Well that's been a massively shit morning.
With managing to miss two feeds from righty yesterday, as opposed to just the one, I felt like I had been punched in the chest. And then a pink patch appeared on my boob...
Thankfully, as DS was having his third jabs today, I asked the nurse to have a look, and she said she didn't think it was bad enough for anti-bs. But of course the 'normal' prescription (feed, feed and feed some more) is exactly what I need to not do, as I'm trying to drop feeds.
I hate having to do this, as like you Oi, I really enjoy bf'ing, and it obviously suits DS as he's the size of a six-month old. I really, really want to continue with the 7am and 7pm feeds for as long as is possible.
I spoke to a bf advisor at one of the national helplines, who was very nice but just advising me on how to keep on feeding/expressing whilst at work, legal entitlements, etc., which for a whole host of reasons I just can't do.
It's calmed down a bit, and I'll try skipping a feed this evening instead of this morning.
DS then howled the place down with the jabs and as I comforted him the site bled all over my white top and through to my white bra, so I looked like Texas Chainsaw Massacre mummy wandering round the supermarket.
I therefore indulged myself.
Some women may buy handbags, eat chocolate, drink wine, buy clothes- I buy a plant, and so will do up a new pot for the back garden this afternoon.
Breathe.
That's great news about the octopus LMF, hopefully life will be a bit easier now he's getting better, and it'll be nicer for him too. Oh, and it was the referral; the moment you try to sort these things, they resolve.
I really sorry you've not had the full support you'd want from your parents scooby, that sounds pants. And it is true, you're never more alone that when surrounded by friends and family and feeling distant from them. I hope a few cuddles with the boys and tonnes of Easter eggs will help.
I couldn't agree more about the tiredness comments hawthers, in fact I think there should be a law against people complaining about being tired to new parents/mothers, especially those doing the night feeds. I really have to bite back the 'oh do fuck off' 'I think I may be a little bit more tired than you X' comments to DM/DP/anyone who is daft enough to make them.
So glad you got a good HV MsB, makes all the difference, and that they're helping make life a bit better re. your smear, that must be a weight off your mind.