No you didn't upset me at all, alux. I just wish I could make it happen! DH finishes work tonight (he's a teacher) and is going out with colleagues, so I have cheekily booked a babysitter for the evening, even though I will be in.
This probably sounds insane, but I suddenly realised I'd have been looking after DD from about 11:30pm last night through to whatever time tomorrow morning, and realised I just couldn't do it. Probably makes me sound really feeble, but I just couldn't face doing that many hours without any respite.
I haven't started taking the AD's the GP gave me, as I think a lot of my PND is down to not feeling/being supported, or getting a break.
btw the Evening Standard interviewed me earlier in the week, because of all the publicity about maternity wards etc. They didn't run the story in the end, which I'm slightly relieved about (!), but it was an interesting (if stressful) experience.
Oh, and I finally got a letter back from my hospital about my complaint. They have lost my postnatal notes () so decline to comment on large chunks of my letter, and also spell DD's name incorrectly throughout. I am thinking of taking legal advice...