ok, found it, apologies again - maybe we should have a thread rule that important things should be typed in red and normal chat in black
all of mine would be black due to my wittering and crappy patter
cyteen first of all can I please say don't make the mistake of undermining or 'missing' how you're feeling - it is so easy to get all caught up in it all.
trying to find a routine, making sure you're doing the best for Joe, getting back into shape etc etc all of these things are important BUT the world will not stop turning if you think, sod it, I am having a day snuggling with my boy and sod the washing/dinner/hoovering/looking presentable etc
take it from someone who's pfb is now nearly 6 I only wish I'd taken to my bed and indulged myself in her completely as I now feel like I've blinked and missed it.
secondly it is wonderful that you are aware that you are feeling down/not quite right. It could be exhaustion or it could be PND or just a low moment but the fact that you are aware of it is a great thing as long as you keep talking to someone/dp/us then you know whats going on and to watch for anything serious
having a new baby can be overwhelming. having a new baby after such a huge bereavement can also cause you to have mixed emotions. either one on their own can send you in a spin so you're doing fantastically well and I think I speak obo of everyone, we'll give you all the support and help we can
shall leave now and let someone else talk sense as I seem to be wittering