Thanks Daisy I have found it very tough tonight, plenty of vom and tears.
I daresay a few would disagree... but I think if I turned back now I would regret it.
I will still get to spend mornings, evenings, weekends with my little man... if I don't take this job, every time the car sputters again, or a bill comes in, or DH is struggling to get enough together for a deposit for our bigger house, I will feel guilty.
He will be well cared for, this job isn't forever, if I have enough I can quit, but I am doing it to provide him with a better life. Still bites though!