wook what you said rings very true here, I do tend to swing between wanting out and thinking maybe I should just put up with it I'm hoping that relate can help me/us work out if things are salvagable I guess and if not, an amicable way to seperate.
Laugs we did struggle after DS1 and I think part of his lack of support/effort with it all contributed to my pnd. We did come out the other side, but not until DS1 was about 2.5.
The main issues are his lack of support to me and the dc's, his lack of commitment to the marriage and his selfishness (e.g. he doesn't see that the finances should be a shared responsibility, they're mine as I earn more ). Naturally I am not perfect and will have to work on the things that I do that don't help.
I think we're in a pattern where I'm now almost taking the parent role to his teenager rols
Well, the hungry formula bought an extra hour and then the dummy (twice!) another one, so last night was a 4am feed and then a 6am one again. Obviously I didn't sleep properly (!!!) but hopefully I can get this to be the new routine and then will adapt my sleep pattern. Finally the congestion seems to be easing slightly so hopefully that will also help.
Laugs sorry to hear the thrush is back, you deserve a medal for your perseverance. Re school hols, I've used holiday clubs in the past. There is a nursery attached to one of our children's centres who also run an after school club and holiday club. You just need to ring around and find them. It's a pain tbh, I also know others who spread their holidays with their OH to cover most hols.
Fruit, wook, sorry to hear your day starts so early Ioan does seem to be more alert at the 4am feed but (touch wood) so far seems to go back to sleep. The clocks go forward again soon so maybe that might help? I noticed chinks of light coming through our curtains at that feed this morning.