Hi guys. Can I join you, please? I feel a bit of a fraud as I don’t have HG, but I’m currently 8+3 and my morning sickness is making me feel so down.
The nausea is there all day, getting constantly worse and I tend to be sick at least once a day, usually late afternoon/early evening. I’m a stay at home mum to a 2.5 year old little boy and I feel like I’m being such a rubbish mum at the moment as I can’t play with him properly – I’ve got no energy at all. CBeebies is on practically all the time and I know I should turn the telly off and feel so bad about that too.
I’m okay with certain foods (e.g. toast, cheese, potatoes, pasta), but I’m finding it difficult to drink anything at all at the moment and am lucky to manage 2 small glasses of water a day. Most smells make me want to cry too.
To top it off, we’ve just moved to a new area for DP’s job and I’m trying to make some friends for myself and DS. I’m just about managing to bring him to two toddler groups a week but they completely take it out of me and I can do nothing else for the rest of the day. I’m really missing my local NCT group where we lived before as they were fab and there was always something to go to and always somebody available to chat, laugh and have coffee with.
DP is great with cooking and helping out generally, but he works long hours and is out of the house from 6.45am – 6.45pm. My mum and dad live an hour away, but we wanted to wait until after the dating scan to tell them. I think I might have to tell them sooner as I’m finding it really difficult to manage. DS is in nursery one morning a week, which helps but it’s not enough.
I’m really at my wit’s end at the moment and need a shoulder to cry on. I feel like a prisoner in my own body (and home) at the moment. I just want to feel better, but realistically I know that I’ve got weeks of feeling unwell ahead of me. The days are just so long and I want to cry as soon as I get up in the morning, especially on Mondays.
Apologies for the long post - I just needed to get it off my chest.