Briefly as am mixed up and messy today
Finn nightmare last night, screamed up half the night
Dp has had to take day off as he is too tired to ride motorbike to work.
Finn just whingy grumpy, despite calpol, constant cuddling and nursing.
Am at end of tether
Really shokced myself last night, had real feelings of hostility towards him after 3 hrs of constant not settling. When he finally settled at 2am, I resented feeding him, it felt awful, like he was an alien.
It felt wrong
Today all ok and feeing and feelings are loving and normal
I never would have hurt him, but felt myself losing it big time.
Dp says it was just a stress reaction and tiredness (have had shag all sleep in days)
Am now feeling so guilty and wondering if there is something underlying.
On a more lovely note, exp and his missus had a little baby boy yesterday 3 wks early 6lbs 3oz,
How about this for quick.
Waters burst 12.30pm in the library of course!
Flatmate took her to birth unit in Kent, called exp who was in Ldn
1.45 fully dilated, aha here comes a baby...
FEET first, so she has 4 stitches, but baby came out fine
No name as yet.
He is very cute and ds1 has another little brother to adore!
Have sent very funky gift box(theya re vegetarian hippys lol)