Pregnancy after miscarraige.........POWER to the Beanies!!!!

[oinker]

Ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..

Hope this is OK.

Please feel free to change it to something else if not totally satisfied.

Its different with someone else's child and maybe you don't feel you could do this (but if you were looking after my child I'd be perfectly happy etc). When I shattered i.e. this afternoon I curl up in a room that is lockable/containable and safe (for me this is the bedroom). I put a dvd on for the child and explain that I'm going to sleep/shut my eyes and then I dose. Its not the same as complete peace and quiet but I do feel a lot more rested and able to go on afterwards. I shall be doing this with dd2 this afternoon having had a bad night with back ache.

Hi HK, how prem was ds2?

Thanks wills and Hk - have given myself the afternoon off. I know i;d feel happy doing what you suggest with my own child, but i'd never forgive msyelf if anything happened to someone elses in my care. i know i wouldn't be able to rest knowing that they're there in my care.
I'm going to go and put my feet up for a bit and put the water on ready for a nice warm bath later. thanks guys.

Really need to get off mn soon haven't packed my hospital bag and dh is starting to get very jittery with me about it. Also have to help my youngest brother with his dissertation. Bet I'm on here loads more though. [grin[

Well done Diddle! Get well soon hun x
Wills- He was born 52 minutes into my 34th week so just over 6 weeks. Good healthy 4lb 14ozs though and meant to stay in scbu for 6 weeks, came home after 13 days.

We only get forntightly appointments here too. But if i am worried about anything i just call the day assessment unit and go in.

Well had a few contractions last night, quite strong but not regular. I think I might have had a little bit of a show this morning, there was some muscosy discharge, no blood but defintely different to usual discharge. I dont think I need to call anyone yet though. I have to go into hospital tomorrow for a pre op assessment. I will ask to be examined though and if by any chance it does look like the big event might start on its own I will cancel to ceaserean. If not, then I will go ahead with it.

Well cori one way or another your baby is coming in the next few days! Hope it all turns out as you would like.
I dunno how many visits I will get near the end. There's been cut backs since I had DD1&2 and I moved while having DD3 so it was all mixed up! There's two tables in my notes for low- and high-risk women. But the MW put me as moderate/medium risk because of hypothyroidism. So I will get more visits than a low risk woman but not as many as a high risk woman. So playing by ear I think I'll go when she asks me.
Lately have been contemplating a homebirth. I know the consultant would say OK because he did last time but then with me bleeding in labour last time I dunno if that would change things. I am happy to have this baby in hosp cos I know ppl this time around who can look after DD's. It's just if I labour during the night I don't wanna call upon these ppl then.

hope everyone had a good weekend, tis so wet and horrible in london

wills - hope babywills is moving ok again. i do have long periods of quiteness which worry me too

diddle - well your body is really making labour twinges!! hope you can hold on for another week or 2. def rest up for rest of the day.

cori - seems like things will start soon :) i would cancel cs and wait for the vbac. maybe you should go on a long walk today, see if it starts anything off.

mygirl- i know what you mean about in the night, i dont want to have to call anyone at a crazy time either, especially dont want to have to hoof the kids out of bed at 3am to drop them round a friends house etc
hopefully i will get a homebirth and i wont have to think about all that. my sister is coming down to look after kids should i have to go to hospital but she lives miles away so might not make it in time etc.

i dunno how often i will be seen from now on as am transfering care to the community midiwfes, i have been seen every fortnight up to now, so shouldn't be less i hope.

i have been having some major bh and some horrible pressure and cervix pain, my cervx is desperate to open- thank god the stitch is holding it together well! i do not think i will go alot furthur after the stitch is out, i am very worried about having the baby on 6/6/06 so am planning bedrest that week as thats the week after my stitch is removed!

06/06/06!!! Can't recall if you know the sex of your baby--but you could always call it Damien (or Lucy, short for Lucifer)
Glad to hear things sound like they are kicking off for Cori.
I'm having a hard time staying positive. Thursday (when I go to Kings) seems a long way off and I am scared about what they might find. Have moments when I can trust everything will be OK, but most of the time am a lot less positive.
Hi to everyone else.

i've made a big decision. well big for me. I'm stopping work this friday!!! as opposed to the 26th may,
I'm wearing myself out to please the kids parents and keep everyone happy, and thats not right. I feel very guilty for stopping, but i'm knackered and baby should come first.

dreading giving the letters out and telling the parents but i really should be thinking of me not them.

Diddle - I think you are right and if the parents know that by working you could be risking babydiddle coming out early I'm sure they'd understand. Now enjoy the rest, no extra cooking or owt, just reading and lying down!
Arabica - can you do something to take your mind off things til Thurs?
Oinker - how are you today and thinking of you for 2moro. Hope the outcome is good, I'm sure it will be.
Got drenched picking the kids up from school!

arabica- might as well just go for the lucifer name lol
and good luck for thursday, really hope the second opinion gives you a better news

oinker- where are you ??? are you sh*ing it for tommorrow?? will be thinking about ya.

diddle- best decision you have made hun, don't feel guilty, looking after so many kids is hard work. there are only a few weeks left before you pop! you def need to relax more, make the most of the peace before the sleepless nights. no hoovering though please!

thanks all, think i'd go insane if i didn't have you all to share my thoughts with. DH has been telling me for weeks to stop sooner, and i've finally decided to listen.

Slink - 666 means powerful. It doesn't mean the devil but became associated with the devil because of power etc. 6/6/6 marks the end of my going late period i.e. if induced on the 5/6/06 I could labour through to the following day. Dh keeps looking out for Rottweillers .

Diddle - I think its how you write the letter. I'm good at this sort of thing if you want some help. I think you need to be gently firm but explain your situation and then there wouldn't be many mother's in this world who wouldn't understand even if its frustrating.... And remember if they are offish - stuff em

thanks wills - letters are all done, have got my mom and Dh to proof read them and they think they're perfect and said the same as you, if they're funny, stuff em. I am more important.

Morning all!
Good luck Oinker !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was sat last last night sending as many positive vibes as i could muster hun, lets hope this scan brings wonderful news xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Slink- Lol @ 6/6/6, I'd laugh if you did birth on that day

Nowt wrong with the name Damian, my little cherub is called that Only problem is people's reactions to his name. Even the mw checked his hair for 666 when he came out lol

Hope everyone's well on this crappy grey day! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Morning HK - Good Luck Oinker, you have all my love and best wishes for today, hope you'll be alright, and see your gorgeous little bundle.

Oinker - good luck.

Good vibes coming your way, Oinker.

Diddle, I'm glad you've decided to give up work, why stress yourself out.
Mygirl, for me work helps to take my mind off things and I have 2 features to crack on with--the aim is to finish both by Thurs (am a journo).

Oinker-good luck today. Thinking of you.

Arabica - having two projects to finish by Thurs will def keep yr mind off things!
Just watched our wedding and graduation DVD!

hi everyone hope alls ok

sending vibes down the A40 oinker:)

Oinker - how r u?

Sorry for not getting back sooner.......

Bad news......
I have had a definate m/c
Scans showed sac and non viable pregnancy.
They were really good at the hospital. Three of them scanned and re-scanned me for nearly an hour. Scan shows I have two large (orange sized) fibroids and an odd shaped uterus. Appareently it's shaped like a heart... Neither are a reason for m/c.
I will be having an ERPC on Friday morning.
I am so releived to get a definate answer and solution to all of this.

I am not shocked or upset as I always expect this kind of outcome. It is just a bit frustrating.

I best get back over to the TTC after m/c thread..
It was fun being here.
I will keep popping in just to make sure you and beanies are behaving.

Thanks for all those positive vibes and supportive advice.

Good luck...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx