Hi all, I've been painting and varnishing here every evening so I've been missing out on posting because of that.
Tis lovely to see the house beginning to look nice though. It must be fab to have the new windows Sazzles. Cyteen - what a tricky time with being sick, and the nursery too. It's great too that you are able to talk so honestly about how you feel with DP and with us here.
You always appear to me to have huge strength - and that's not a twee comment on the fact that you have survived the grief you've been through. It's a compliment on your great sense of justice and passion for life ... I hope that makes sense.
I'm not sure exactly what happened with the Cruse person, but even the idea of meeting them must have brought lots of very big emotions to the surface, and you can't just put them back in their box at will.
Feeling overwhelmed by all that emotion is a rational response to that it seems to me.
One of my dearest friends had counselling a few years ago, and the whole thing from the idea of it until the end was purely awful for her. The difference it has made to her life is immeasurable, though it seemed impossible at the time.
Can I pass on birthday wishes too?
Plans are afoot here for celebrations for next week. DD2 has started say 'dedeya' so that she can point to the cows in the field behind our house ('There they are'). Her attempts to moo are delectable. And she is waking stupid amounts at night.
Love to everyone else too.
I must sleep!