Thanks for the replies :) I've laid it on the line to DP. I think he gets it now. I hope.
PR Sorry to hear about DD1. She is in the best place, this is one of the hardest things about having more than one child - being torn over what the right thing is. I hope she improves quickly.
Tits I've been thinking about you, and wondering if you had made it home - glad to hear you have now. 2 weeks, wow, you poor thing, you and baby!
I've barely stopped for days now. What the fuck possessed me to do christmas dinner for the IL's with a 4 week old baby? Seriously? Am so jealous of those of you who were sensible enough to either go to family, and relax, or have a quiet one at home. Fucking numpty me. There was nearly murder at the dinner table when DP - who is fucking useless at cooking a roast, let alone christmas dinner - was asked to go back to the kitchen as something had been forgotten, replied 'I want to enjoy my dinner you know', as I sat there with one hand on a pram, pinned in to the wall by said pram and christmas tree, my fanjo on fire, having been stood up for over 2 hours cooking... and sitting on a hard fucking chair. Not sure how I restrained myself. What a selfish fucking twat! Had words about that too tonight.
I mostly felt like crying christmas eve and christmas day as I tried to make it special for everyone else, but only succeeded in pissing myself off at DS1 becoming a rude horrible child, and DP showing his most childish selfish traits. I ended up telling his mum how he was behaving
. DS1 at least has the excuse of being 10. DP has no bloody excuse. I ended up feeling like sodding martyred Asda mum. Which annoyed me more
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I want a good cry. Think I'll have one tomorrow! Am seriously considering what to do about DP. He has shown some very selfish, childish behaviour the last few weeks. Even though I have talked to him and told him how he makes me feel, he hasn't altered any of his behaviour. I feel like he forgets he has a child mostly. He has no sense of priority, other than himself. I feel like I have to coach everyone, issue instructions in order for anything to get done. It isn't just one reminder either, but over and over. No one in this house thinks ahead. No forward planning. I feel like I'm thinking head for 3 people.
Why should I? But if I don't, it directly affects me. I can't win.