elsbells you are so right. I do hate it really (although I love having a cup of tea uninterrupted) but everytime I send DH a message saying it's hard and so on, he writes back with "you just earnt xxx typing that" Which probably sounds terrible but it does keep me going.
I so want to live in a better house/area - just an extra room downstairs or a little less grafitti would do - that I just try and remember that I am doing it for the greater good. I don't want DS to go to school and have me think 'what unsavoury language is he going to learn today'. Obviously all schools have their problems but I think I can at least take a step in the right direction.
What helps as well is that the childminder and I are getting on now and that puts me at ease for the day too.