Have looked at your vid and now I am in tears josey which doesn't happen very often, what an amazing and determined little lady, and what a stunner she is too! I just keep thinking about that initial terrible prognosis they gave you, she has a permanent two fingers up at those doctors doesn't she!!
And the big news here is Caitlin has fed a few times, she woke up ravenous at 5.30 and although she was reluctant she was finally persuaded to give it a go, and she's fed another 2 times since. I can't tell you the relief - including physically, yes Deb, despite expressing I was getting pretty sore! (and itchy from the engorgement, which was horrid)
It was definitely my reaction to her biting that did it. She has nipped a few times and although I try hard not to react there is an immediate instinctive flinch which really upsets her each time. The first time she reacted like when they get their immunisations - shocked silence before a despairing wail with tears - so it must have really scared her. I am just trying to be as gentle and reassuring as possible each time and hopefully she and I will both relax. (And hopefully she will stop nipping too!!)
I don't know if we are out of the woods completely yet, but we are both pretty relieved to have got this far. Thanks for being there the past few days. And I take my hat off to those of you who expressed to feed a non-latching newborn, it was hard enough managing these few days with an older child who's eating and drinking, must be absolutely shattering doing it for a newborn (and especially josey, the circumstances under which you managed it, for weeks on end, I am as usual in awe.)