Daisy, I am thinking of you so much and willing today to be ok. I was reading this thread on my phone on the train last night and was dying to post but I just didn't dare (as my phone posts 100 times in one go)- but whilst your DH is really suffering I am afraid he is using you as an emotional punchbag. It's just not on. I was trying to think of people you could confide in and who could have a word with him and thought of your MIL's sister, who you said was nice and sensible, but your idea of talking to a couple of his good friends is a much better one. Goading your DD into saying naughty things to you is really wrong but it's not the real him, he is just going loopy with grief. But that said - even within such an awful thing as grief, there are still limits to how we treat loved ones. HOWEVER, when DH died, I was so cold to my family (who I utterly love) about it, I really just cut them out for a while and didn't even want them at the funeral (though I agreed they could come in the end thank goodness). It was crazy, awful behaviour and I can't believe I was like it now, and your DH will come through this and be sad about the way he was with you (or maybe won't even remember). Anyway, that was quite rambling but above all, beaming you lots of love and strength today.
Scan was weird yesterday - my last period was 17 Dec but the child was conceived on or around 10 January (I know this for certain as it was the only unprotected sex I had anywhere near that time) so with my unwieldy cycle I am only 6.5 weeks. The lady who was doing the scan was saying "The pregnancy is very small for 8 weeks, it may not be developing properly" and I kept saying I am not 8 weeks though, and it all got a bit silly. I am not seeing my consultant until 22 Feb (before our meet up) but I might ring her today because the scan lady upset me. Anyway, there was a heartbeat and everything that should have been there was, and it was the right size for the age I KNOW it is so fingers crossed.
DP was at home so I didn't have to take DD, so I had planned lunch with a friend before the scan and then drinks and dinner with another friend in the evening, followed by some late night comedy. However, it took me 3 hours to get in on the train because there was a suicide on the track near Slough (seems to happen quite a lot) so we all had to go on a local stopping service and stand all the way so I missed lunch and was late for my scan. Then poor little DD was ill and I wanted to be home with her so I just had a quick drink with my friend and came home. It's an MMR reaction, her temp went up to 39.9 and she was all floppy and DP said she was too ill to cry, could only whimper She would have been fine with DP, he is brilliant with her but I just wanted to see her. Anyway, late last night her temp was down to 36.6 so much better, and she was all perky again.
Jump, as soon as I change her nappy her hands are straight down there. I'm not fussed if it is just wee but if it's a dirty one I make a joke out of continually moving her hands back and tickling her if she does it. I am hoping that is a nice aversion therapy When she is in the bath she doesn't seem fussed as she is too into splashing to worry about her bits...
Beans, DD is not attached to any one toy in particular. She will have a fad on one for 20s mins and then move onto the next one. She is fickle, like her mother Though she does love a floppy eared bunny slightly more than other things, that my best mate (and a long ago Ex) bought for her.
WG, sorry DD is begging for food. I simply can't imagine it as we have the opposite problem. If I tucked into an 8 course gourmet blanket before DD, she would studiously ignore me. She's just not interested. Oh sure, we TRY to give her things off our plate if they are suitable, but she just half heartedly gives a little chew and chucks them away. The only thing she really seems into is formula. (Rubes, I did smile about your DS running around in confused excitement when he sees the milk, that is SOOO cute).
Effie, that house looks super! I love it!
CS and stitches - I dimly remember my consultant telling me the type of stitches used depends on the state of your skin. I was lucky to be able to have the good ones last time and I hope I will again. I will ask her about it when I see her. I don't have stretch marks or loose skin or any of that, and am not too fat on my lower tummy either (weight has gone on all over so my thighs and bum are horrendous, arms etc). As for numbness, I have that just above my scar, for 1-2cm.
Right, breakfast. I am starving.