief win. And well done on sitting down when you felt dizzy. My colleague fainted at work when she was 6 months pregnant and it was awful. It was low blood sugar that did it so she took to carrying a bag of haribo around with her everywhere she went!

Had lunch with friends at a pub today and told them out news. They were so happy for us and it made me get a little excited. Still thinking something is bound to go wrong, but
Allowing myself tiny bits of joy here and there. The Sickness is back now. Been laying in the bed for the last half hour willing it to go away. Bleeeurgh.

Hope everyone is having a lovely weekend and enjoying this gorgeous weather.

Is everyone ok? I seem to have killed the thread!

All well here...

All well here too thanks! We've started telling a few people, which seems to have increased my anxiety about something going wrong!