lol at TSC being one of your fans despite not having met you, Oma. I'll join your fanclub, I think you're a wonderful person (and quite obviously a great mom if you look at how happy Poppy was last time I saw you). Btw, this is the perfect place to moan away sometimes even if nothing is wrong (or noticeably). And obviously not that I'm glad you're a bit down, but sometimes hearing others struggling a bit too makes me feel more normal and not such a whimp.
Consider going to gp, even if you think it's just tiredness. I had to see gp for my epilepsy medication prescription renewal the other day, and I mentioned (well, kind of tried to joke it away, but it really happened) that I thought I was going nuts, because I couldn't go to sleep even though I was tired, and would keep repeating stupid things in my mind - eg a sentence etc. ).
Hmm, that does sound a bit crazy, doesn't it. Anyway, she was wonderful, saying not to be silly, it's just tiredness and stress, which builds up and eventually makes you down a bit. She gave me sleeping tablets to only take when needed, and I've used it once now and it was wonderful to just sleep one whole night, and now it's better again. So if you could do something like that (maybe on a weekend night), get dh to give bottles all night (if you want obv), and just have time for a "reset".
I'm flying out on Saturday evening (6pm). A little worried about the 11 hr flight on my own, but I guess it's been done lots before, so can't be all bad. Worst case I'll just pretend it's not my baby and roll my eyes at the inconsiderate passengers bringing babies on overnight flights