So I've lost my faith

[Objectiontime]

Dear all I just wanted to say that I have finally lost all my Christian faith. Not sure why i wanted to announce this but i guess i feel a bit sad about it. Just experiencing my third miscarriage, i am a happily married, loving kind human being. I asked God to let me keep this one and he has said no. I dont ask for much. I cant get my head around it to be honest. So many dreadful things happening in the world, so many unmarried and some unsuitable women getting pregnant and having healthy babies but oh no, not me, I have been abandoned my Christ. He does not work in mysterious ways at all. He is a cruel God if he exists st all and there will be once less follower in the flock and one fewer attendeexst church from now on.
Thanks for letting me rant!

If God exists he’s an arsehole.

First, OP, you have my immense sympathy. Three miscarriages, I can't imagine what it's like. If it helps: Miscarriages are generally a sign that the foetus wasn't viable, which in turn usually means a DNA problem that was there from the moment that sperm A beat sperm B.

You haven't been let down by God. You've been let down by the people who led you to believe that you can get God to do you a favour in this world by prayer (or "a request by the undeserving for the laws of physics to be momentarily suspended to their advantage", as someone once described it). But if it worked like that He would also be coming up with the lottery numbers and nobody would ever be murdered, because God would be diverting bullets aimed at the good people.

For what it's worth I'm a complete atheist, but the religious friends whom I respect the most are the ones who don't expect God to fix anything in their lives on this earth. They don't pray as a substitute for putting on their seat belt, or getting a Covid vaccine, or starting a savings plan. As a result, they also don't blame God when bad things happen. Unless you want God to get into the business of picking winners in sperm races, praying isn't going to help much.

I hope so, ideally do x

When devastation comes to you, when you are just screaming into the void at the seeming injustice of everything, all I can say is that I've been there. I lost my faith for decades and what brought me back was that of all the "religions" known to man, there is only one God who has made a point of suffering with us, and for us. That doesn't give answers to your grief, but it helped me to know that there is no distance between our suffering and his. The Old Testament and Psalms are full of raw anger, betrayal and raw grief, and He does not shrink from our anger. Ask for help. It will come, in strange and mysterious ways. Praying for you this evening, that you will feel his love and his heart for you.

(((Hugs)))

I'm Jewish, and I struggle with the prayers that say God has always helped us and protected us. What about the Six Million? Who included over half of my own family. I accept that I don't understand. I choose to live my life according to the values I have learned from my religion, and hope that that is good enough.

Miscarriage is horrible. Please do not blame yourself for anything you may have done or not done. I hope you find healing and peace, and are able to eventually accept the incomprehensible.

I think you are currently so deep in grief and anger that you are lashing out at everything and that is completely understandable. I'm an atheist and I haven't experienced miscarriage, but I do remember how terrified I was when I had bleeding in my first pregnancy - the emotions are all magnified. You are entitled to rant, scream, cry and step away from your faith either permanently or temporarily, all those things are natural.

I would recommend getting some bereavement support and counselling for yourself though. You are in so much pain and you deserve some help working through it.

I hope things get better for you.

Sorry for you family's loss@Objectiontime.

I am sorry for your loss. Jesus was meek and low in Spirit. The Beauditdues may offer you some comfort. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted* *read over them again. An aunt had many miscarriages in her life and kept her faith to the end of her life. When you speak to God speak to God from your heart. Focus on the love of God first. I don't know if you have been Baptised but it you haven't that is the Church's way how to get the indwelling Holy Spirit which is the comforter that Jesus spoke of. Also, do you have the Holy Spirit gifts which comes with baptism and laying of hands. One of the gifts is faith and another is wisdom. They can help in times like this for sure.

I’m really sorry for your loss. I pray you can find peace in your heart one day. I know faith can be a tricky one, I believe God tests those he loves the most. It makes you stronger and teaches you to be patient. And with Hardships come ease. Don’t lose hope or faith in God, keep praying God is listening, he can hear your cries and see your pain.