I hope you enjoy the concert MistyDryad . I went to see Pink Floyd in concert in 1988 it was amazing. I loved this type of progressive rock in my formative years ( and still do!). Bands like Genesis, Yes, Supertramp, Camel, Tangerine Dream, Mike Oldfield- and still listen to it.
I am glad your mums house has sold,Craftycorvid, it will * *be a relief.
Time for a new chapter to open.
My sound bath was wonderful,I had very strong mental imagary during the session, mostly involving water- ocean swells, calm pools, waterfalls, mermaids, rivers, selkies. I there is some guidance in that, I need to explore further, but it has been a busy weekend, and not much time for journalling or introspection.
I am still struggling with the role of being chief carer and organiser for my family.
We are five adults, yet I seem to be the one who keeps everything spinning.
I question my choices, my actions, my need to have everyone looked after.
Because of my involvement I can see problems before they happen and support others when they do.
But it is costly in terms of my own welfare and I find myself feeling resentful at times- and that's unpleasant.
My standards of hygiene seem different to the rest of my family- dribbles down kitchen units, food scraps on the floor, pee on the toilet seat.
My family seem not to notice or care, and I don't want to be the one to point out this stuff and ask others to do it. It is often easier just to clean it myself.
DD is visiting today, and I will often make one of her favourite meals, but today I just can't face it. OH is happy cook, but goes very "off piste" these days, so a traditional roast dinner may contain sumac, soy sauce, fenugreek, old bay seasoning, licorice, cinnamon, preserved lemons otr some other random flavourings.
So I may suggest to DD that we go out for a meal, or have a takeaway, and of course I feel a stab of guilt over that too!!
It can be so difficult to find balance in life, self care vs selfishness.
Deciding where our boundaries lie is hard.
While self love is a good thing, but when taken to extreme is bad- like Donald Trump!
As women we are brought up with messages to serve at all costs, hardwiring is hard to change.
I am off for a spa shower and plan some yoga at home to clear my mind. Mr not-so-pleasant yoga teacher is taking his class today and I have already endured 5 classes of his this week so I will give class a miss.
Take care of yourselves sisters. x