Any Witches Here? Part 11

[speakout]

Or Wiccans. or Pagans? Or anyone who is interested in a magical path or feels some magical stirrings.

A place for support, learning, swapping ideas and magical inspiration.

Pleased to hear it Violet, it was obviously needed. A good night’s sleep works magic doesn’t it. I agree with speakout, your plans sound perfect. After two days of cooking outdoors, I’ll be back in the kitchen later!

I’m enjoying the breeze and the warmth here too. I need to shop but for now I’m doing a bit of a clearing of my work space, the warm breeze is helping me along.

I can feel the energy of that steady pace you have to your day speakout, I’m trying to adopt similar

Good morning everyone. I had another sleep in the lap of the goddess last night, deep with vivid dreams. My dreamscapes have altered in the past few weeks, ocean currents are changing. Not sure where we are headed, but with a skip in my step we can't go far wrong!
Work continues to take up a huge amount of my time, I had a few days off which was lovely, and although I really enjoy what I do it often leaves little room for anything else. It is hugely helpful having OH off work, but he is a little rudderless in the home environment, so requires some steering! I may have a few more days off soon.
I am glad Sunday is over, had three Baptist church sermons to endure- deeply scary stuff!!
Still waiting to get my toilet finished, not much I can do now, at least we are dry and watertight with a working toilet and a floor I can walk on. Skirting board are off so holes around the bottom of walls, but can't finish the work until suppliers are open again for flooring and other materials.
Glad the water crisis is over- although it was an opportunity for learning!
Off for my spa shower, then zoom yoga at 7.30.
Have a magical day everyone.

ocean currents are changing. Not sure where we are headed, but with a skip in my step we can’t go far wrong!

I love that speakout, I think it was BlankTimes who shared some information early on in the lockdown about those with a flexible mindset faring well through this time. You are the embodiment of this!

Interesting about the changing dreamscape- I know many of us have been experiencing things bubbling to the surface recently; shadow work in our dreams. I feel like there’s a shift happening in this way.

Many of my dreams have had a flavour of my own past- after a phase of clearing some of that I’m now feeling ancestral influences. It’s as though once I calm my own noise I can hear them more clearly. Interesting stuff! It’s making me crave a visit to my home county, which of course, will have to wait.

It’s cooler here today and I have the patio doors open to let in the air energy in preparation for today’s ‘face to face’ work. My focus on and connection with the elements has heightened recently I’ve noticed.

I hope everyone finds some magic in their day

Yashmis that's really interesting, I've been experiencing similar dreams, relating to past experiences, mainly versions of things I regret or don't feel proud of. It can be quite unsettling, I wake up feeling anxious or even ashamed on occasions. The clearing work I've been doing and the ritual I did on the full moon has helped, and I'm trying to accept these feelings and accept them for what they are. It's fascinating how this situation we're in is causing us all to have these experiences while we sleep.

VioletCharlotte
I've been experiencing similar dreams, relating to past experiences, mainly versions of things I regret or don't feel proud of. It can be quite unsettling

I am experiencing the same thing.

Speakout it's strange isn't it? I wonder if it's because everything's so unsettled that our minds are processing things differently? Or is it part of something bigger? If you believe that the virus has come to challenge us and force us to change the way we live and think differently about how we do things, are these individual challenges we're being given and the healing that we're finding ourselves doing all part of this transformation?

VioletCharlotte

I agree completely- what is societal change if not change at an individual level.
I am not sure it is predetermination, but this change is sorely needed before we destroy ourselves and damage the planet in the process.

Living with uncertainty is something that we all need to focus on- none of it was certain anyway before this crisis- that's the irony. It was all smoke and mirrors.
None of us knew what was around the corner, then or now.
Only now we can be sure of uncertainty!
On a personal level I have been coming to terms with uncertainty, it has at times been very challenging.
I know see that the skills and tools I have been crafting are serving me well now.
For me having an open heart and learning how to surf the anxiety have been really useful.
It has take shadow work, opening up old wounds, learning to accept my life choices, letting go of blame.
With the help of others too.

A beautiful day here, my DDS birthday- the sun snaps me back 20 years to the day she was born, fresh spring morning. It feels ike last week- as I was growling under the delivery bed threatening to bite anyone who came near me !
I also recieved a gift from a dear relative who lives overseas, a Book- Daring Greatly by Brene Brown I look forward to reading that!

Strange times as we inhabit this liminal space, a the when, whats and ifs are still in the air like seeds in the.

I do know that my laundry is drying in the sun.
A little frustrated as I can't get to grips with my pyrography pen, not as easy as I thought- I had planned to write symbols onto my wooden dolly pegs to aid my laundry magic, but writing on a flat surface is difficult enough, never mind a curved piece of wood.
But all these attempts are useful, and I store my projects away on the back burner, often to be resurrected or modifed at a later date, so I haven't given up entitely!
We can learn as much from projects that don't go to plan as ones that do!!

speakout I invariably burn my fingers with pyrography. I always want to hold it much closer to the nib and forget that anywhere down there is hot!

Elphame yes! that's part of the problem too. The grip is so high I feel I have no control. Maybe I bought the wrong set. It looks such a geat craft, I had ideas for burning sigils into boxes, wooden spoons, wands etc.
Not quite working out that way!

Evening everyone. This thread had fallen off my watch list so I've just been catching up. Hope everyone is well tonight.

I've been having a bad time with an abusive situation which has left me feeling frightened and very vulnerable. I've lit a candle and crept in here for some peace and positive energy.

Stay as long as you need to Kate, you're safe here, our peaceful space is well-protected and well-stocked with tea and nibbles from Gather Victoria.

KateF good to see you.
Are you afraid of someone you are living with? Are you safe now?

KateF I'm surrounding you with love and protective energy. Come here and sit with us whenever you feel you need to be held.

Thank you for your kindness. Sorry if I worried you by not replying last night. I haven't been sleeping and was so tired.

I am safe I think. He (exH) doesn't live here but has a key. I have left my key in the lock so he can't get in and locked the back gate. He has been getting more and more controlling over the last few months and I have pushed back and made him angry. I'm just afraid of him turning up here and also of taking it out on dd3 who lives with him.

I'm trying to focus on positive things, my garden, reading, my candles etc.

KateF

I am glad you came here to have some emotional support.
Please act on the physical level too.
Call Womens Aid, www.womensaid.org.uk/ they will have practical support.
If you are afraid then call the police non emergency number and let them know you fear for your safety.
Could you get your locks changed or bolts fitted to the doors?
I know many locksmiths and joiners are still working.
Keep safe, and drop in here when you need to.

I’m glad you’ve come here too Kate and would echo the sound advice you’ve had from speakout. These situations can be incredibly draining but practical action is essential.
We’re here to share positive energy and strength as others have already shown, know that your sisters stand beside you

Just wanted to share this I saw on Facebook, I thought it was powerful and redolent of the shadow work many of us have been doing recently and the strength that can rise from it:

“ Do not pity me for the shadows you see in my eyes my love,
for I have come through fires to be able to hold that darkness and not be scared by it.
Do not feel sorry for me that my tapestry of life is woven with many black threads,

for those dark parts of the picture highlight the gold that also runs through the weave.
Do not despair that my soul is made up of so many rips and holes. For they have been sewn together with self love; I have developed the heart of a medicine woman from tending them.
Do not feel pity for what I have seen my darling, for it has made me see more life, more beauty and more gold than anything else.
Do not worry about the shadows that seeped into my heart, it is these shadows that led me to my most rebellious act; the one of true, deep self love.
Do not fear that my spine will break with what it has had to carry, for my spine is no longer a wish bone or a distorted compass, it has developed true guidance and strength from lessons learned.
It has taken me years of courage, bravery and truth to be able to stand straight and use this darkness as a tool to embrace life, it has taken me fire and guts to hold both my light and my dark as the friends they have become.
Do not fear for me my love, for I am both wolf and maiden, witch and queen and I hold my black and my white with threads of gold.

~ Brigit Anna McNeill : brigitannamcneill.com/

[Art: Yana Dhyana]”

www.facebook.com/1575991952646313/posts/2619014781677353/

Kate F
Welcome, I'm glad you posted here too. Some of us have been through similar experiences ourselves so can relate to how your feeling. I'm sending protection and love your way.

Do you have real life support locally? Someone you can call if you feel scared or threatened or just need to talk?

Can I ask if you rent your home through a housing association? If so, they have a duty to support you in these circumstances and can help you to make sure your home is secure.

As Speakout says Women's Aid can support you, also there's the National Domestic Abuse Helpline - www.nationaldahelpline.org.uk

I've had a better day today. Felt less frightened and jumpy. I have support through the mental health team and they are doing a referral to the domestic abuse team so hopefully someone will be in touch soon.
I own my home but it's not possible to change the locks on the type of door I have. I'm going to see about getting a chain fitted.
I wish I could go back to work. I'd be safe there and busy so no time to fret.
That piece of writing is lovely YashmisCrone, so much to think about in it.

Good morning, a fretful night here, had to call an ambulance for my mother late last night, looks like a bad case of food poisoning. She is frail and elderly, so took it badly.
She has avoided hospital thankfully, and has slept well, but I am a little tired this morning. Hoping for a better day, she hasn't been sick now for 5 hours, so that's good.
I am in bed having a blessed coffee enjoying the beautiful morning. There is still a golden glow in the sky.
Although I am tired I am feeling grounded and centred, all the shadow work and sef care I have been practicing is supporting me with a sense of resilience.
KateF Glad you are feeling a little better.

Do speak to Woman's Aid- they can provide emotional and practical support, if you feel your DD is at risk then you need to report this to the police or social services.

Not sure I have the energy for morning yoga today, but I will light a few candles to welcome in the day.

Oh speakout that must have been a scary experience all round. I am pleased to hear that your mother avoided hospital and hope she continues to recover well. I hope you can take it a bit easier yourself today too. I will light a candle for peace and healing in your home. Your strength and resilience is both beautiful and inspiring.

Glad to hear you had a better day yesterday Kate and that you have some support being put in place.
Be kind to yourself too, the psychological impact can be exhausting to say the least.

Another bright blue morning here, cool breeze infusing my work space with the fresh new day in preparation for today’s client work.

Wishing everyone goddess blessings today

YashmisCrone Thank you.

Sorry to hear about your mother speak out food poisoning is awful and I expect she'll feel rough for several days. You must be tired too, I hope you both have a restful day today.

Dd3 (15) has a social worker due to other issues. I have informed her of what's been happening and she's going to step up contact. I just wish there was a way to protect my other daughters from his emotional manipulation and controlling behaviour but they are technically adults. However, dd1 (20) has a long history of anxiety and dd2 (18) is autistic so they are both vulnerable.

Speakout glad to hear your Mother's improving, it must have been really hard for you to deal with last night, fingers crossed!

KateF, glad things aren't looking quite so fraught. If you can't change the locks - do get a locksmiths advice on that - can you also get a bolt or two as well as a chain for any external doors? If the door's wood, you could fit those yourself fairly easily.