May 07 - Some have produced new anklebiters, but the rest have more sense.

[twelveyeargap]

Do his parents know what has been going on? I'm not sure where you stand as a LTP but if his parents knew and understodd what was going on then maybe they might consent even if you cant.....

Well his mum knows he has had problems, but not really that they have resurfaced, they have alot going on - when I know more I may tell them tomorrow

Just spoke to hospital again and he is just being seen by psych team and they will get him to call me when he's done

I will update you all in the morning, and thanks yet again for all being here for another one of my dramas

Of to bed now but will be thinking of you xx

How are things this morning Lups? Did you speak to him? I hope you managed to get some rest too. I am out and about most of the day but will be thinking of you. You are being so strong, fingers crossed he realises that he needs help and is willing to let himself be helped, not just for him but for his two lovely dc.

Morning, I called the hospital last night and they said he was fine - did I feel ok to look after him as he was medically sound anyway as ridiculous as I thought it was them sending him home I said of course I can look after him, so he was home about 1.30am

He is extremely sorry and said he doesnt even know what he was thinking, he just wanted to fall asleep and never wake up, but that he doesnt feel like that now, the team that saw him were very good apparently and they will be contacting the gp and also arranging some councilling in a group as the depression is linked to him anger and it spirals out of control - i must say though he has never raised a finger to me or the dc.

I will be waking him up shortly and no way will he be hiding away in his room, am going to try and get him to come for a short walk to camp site to book place for wednesday night

Thanks again for being here, I am not really sure what to expect but hopefully he was had a wake up call

Oh Lups so sorry I just saw this. What a nightmare. Possibly it has been the wake up call he needs I would say the councelling is a very good idea also any group therapy he can get into. Does he take AD's? I was with someone for 10yrs who was a manic depressive so I know how you feel it is soul destroying as you feel like you are banging your head against a brick wall the majority of times. You are obviously a very strong person and you must still have love for him otherwise you would have ended your relationship a long time ago. Please do speak to the GP for yourself and the children as there is help out there for you individually and as a family. Much love to you all please do keep on talking to us as well.

Lups.... sorry I didn't get back on yesterday and have only just seen this. As scoot says they don't section lightly, it's a big thing and sometimes although short term it seems a good idea it really is only a last resort and can be damaging long term if the person doesn't really "need" it. I have a little experience with the Mental Health team from my back ground with Learning Dis. Depending on how your local authority works, I would imagine the GP will assign him an on call SW, someone he can be in contact with if he feels this way again. I'm glad he feels of sounder mind now and that he understood what was happening, it's a big step to even recognise it. try to get him out today, it really will help. sending you HUGE strength and GENTLE hugs.

You keep talking here please, it is so draining to be the one seeing and dealing with it, you need lots of support too.

It was great to "see" scoot and PJ at Meadow towers. PJ did you get chance for a rant talk with M on the way home, sounds like he needs a rocket up his arse, how about a wife swap? I'll show him how he should be helping and you can sit back, relax and let A do it all for you. AM you looked amazing as always. x

Off out for the day, still trying to keep out of the house as much as possible. The house has been valued now so things are begining to move forward.

Lupins, sorry to hear about your dp, a heartbreaking and scary situation for you.

Oh Lupins I don't know what to say. I just hope that you are ok, and that everything works out.

Today has been a milliomn % calmer than yesterday thank the lord!!

Dp is very quiet, altho he is talking about his problems and how he feels which is great

We went for a nice walk and had some munchies as he was starving - he didnt eat anything yesterday and not much the day before

I am trying to get all the camping stuff organized, it has all been in the loft (except the tent) and stinks of chinmey smoke, dp is looking after ds for the night, got to go and book it later, I am looking forward to spending about an hour in the spa pool and chillin out

Im glad to hear you've had a better day Lups..When will the counselling start..Hopefully soon as otherwise he may lose the impetus to go and he really needs it.Ask your GP if there is anything around for you as the partner of someone with depression-here they have a support group which ive heard is very useful..

You are being so very brave about it all..I could come down there and give you a big hug.Such a shitty thing to happen..There is hope though if he is talking about how he feels..focus on that..(and keep coming on here to vent if needed of course )Have thought about you alot today..

My day started today at 8.45 with a meeting, (followed by a night of no sleep with my cold bound M) and will end tonight at 10.30 when I am meeting my night staff.I have allowed myself two caffeinated drinks today (as opposed to the one allowed on the detox) as otherwise I will never get through it.I am taking my customers out to the pub for a few hours now.I beg of you.It sounded a good idea when I suggested it, now not so much..

I wimped out on L starting pre school today.It didnt feel right having my Mum take her..DH is taking next Monday off to drop her off and pick her up.Does this mean I must hand in my membership card for Team Mean Mummy?

Not sure, the gp hasnt even called today If they dont call tomorrow I will give them a call

As for being brave, What else am I supposed to do, I didnt feel very brave yesterday when I broke down in my neighbors arms and on the phonbe to dp's best mate - who I should add is lovely he thinks I should be sainted for putting up with dp

Sounds like a crappy day, whats with the detox Scoot? Must say I was caffiene free for about 5yrs and have just started again ooops - it was the frothy coffee that did it

I have cheated on dinner - off to collect chips from pub and eggs to whizz up quick omelete, so really only half cheating lol

hugs to you all xx

scoot Give that tough mummy badge back, you're getting soft in your tired delerious state. Your day sounds manic, it's not good for you ya know!!

Lups you may find you need to chase if you feel up to it. Unfortunately with this sort of thing SW's and GP's normally treat those that shout the loudest. They are sooooo busy (no excuse, I know) but even so, if someone doesn't chase then things can get left. {{{hugs}}} and strength for you.
I'm glad your neighbours are being nosey supportive.

Lups, glad to hear you've had a better day and that dp is talking to you. it must be the first step surely. You don't have to be strong all the time, remember to think of yourself too - something us mums are often not good at I know!
Scoot, your day sounds exhausting! How do you manage all that work on so little to eat. Make sure you are looking after yourself properly, you'll burn out if you're not careful.
Well, first day back at work went ok. No kids today so had a chance to get a few jobs done. We had the School Nurse in to talk to us because a girl is starting in Reception with a severe peanut allergy and we all had to be trained in how to use the Epipen in an emergency. It's pretty scary stuff poor kid but I feel confident that I know what to look for and what to do in an emergency. I can't imagine being the parent of a child like that and having to hand over total care to what are essentially a bunch of strangers. Her mum is very cool, really laid back about it and has the utmost confidence in us as a staff. No pressure there then....
Tomorrow the kids descend so all hell will break loose and I'll probably be totally stressed by 9.05am. Today was a good day though as the kids settled straight back in at cm without a care for me!

Customers quite tipsy.Quite funny getting them all back from the pub, 10 wheelchairs a weavin' down the dark streets of Islington

I will re earn my mean badge tonight if M even tries to be up all night again, rest assured.I will jolly well put my ear plugs in..(or kick DH to get up and see to her at least)I am taking the time back on Wednesday morning as I am taking M for her MMR (We got our third reminder )and then I might work from home in the afternoon.None of which will help me tomorrow morning mind, when the alarm goes off, but still..I am flagging a bit now..I hope the night staff are not in argumentative mood..

CAQL is right Lups..you must nag nag nag at the GP, if you've the energy..(and you would be forgiven for not having)

I always think it must be nice at the start of a new term Abby-the calm before the storm.Is it a little bit exciting thinking about what little characters you will get in your new class?I havea new customer moving in tomorrow to one of my services and I always get quite excited about meeting them and seeing how they will be..

It's official i am a student! I had my first day today and it went really well. I was feeling so nervous that i thought i would be sick. Started flagging around 8pm but the last hour thankfully flew past.

Lups glad to hear that you had better day. You are so brave and strong xx

Spoke to LG&T today. She is making the most of having N around before he heads off next week (will only be down the road so will be home each evening). Twins got into a school that is closer to home and also means that they will be able to walk to and from school saving LG&T dashing for the school pick up. She sends her love to you all.

Got a thoroughly dull day tomorrow of sorting out the room we call the study. Will no doubt take all day, but as i have to wait in in the pm for Whirlpool to come and fix my fridge i thought i should jsut get on and do it.

Scoot, do you always use the term customer? We used to say Clients, think we were suppsed to say sevrice user but that was just horrible. Hope you got some sleep last night.

AM did your teacher enjoy his apple, are you the teachers pet now?

Lol they are two ladies. One is totally scatty! Was good though

Where is everyone today? I have some VERY IMPORTANT information and there is NO one here to tell.

We are going to Meadow Towers!

Woo Hoo

Makes it sound like Theme Park

lol, well it may be a roller coaster ride yet, with us rabble!

How exciting CAQL. AM you will have to have another meet up.

Put a few holiday snaps up, check out the devil child who didnt go to sleep till 10 every night!

TMAM - do you need any clothes for Jasper? I have had a clear out of Jack's stuff and have a few shirts and shorts that need a new home...... age 2

Its quiet on here today..

We have to say Customer CAQL..I hate it and so do they-but it was a corporate decision..makes it sound like a shop..Prefer tenant myself as thats what they are-they all have a tenancy.All just semantics I guess..
How exciting re hotel AprilMeadow (and v nice hotel tis too)When?!!

cute pics Jammy..L did that on holiday too.Most annoying when you want to crack on with the cerveza on the balcony

Glad the college went well AM..You are now officially a soap dodging student

I am soooo tired..my lovely cm is actually coming to pick L up tomorrow on her way back from the school run so M and I can have a lie in before her jab at 11.I think my cm may actually be an angel

Jam put 'I beg of you' in one of her photo captions [proud emoticon]

'ere has anyone heard from Lups today?I wonder how its going?I hope she is OK..