Good morning,
I hope everyone can catch a glimpse of sunshine, feel the gentle breeze from where they are. Like Violet I’m feeling tired after a busy working week but am giving myself time off to potter and recharge today. I agree that it’s good to have no choice but to stay home today!
I also had to venture out yesterday to the office and the supermarket. I really struggled with the fear too, So right now work is packed away and my thoughts are turning to planting, laundry magic and meal planning. Zero waste aims in my house too!
Such a mass shift of priorities recently. I’ve often thought how us humans have so rapidly adopted such a wasteful and damaging way of living- it jars with the concept of harmonious symbiosis to say the least. We’re all being challenged to reflect on that aren’t we. I hope that amongst the horrors and the loss that we’ll move through as a species, we will all renew a commitment to live a more consciously balanced life. More in tune with the ecosystem we’re actually a part of rather than as self appointed overlords of it.
I’ve noticed that when I meet with my own fear and panic, I’ll sometimes ‘deal with it’ by belittling it: ‘you’re lucky, think of the people on the front line’, ‘you have space and a garden, so many people don’t have that’ etc.
These things are true of course but I think that rather than being some sort of altruistic response, my belittling of my own fear can really be an avoidance technique like any other. It’s not always comfortable to just sit with those feelings, and of course feeding them is just as counterproductive as as pushing them away.
So I’ve resolved to acknowledge them more as they arise, naming them helps I think. Then as I think it was Violet said, they pass in waves. If I don’t allow myself to feel them they’ll always find another way to come out. I don’t think emotional reactions dissipate when they’re ignored.
I know for many of us who are sensitive to energy it can be tempting to try and avoid the intense feelings this provokes in us. Like queenrollo said, the trick is to feel it then release it. It can feel easier said than done can’t it! But it is possible and it’s another skill we can hone at this time I think.
Speaking of collective energy, I smiled at the choice of 8pm for the clapping on Thursday too speakout I thought the energy was really quite something, very moving and such a positive thing for our collective vibration, loved the focus of honouring those who are on the frontline with this, showing our gratitude through collective energy raising.
I’ve been thinking about what you said about solitary time too speakout, I agree it can be hard when we’re used to our own space then we’re suddenly holed up together. Makes me realise all the little tactics we build into our days to have that solitary time- running errands, cooking a meal etc usually give us that but now these opportunities are scarce, and sometimes crowded.
It’s made me realise why I was such a virulent reader from a young age- being lost in a book gave me my own little escape, carved out another world to visit alone. My reading of books has diminished in recent years with easy access to short articles and online wormholes but there’s something to be said for being lost in a good book that I’d like to find more time for again.
A reflective morning! I’m thankful to have this space that feels safe and supportive of that and also for the connection we have between us, we really have created an oasis here. Thank you sisters, love to all 💫