Oct 2007: This little piggie ate lots of Christmas turkey.... all by themselves!

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Thought this was appropriate given latest discussion and thought I would start a new thread before this expires!!!!

LES OK if she admitted it then clearly it happened . If they realised before he passed away though this is VERY easily dealt with as there is an antidote to morphine that can be given. Sorry if I am focusing on something that isn't at the heart of this for you - I know though that if a mistake happened that I felt might have cause someone I loved to pass away I would probably find that harder to come to terms with than if it was just the result of thm being no longer able to fight a serious illness... Thinking of you xxx

Les - I agree with the others, there is no need to say sorry about talking if you need to. I think that is what makes this thread work.

I am so sorry for the awful loss of your father. I can't imagine how awful it must have been for you, especially with all those complications. Do you think you would consider getting some professional support? It sounds like you could do with some space to talk it through with someone. For what it's worth I don't think five years is all that long when it comes to recovering from a loss like that.

Inzi - how's Jane today?

DH needs computer so that's all for now!

Stefka, I am going to have to seek some sort of help. When dad died I became very depressed and ended up on ADs for over a yr. I have been off of them since 2005 but since Uncle Larry died i know my depression has returned hence my low mood today, I am going to call dr's and get an appt.

Also next sunday my sister has ordered me to leave Zachary with her and Grant and I are apparently going out lmao we'll see!!!!!!

Sounds like a night out will do you good!

I am glad you are going to see your Dr. It sounds like the depression was almost put on hold and the recent death of your uncle has triggered it off again. I hope your Dr can get you seen by someone asap.

Stefka NOOOOOO not the night lol
just for a drive during the day lol

ops! Thought you were going out on the razzle dazzle! Was fairly jealous as have not had a night out in....actually can't remember the last one! A drive sounds nice though.

LES SORRY YOU ARE HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME, I THINK YOU SHOULD CERTAINLY SEEK SOME ADVICE, I THINK BEREAVEMENT COUNSELLING WOULD DO YOU THE WORLD OF GOOD XX

oops sorry about the caps, i came online to say hello, but have just found something out and i am so so angry!

regardless of the problems me and Rich have been having we where still organising christmas as though we where going to be ok, his aunty invited us for christmas dinner but they where not eating till 3, which is what time dd1 goes to her dads(and also, im it is far too late to make the dcs wait to be fed!) so instead of causing problems i popped round to see her and said, if she wasn't offended, we would have dinner here at the normal time (12-1 ish) and then pop to see them for an hour before dropping dd1 off, i thought everything was sorted, but i'd talk to Richies mum that night, (the Aunt had offered to bring it forward to 2.30, to which i said thank you very much but its still too late)and mentioned that she offered to bring it forward to 2.30, and then i also said that she'd mention her dh wanted to go to the pub for a couple of hours(which is the real reason they're eating at 2.30!) but Richies mum must have misheard me and thought i'd said they where going to pub till 2.30(which i so didn't!)

anyway-the 2 sisters argued and everyones having dinner seperately apparantly, i was trying to compromise and make it so that everyone was happy.

The Aunty has been making comments on FB about it all, but nothing specifically aimed at me, but then i found out that she has wrote about it on another forum, and also said its all my fault for causing trouble for saying they where going to pub((again)which i didn't!!) and saying she now doesn't trust me and other people on the forum have called me a shit stirrer, i am so angry i am shaking, what shall i do?

That's a horrible situation. I think I would want to try and sort it out - make it clear to the aunt that it was a misunderstanding but I am crap at conflict and just want everyone to be happy so probably not the best person to ask.

arghhhhhh!! she has now wrote on the other forum that i have put a bitchy comment on Fb, wonders if i'm annoyed i've been caught out!! wtf am i meant to do? i can't say i know shes written all that, because it looks live i've been spying on her-which, admittedly i suppose i have, but i'm glad i now know where i stand.
I'd rather get everyone together and have it out with them, but how am i to know that everyone won't pretend its all ok and then be bitchy behind my back?

sorry for the me me me posts, i feel really upset, i'm meant to be revising for exam tomorrow, better try and get on with it. love to all xx

ignore my posts today if anyone has any advice regarding them, please look here Shannon is back from my friends so didn't get much revision done. Muppet-grr, i wished you happy birthday last month also and it still didn't click when i did it again

Jules kick aunties ass girl or get me to do it lol

think i'll do it myself after the things she has been saying about me LES i give up, i'm just not going round at all, i'm sick of it. Right the girlys are in bed, going to try and revise!

J2O have posted on your other thread - she sounds a bit unhinged to be honest. Good luck sorting it out. And hope you manage to get some revision done!

Hello everyone else! Dh is away in London tonight so I am just chilling on MN before I need to feed Adam at 10.30 then will be off to bed! Good news from me is I have lost the splint after my hand clinic appointment today! Thumb hurting a little so I'm taking it easy at the mo but will try and get back to normal gradually. Have another appointment in a month to make sure all on the mend....

Alice-thanks, you're the best
great news about the splint, don't be banging it or getting it twisted and making it worse! xx

I have posted too J20. I hope this upset hasnt harmed your revision and that you fly through the exam tomorrow.

Tles and LLL...I wish I didnt know exactly how you both feel ... what hurts me most is seeing the grandson he so wanted and never saw and knowing how much he would have adored him, I weep for his loss most nights... I too think that counselling it the cure, I will be seeking some myself as I still cant come to terms with Dads loss 20 months ago; certain pieces of music set me off, seeing his writing on the wall when we were decorating had me sobbing for ages...we just about finished Mums living room yesterday and he would have been so proud of the work my bro and dh did on it I wept all the way home...I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.

Alice; glad the splint is off and hope it is 100% soon.

thanks FT-it most certainly has knackard my revision up, but theres not a lot i can do about it.

how's Alex been sleeping the past couple of days? hope you are getting some rest.

FT I know what you mean about music setting you off.
Luther Vandross ~ Dance with my father,

John Lennon ~ Beautiful Boy (was playing as dad died)

Ozzy and Kelly Osbourne ~ Changes (was released just around time dad died)

And one that today has had me crying as I just couldn't turn it off and listened to it more than once...was by Mariah Carey and Boys to Men. One sweet day...the lyrics are gorgeous

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day

Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

BUT I do feel a bit better today...
Jules thanks for the text xxxxx

Those of you who are dealing with such terrible loss - I think you are really brave. I can't imagine how hard it must be and how difficult it is to process. I hate the way that our society pushes people to be over things so quickly. I don't think it is healthy or natural. Healing takes time and you are entitled to as much time and space as you need to get better.

Dareh has a little zoo toy. He just moved the animals out of their cages and put the people in instead. He is clearly going to be a political activist!

Inzi, she is going to excel in abstract art of course!!!!!!!! (think yourself lucky its biscuit and not something else lolol)

Morning all, second day of no heating british Gas coming out again today to see if they can fix it this time. Ollie at home with a very runny nose, Henry has a nasty cold too. We're just off out to get a change of scenery and some hot food in a warmer place!

xxxx

Muppet hope you get the heating back on soon - its baltic up here and can't imagine no heating!!!

Stefka pmsl at Dareh being a political activist!!!! And Jane being an abstract artist - liking that LES!

Well I'm sat at home - Sam was up being sick in the night so hasn't been able to go to nursery today. With dh in London for work there was no option other than for me to stay home with him. Frustrating as it's my last week in that job but there you have it. He is so fine too but it was a proper vomit all in his bed and he was pretty sorry for himself for an hour or so before too so I couldn't ignore it and send him in - for him or the other kids. Plus he would probably have announced to everyone that he was sick in the night and then I would have been in lots of trouble with nursery as they have a strict policy of not allowing them back for 48 hours!!!

Anyway I was totally shattered earlier - we spent the morning lying together in my bed reading books which was lovely but wasn't helping me stay awake. Typically now he has gone to sleep I feel fine again - will probably start dozing just as he wakes!!!

Getted - just defrosted what I thought was a casserole from the freezer for my lunch (hardly any food in the house) and it's gravy. Nice!!!

So fish fingers and beans it is!