Am in a complete dilemma. They emailed me last night to ask for references - apparently they're asking for refs from two candidates, so it's between me and one other person.
I've given the references because I'm not sure about the job - at least this way if they give it to someone else then fine, no decision required, and if they offer it to me I'll have to ask for some time to think it over.
DP and I had tense conversation last night about why it's my career that has to be part time etc, and money and other things. Feel like crying today with the stress of it all and the fact that I've spent my whole week off worrying about this sodding interview instead of enjoying myself.
I like the man I would be working for, didn't like the CEO much but don't know how much contact I would have with him. My real concerns are over the travel - they have offices all over the world and there was a lot of talk about me having to go to far flung places to meet people. I just don't know if that's feasible, with a 2 year old and a 5 year old. DP thinks it is feasible if we get a nanny, which is probably true, but I don't know if I want to see my children less than I do at the moment.
I really thought that when the children were at school I'd be able to have a career again, but I'm starting to see that in fact they need you more when they're at school then when they're in nursery/childminder - Boff, what do you think? At nursery/cm their emotional needs are taken care of as well in lots of ways, but school is much less nurturing so I feel DS1 needs me very much these days. And we haven't even got homework yet.
They were generally pro flexible working but I don't know how real that commitment is.
Oh I just don't know.