That sounds terrible ladydolly, hope you are feel better now. I was pretty broken yesterday too, but for very different stupid reason. Because DD had a fairly good night. Most of the nights she ends up in our bed about midnight and then wakes about 3am, drinks milk and then cuddles up with us until the wake-up time. So that night she slept so well she never woke up at 3am, but I was awake ready for it. First our I wouldn't try to fell asleep thinking there was no point, she would wake any time and then from 4am I couldn't fall asleep anymore because I must have been so used to her getting up on all fours and crawling into my armpit, that I actually really missed it.
That night was the closest she has ever got to sleeping through 12am-6.30am, so why I wasn't sleeping?! I couldn't believe it was happening to me!
Anna it must be terrible to see the LO in pain. The accidents unfortunately happen. DD fell off our bed and broke her wrist in November and she hadn't had a single bruise before because we were vigilant and she was a chilled out baby and then suddenly - boom! She shouldn't have been in too much pain, it took us 2 days to spot she might have some problem, she was just like always, she didn't even cry when a&e were touching her arm for initial check up, she was ticklish! Only x-ray showed a fracture. And because she was under 1, albeit 10 days to her 1st birthday, a&e had to report us to social services. The doctor was pretty apologetic and said it's very common and often goes unnoticed, but they just had to fill that form out. Fortunately, our HV had visited us twice and then seen us in weighing sessions several times, so must have thought we weren't killing DD slowly. She left me voicemail on Friday at 5pm saying she was calling about DD's fracture in a lighthearted tone and she would call me following week. She never called, as I expected. It has made us twice as possessed about making sure nothing else happens.