LLL: That took a while, now you get to expierience the joys the rest of us are going through to hear you're shoulder's not in good shape, hope it gets better soon.
Mica23 Welcome!
Hopey Ooh 21 day matured steak. . . that sounds lovely, hope you enjoy it!
Which reminds me, I recently had another go at eating beef and regretted it immensely. . . (for those not in the know, I was diagnosed with Bovine Intolerance when I was 19, making it quite hard to find foods that aren't vegetarian that I can eat, it's amazing what they add to chicken and pork sausages, so took up being veggie for a good few years until pregnant with Lolly, darn cravings!). . . . I'm now thinking of going back to being vegetarian again, it's so much easier for me to avoid that sneaky beef!
I've had an absolutely crap day today Woke up at 7:30am, gave Lolly her milk and decided not to go back to bed, unfortunately DD1 heard me get up and I managed to convince her to go and bug DH to get up (thinking he'd do what he usually does and convince her to jump into bed with him, to stop her pestering) to my astonishment he got up!! . That's when it all stated. . . we were meant to be going to the wedding reception of one of my oldest friends (and he knows her very well too) and she had mentioned that she'd really like me to wear my ball outfit. . . Dh had convinced me that I was being mean and blatantly trying to out-do the bride ( Ok so it wasn't her idea then?! blardy men don't listen do they?!) so I decided on a long dark orange dress, he then started throwing other "ideas" at me, I took this as he didn't want me to wear the dress and that he was trying to change my mind, so ended up feeling really crappy about it all and let him decide what I should wear (brown skirt, that's still a bit too small for me and rides up a bit, and a black top with a lace top over).
He then had to pop out to get the vouchers for bride and groom's present, and popped into NEXT (ok for a little hint go take a look at my profile pics, I have never even walked into Next and would never buy anything from there as it's just not my type of clothing, not to mention our dire monetary problems at the moment, he had only last night been having a pop at me cos he's having to pay for my loan etc) and he comes home with a top and pair of trousers that cost £57 in total (the top was £22, it was a little camisole with a tie top over it, made from flimsy jersey fabric that probably cost about £1 to make, and £35 trousers which were really nice but they were too smart to be something that I'd ever wear again!).
I said thank you etc and tried them on (in the hope of keeping the label on and he would then be able to take them back after today, I know but he was so proud that he'd found these "nice" clothes for me. . . ) needless to say the trousers were too tight so he knew he'd have to take them back and see if they had the next size up (Umm do Next go up to a size 20?) I gave it a minute or two and started the convo. . . "I think you should take them back and leave it, I'll wear what you picked out for me earlier." he blew up and had a right go at me "I'm just trying to treat you" blah blah blah, I didn't get to say what I wanted to say, as usual, and he storms out, taking the clothes back.
He came back about half an hour later, someone had gone into the back of his car!! So, he'd had time to calm down from our little spat but now this!!! (Lucky he took those clothes back really otherwise he would be in even more money troubles now!)
Needless to say, after being made to feel like the clothes I wear aren't good enough for him and I'm obviously an embarrassment to him I couldn't even try and put my side of things across to him because he'd been in a car accident and now had all this hassle of having to sort out the car.
I had a nap this afternoon but I've still got a stinking headache from all the crying and am still feeling inadeqaute in the clothing department (I did however manage to get across that I'm not particularly fond of the clothes that he wears but I've never tried to change him and the clothes he wears have I?!).
I've tried to brush the whole thing off, and managed to convince him that it wasn't the clothes that I disliked it was more the fact that he'd had a go at me last night about my need for him to pay off my loan etc and then he goes out (after choosing an outfit out of the wardrobe for me) and spends nearly £60 on a top and a pair of trousers. . . I could make about 10 dresses for that price!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What makes it worse is that he hates Next, for a different reason. His most dispised ex girlfriend used to spend all of his money in there (and I mean all of it!!!) and every time "she" pops up in conversation, or the word "Next", in ref to the shop, he physically hisses!!! And yet he walks in there and spends £57 on an outfit that I'm only going to wear once. . . where's his reasoning?!
I give up, every time something like this happens I just think "It's ok, I'm moving out soon" but I'm still going to be married to him aren't I?
Ok I've moaned enough now, I'm meant to be doing the Tesco shopping, just thought I'd rant at you lot instead, let's face it, if he see's that I'm not on the Tesco website it's not like he could make me feel any worse!!
Someone tell me there are real men out there that don't want to change their woman? I need to believe it's true!
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