Oct 2007; This little piggie had loads of roast beef and ^This^ little piggie would have none of it!

[Dalrymps]

Psst over here!

I hope so. He refuses a bottle now so I give him EBM in his cup but he doesn't drink it. He just wants boob. If I am going to be away at bed time then I give him an extra feed in the afternoon so he is still getting the same amount of milk. We have him in such a lovely night time routine I really don't want to upset it.

I pulled my application for the other job. They are going to keep my CV which is good. I think it is the right decision for now. Got a workshop/audition tomorrow for something else but it's not a first choice really as it involves a lot of driving and I hate driving - makes me sick with nerves when I have to go somewhere new!

Aha! Found you. Hello!!!

Feels like I've not been on here for months. Would anybody like to do me a quick rundown as to what I've missed? Anybody pg yet?

Well we've had a really busy time (as you can guess!) Last weekend the laminate floor went down in the living/dining room - it's been stacked up waiting for over a year so we decided it had to be done by Anya's birthday. DH did it all while I kept Anya occupied - she was confined to upstairs for about 3 days and was so well behaved. The floor looks fab.

Weekend before that we went away with a big group to Derbyshire. We had a wonderful time - we had a little row of cottages (one each) where we could escape if we wanted, plus an enormous barn with huge kitchen/dining room/living room, plus a games room with snooker, table tennis, etc. It was a perfect setup - we spent the evenings with baby monitors lined up in the barn while we ate/drank too much and had snooker tournaments into the wee hours. The kids loved it - Anya was transfixed by the other children (all a bit older). We'll probably go again next year.

Anya's still cruising round furniture - one-handed but not quite brave enough to let go completely yet. She waves bye-bye and I think she's signing 'milk' but just at random times, not when she actually wants it . She can eat yoghurt on her own (very very messily), and she loves playing 'chase' round the new floor. She's also started wanting feeding in the early hours of the morning again, which is annoying but probably a phase.

First birthdays soon then (how did that happen?) - what's everybody buying for a first birthday present?

Will try and get on here a bit more often - miss you ladies .

Just a quickie as off to pilates as soon as my tracky pants dry in the tumble dryer!!!

Mine we struggle with christenings esp boys. The last couple we have got a book called 'Jonathon Livingston Seagull' - dh's idea. About how being different and following your own path in life can be tricky but ultimately rewarding. And also have bought a book called 'the velveteen rabbit' which is suitable for a slightly younger age. Not expensive but I always think nice books is a lovely pressie for children.

WWAJC great to have you back! Can you send me info about that place in Derbyshire? Sounds fab!

See you later!

BOOKS !!! Alicet thats a brilliant idea. i love it. Thats what i'm going to get for her. Thank you very much.. Mwah!!!

Now why didn;t i think of that

Hi all

Mine - we tend to buy books a lot and then write in them. We bought the snowman for Ollie's first christmas, the complete thomas the tank engine stories in a presentation box which is only read with clean hands at 'special' times!

I am going to buy these sheepskin booties for my Goddaughters's 1st birthday with the matching mittens. Works out at £17 for both. My bf bbought Ollie a pair and he wore them for ages and we kept them and put them in his memory box.

Not much happened here, I've talked to all the family and everyone is of the same opinion concerning my mother. Leave well alone so I'm going too.
Not heard about the job either which is annoying as we both really want it.
I've signed back up with the OU to contiue my course that I started Feb 07 and then found out I was pregnant with Henry and got a serious case of baby brain. I've also started tutoring to re-sit my GCSE maths as I have a c grade but that meant I didn't study statistics at all which I found really hard as part of my OU course. It sounds a bit daft but I wasn't happy about just learning something just to pass an exam, I really want to understand it!

Dal -that programme sounds really interesting, I might find it on the internet!

WWAJC - glad you got the flooring finished I bet it looks fab!

Alice - Like the sound of 'Jonathon Livingston Seagull' and I think we'll get it...

Love to all
xxx

Hey everyone,

I went to the docs today to ask about Dylan and see if I could get a prescription of infant gaviscon to try him on as thats what someone sugested on the other thread I started. The person who suggested is is a speach language therapist and said that he may have silent reflux but to try this and see if there's any improvement.

Anyway, whilst I was telling the doctor about how worried I was about him I burst in to tears . She asked me how I was feeling about it all and if i'd been teary lately, I said yes, I had been crying at things a lot more than normal...She asked me how my sleep has been, I told her I had been having trouble sleeping too latley. I told her I had been in a few months back to say I had been feeling down and since then I have been up and down but still don't feel like i'm completely ok.

I have been feeling more anxious than normal recently but had just kind of ignored it as I couldn't think of a reason for it. I've been satying in the house a lot more and jumping out of my skin at the slightest noise .

I told her I feel ok sometimes but I do still feel like i'm fighting to stay up iykwim. Anyway, she prescribed gaviscon to try Dylan on and we agreed I will try some AD's for while. She prescribed me a 10mg dose of Citalopram to start with (this is the lowest dose you can get) then I have to see her again in 2 weeks to see if I have had any bad side affects and discuss upping the dose.

I have been trying for ages to just ignore these feelings and pull myself together and carry on regardless. However, I feel relieved she saw that I wasn't quite ok and has offered me help.

She said it can take 3/4 weeks to feel a positive effect and then they recommend staying on them for about 6 months. I asked her about ttc in Jan, she said there are other AD's I can take if wanting to ttc but best to make sure I am well in myself before ttcing. I agree, although we really want to ttc soon I want to feel emotionally strong enough to do so and if that means waiting an extra couple of months I don't mind. Dh has been very supportive and says the most imporant thing is that i'm ok

I feel a bit silly for just trying to keep going like nothing was wrong but I wasn't aware I was ignoring the signs until I thought about it

Sorry to be all me me me.

WWAJC - Sounds like you had a great holiday and that Anya is doing great!

Alicet - Hope pilates was good, bet you feel all relaxed and energised now ahhhhhhhhhh

Mine - glad you managed to decide on a christening present, books are a great idea. I think i'm gonna get that 'Jonathon Livingston Seagull' one too!

Muppet - Love the sheepskin booties . What OU course you doing? I've often considered doing one but can't decide which one!

Ooh dh has made me a lovely hot chocoalte, am off to drink it, chat soon x

Dal i'm soo glad someone is finally listening to you., but most importantly that you sound more positive.

Your DH is right, you're emotional, mental and physical wellbeing the most important thing.

Muppet i love those booties!!
(i also saw a baby pic of you on facebook!!! Your boys look EXACTLY like you!!)

night night everyone xx

Just popped on to say Hi ... Dal, well done for owning up to the doc - that's the first step in getting better!

I'm still on a (very high) dose of Sertraline - I've been on it since the end of December - and have been told that I'll be only coming off it when I've been feeling completely normal for 6 months.

What I'm rambling on about is that Sertraline (I think) is safe to use during pg - I'm on it as I'm still bf.

Right, have been to choir, now off to have a shower and go to bed!

love to all!

p.s. Muppetgirl, I am full of admiration for you. It's been tough for you to make your decision. Good luck in finding the right words.

p.p.s Christening gifts - I'm in the habit of buying my gifts from the alternative gift catalogues you get: I bought the last Christening gift as a baby weighing bag. I've also bought meadows of flowers, and a coppice. I have used both: Good Gifts - a general (secular) organisation, and World Vision Great Gifts - a Christian Charity - if you order on line with them before 2pm, the card usually arrives the next day.

Right, I'm really going now!

Thanks crochet and mine

I forgot to say before - Muppet - glad you've manage to reach a decision you're ok with regarding your mum. Whatever makes YOU and your family happy is the right thing to do (((hugs))).

Right, am off to bed now, night all x

So glad you are getting some help Dal - you need to look after yourself! The other thing to remember about AD's is if one lot isn't working for you there are others out there. I had a stint on them a few years back and I had to try three different types before I got the one that was right for me. They helped a lot.

Got my audition for the job that involves all the driving today. Lots of anxiety!!!

Good luck with the audition Stefka, i'm sure you'll do gtrat

Thanks for the AD advice, will see how I go on these.

Aye I am sure it will be ok - it's the job itself that is causing me stress!

Hi all
Just got back from running with Darren and I can do 55 mins!! Am so chuffed as it's been 15 sessions with him and I can run for about an hour.

Dal -glad you've talked to your GP you've been really brave being so honest with her as you could have just said that you were 'fine' The low dose means you won't be zoned out but things should start to calm down in a few weeks. If they don?t do let your GP know as upping the dose even slightly still won?t mean you'll be knocked out with the AD's. Also go back if you feel any more symptoms as not all AD's are suitable for everyone. I had a reaction to my first AD but got on amazingly well with my second lot. Are you having any other treatment in conjunction with the AD's? Counselling/psychology? Loads of love to you, things will get better and we're all always here for you xxxxxx

The course I'm doing is dse 212 -Exploring Psychology. After completing the 4 units my degree will be converted to a psychology degree so I can retrain as and Ed Psych. I've decided I'm not going to do anything else as this is really what I want to do. I've been scared of exams and finding other things to put me off doing it but I am going to bite the bullet and do it!!!!
So this year GCSE Maths -higher level so I can get an A/B (I may be dreaming but hey, I got a C for no work and no revision and my parents were divorcing and I was 16 so I figure I could do a lot better!) and the exploring psychology OU course.

Be back later as I?m very smelly and sticky as I?ve only just got back from my run and haven?t showered yet

Love to all
xxx

Stefka - I completely sympathise with your stress over the driving job, I would be exactly the same. In fact I probably couldn't do it as I have a general fear of getting lost whilst driving. All I can say is that i'm sure you'll get through it better than you think and will feel a huge sense of achievement if you do get the job.

Muppet - thanks for the advice. Yeah, I have to go back to the doc in 2 weeks and she'll up the dose a bit if all is ok. Doc didn't mention any other treatment but i'll try to ask when I go back.

I have considered studying psychology many times but too am scared of the exams etc, not sure why, I did quite well in my gcse's... Maybe i'll reconsider it at some point.

Went to see the dietician. She weighed him and he hadn't put on much over the last 2 weeks so has dropped just below the bottom line. He's had a fussy few weeks though so probably down to that. We told her he was very difficult to feed and only takes tiny amounts and that we're trying him on gaviscon. She sugested that if he won't take big amounts in one go to try feeding him high calorie snacks in between meals. She said that just to give him anything we could, for example chocoalte cake, fairy cakes and custard, cheese, things with butter on, peanut butter, nutella etc. So basically my ideal diet!

Am just watching ugly betty with a piece of chocolate cake yum.

Gonna go chill with dh for a bit.

Hope everyone is ok, chat soon x

1st Birthday Alert!!!!

Just a quickie - not had chance to read any posts since my last one - sorry!

Just remembered I need to sort out the secret santa birthday pressies!

I have Mine, Stefka, Muppet, Lisa and Dal who have emailed me. J2O and Floria were interested but neither of you have mailed me.

I am going away for the weekend for mil's birthday so please if any of you want to join in the mail me at [email protected] before Monday lunchtime so that I can sort this out on Monday evening - if I don't do it by then then we are cutting it a little fine!

Hope you're all well and catch up soon....

To add for anyone who missed it - the plan is that I will draw out of a hat for all interested people to buy a £5 pressie for one of the other babies.

Interested people need to send me their addresses and the date of their lo's birthday. I will do the draw on Monday and email you back with the address and birthday of the lo you are to buy for. You do the rest!

Morning all,

well done on the 55 min run! That's great!

I found yesterday hard. The audition thing was fine - they put me on their freelance books so I might get work there. But when I got home the brother in law was feeding Dareh and showed me how he would take the spoon and feed himself. At first I was excited but then I burst into tears because he had done that and I missed it because I was away. Later on I got excited because he pulled himself to standing in his cot which he has never done before! Then the brother in law told me he had done it earlier in the day so I missed that too. Given my earlier reaction why he felt the need to tell me that I don't know - if it had been me I would have lied or not said anything. I just keep thinking of all the things I am going to miss by being at work

Then Dareh was sick last night. He threw up all over me and him - it was horrible!

Plus it is the weekend and I hate the weekend as I am always on my own with nothing to do.

Sorry this post is very moan, moan, moan!

HI all
eugh....I have a bit of a hangover, not had one of those in years. Are going to meet friends at the gym for coffee and are contemplating cycling but think the lovely warm car would be very nice. Was actually chatted up last night! £ guys in suits sent one of their mates over who asked us if we'd like a drink and told us that it was his mates birthday.(original I asked how old he was and he looked stunned a women had not just simpered back to him with giggles and flashing eyelids. Oh well, again, not happened for years and it reminds me how lucky I am to have dh and be out of all that.

Stefka - Glad the audition went well am keeping my fingers crossed for you. I understand how you feel re missing things Dareh will do. a good nursery should let lo show you what they can do and then act surprised when you tell them the next day.

Have a good day all
..how the heck I'm meant to play tennis I'll never know!!!!

Congrats on your run Muppet, that's really good going, you should change your name to Little Miss Sporty

Dal- hope the Ads work for you.

Stefka - what an insensitive BiL mind you its something my MiL would do too

Well its finally a nice day today, we are off out for lunch and then to DFS to look at sofas to go in the new playroom we are starting to build on monday, I'm very excited, will be able to get the lounge back to the way it was without all the toys

I wish you all the luck in the world

FINGERS AND TOES CROSSED INZI!!!!!

Inzi that sounds soo exciting!! I have my fingers and toes crossed for you

Wow Inzi so exciting - I am so jealous!!! How does the part exchange thing work? Does it make it easier to buy? I hope you hear something good soon!