Pregnancy after miscarriage -support thread

[cori]

As some of you already know I am currently 5 weeks pregnant after having had a missed miscarriage at 17 weeks in April of this year.
I am very pleased and excited to be pregnant again but at the same time full of fear and anxiety.
Their seems to be a lot of women on mumsnet at the moment who have experienced a recent miscarriage and are pregnant again. We all have the same worries.
Hopefully we can use this thread to offer each other mutual support and help keep each other positive.

cori - not loads of spotting, just a little some one wiping, seems to have stopped for now.
wills - no tehy didn't mention cysts

sounds like the same as mine then.

Have a good week everyone, I am off to Cornwall for half term so wont be around

Had my dating scan, I'm 8weeks 1 day. All fine, saw it's little heart beating away. I'm going to try and relax now, enjoy the pregnancy and think positively. May go quite on here until something exciting/difficult happens. TTFN.

congrats flutterbye, thats excellent, so nice to see the little heartbeat isn't it.

cori have a fun half term!

How is everyone? its so quiet on here.
Xena - how was your scan and i wonderif your pc is up and running yet.

Had a blood test on Friday and another one yesterday. Will find out today if the HCG levels have doubled, to indicate a continuing pregnancy.

Friday's blood shad a level of c.10,000, which my GP best friend said is about right for a 6 weeker.

But even if I get a "positive" result this afternoon (I've got to ring the nurse between 1 and 2 for the result), I won't really stop worrying until the scan next Tuesday.

Still assuming the worst, as I don't "feel" at all pregnant: no sore boobs (that stopped about 2 weeks ago), no tightening of clothes, no extreme tiredness.....

prettybird - you coudl just be lucky and not be feeling crap, I'm sure baby is fine, very positive that your levels were right for 6 wks. Will be thinking of you all day, good luck hun and keep us posted.

Diddle - you're right - I could just be lucky - and in fact, with ds, I did have a "dream" pregnancy, with no nasty symptoms.

However, when I had had my missed miscarriage, I had also stopped "feeling" pregnant - and even re-did a test (which still showed positive). It was only went we went in for the CVS at what should have been 11 weeks that we found out that it had stopped growing a few weeks before.

I know this time around that there is no point in repeating a pregnancy test, as I know there is a yolk and a sac present - so all the test would do is pick that up.

I suppose it is just part of my "defence" mechanism - to assume the worst at this stage. I keep on trying to dampen down any wee thoughts of hope, as I dont' want to get my hopes up only to have them crushed. But I am only human - and my "normal" character is to be postive and always to assume the best.

The verbal reult from the blood test is that it has dropped. Now c.9,200.

It's what I "felt", but it is still a disappointment.

Need to talk to my GP tomorrow (got a phone appt booked at 2.30) to discuss where we go from here, but suspect that it will be a case of going for the scan next Tuesday to get it confirmed and then making the arrangements for the ERPC.

oh prettybird i'm so sorry, you must feel so numb. they don't appear to have dropped much, is that normal? Oh i hope they made a mistake, and if they didn't that they take care of you, and you get the rest and suppor that you need, I know how you feel and it is a horrible empty feeling. keeping everything crossed that they messed up and baby is still there x x x i'm here if you need a chat feel free to cat me anytime.

prettybird, i am so sorry babe, are they sure that you are m/c as diddle says, its not gone down much. thinking of you.

I'm pretty sure the figures are correct and that I have miscarried. According to the scan last week, I was only 5 weeks (no fetal pole, just a yolk and a sac). Even if I was hwere I thought I should be, I owuld only by 8 weeks.

And it is only after 8 weeks that the elvels start to plateau and then declin.

So yes, there is a tiny chance that the results are misleading. That is why I iwll still be going for my scan next Tuesday.

But for me, the clincher is that for the last couple of week, I haven't "felt" pregnant. No extra loo trips, no excessive tiredness (both of which I did epxerience with ds), no extra discharge (tmi!) and definitely no thickening of waist (or, as my dh so delicately puts it, no "rounding" of my bum!). I am still in the skinniest of my trousers.

I'm human, so I won't totally give up hope until I've seen the scan next Tuesday, but essentially, I now expect the worst.

Oh Prettybird I'm soooooo incredibly sorry. Loads of hugs {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} honey.

how you doing prettybird???

i don't blame you, have a nice warm bath and curl up on the sofa. you deserve it.

.... but tonight I've got to go and do "scary sotries" at the Hallowe'en Party at ds' primary school. I stupidly volunteered!

Ds (5) is going as a dalek. This is his first school party, so he is really excited!

awww bless, i bet thats the last thing you feel like doing, but it could be very rewarding, making all those kids happy. I work with kids every day and it is good fun, they always manage to make you smile even when you're low.

Well, I've been back to my GP for another blood test this morning, as apparently the last one was only 2 to 300 less than the first one and he would have expected more of a drop if I were miscarrying.

He's not trying to give me false hope: the combination of factors - the scan dates being "out", the lack of supporting sympotms and the non-increasing HCG levels together don't look good. But at least by having another test and getting the result before the weeknd, I might know more by the weekend, instead of just this horrible limbo.

If they have dropped further, then I am definitely miscarrying. If they haven't, then it will be case of just having to wait until the scan on Tuesday, so no worse than where I am at the moment.

So I shouild know more at 1.30 tomorrow when I get the results.

oh prettybird, what a rollercoaster you're on. I hope its good news, keep us informed, we're thinking of you.

Thinking of you Prettybird, I hope all goes well.

any news perttybird? my thoughts are with you.

I'll find out at 1.30 today.

In some respects, a massive drop in the HCG levels would be a relief: at least I would then know.

thinking of you prettybird, hope your results can tell you whats going on, as i know waiting must be agonising.

i am 6 weeks today and feeling like an emotional wreck, i can't sleep as i am having nightmares, i am so stressed out, i darent go to my doctors and book in. i know she will ask me to come back and see the nurse where they will do a pg test! thats what they did last time even though i had 5 tests on me all showing bfp's.
then the dr will just write the booking form to the hospital without even caring that this pg i might be high risk of preterm labour and then i won't here another thing until im 14 weeks!
i don't think i can go through it again, and i havent got the fight in me to demand better care!