Any Witches Here? Part 6

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Or Wiccans. or Pagans? Or anyone who is interested in a magical path or feels some magical stirrings.

A place for support, learning, swapping ideas and magical inspiration

All welcome.

VioletteCharlotte thank you I will look into regression therapy. It’s hard to explain how it makes me feel.

@Blank that is very interesting! How fascinating that the energy is different on the side where the retreat is.

@user I can vouch for past life regression - PM me if you want some details.

Yesterday evening I was sat, relaxing and I felt unwell. I checked my heart rate and it was really high. It felt like a panic attack (I used to suffer these a lot).
I went to bed early, decided rest was a good idea.
I woke at about 3 am from a terrifying apocalyptic nightmare, and having a nosebleed and a proper panic attack.
I think the anxiety and stress of the last few weeks caught up with me last night.

Today I have spent three hours in my garden, in glorious spring sunshine and this evening I feel much calmer.
My youngest son returns to school tomorrow, I can start to regain my routine and some much needed solitary time.

Glad you’re feeling calmer now queenrollo. That sounds like a very difficult night. I hope your lovely afternoon is the beginning of restoration of balance for you.

Hills I meant to say earlier, your fabric is lovely and yes, I think you’re right about the imperfections.

I hope everyone is having a relaxing evening. Me and my house have been cleansed and cleared to within an inch of our lives! Feeling calm

yashmis i would personally sit down and read / go through those books which it was drawing attention to you. If it was drawing your attention to an area you need to find out why and clearing without doing so imo is like you are ignoring the lesson it is trying to teach so the energy won't stop trying to get your attention. Especially with your geni loci work.

Sorry you had such a bad night queenrollo

It was nearly 6pm before it went dark tonight. Blooming lovely even if somewhat atmospheric with mist. fog and low cloud.

I will Hills, I just wanted to calm the energy a bit first. I’ll definitely take heed but have asked for messages to be delivered in a different (less breaking things kind of) way from now on!

Elphame, I picked some snowdrops from the garden today and thought about your jar as I came back into the house. Do you let them dry naturally first, and do you add anything to the jar during the year? I'm more used to a Rumtopf where you add rum to all the seasonal fruits! 😀

My little shelf beside the TV seems to have turned itself into an altar without conscious thought.

With regards to liminal places, what really made me fall in love with my home is the river round two sides of the garden. It's not a big river - it rises about five miles away east and flows into the Forth about ten miles west; it's usually around thigh deep. I have steps leading down to the river from the kitchen garden and a rowan tree overhanging the river as well as the garden from its position at the top of the river wall. I often sit at the top of the steps to think, particularly at night with only the moonlight and starlight. I use the wood of this rowan when making charms purely due to the liminal position and there is stuff buried beneath it too. I do have another rowan beside the road but this one seems more magical.

Oh, Violet,

I’ve just seen your post from earlier- I don’t know how I missed that. Thank you very much for that, I’m thinking about who it could be- I have an idea. 🙏

Hope you had a lovely day

Sometimes you have to tell them rather than ask..... Every few years it starts to kick off here too and I've more than once stood in the middle of the house and read the riot act!

queenrolo That sounds awful. Glad you are feeling calmer now

user I've also done some past life regression work. It certainly can give you some insight.

Not much happening here other than a faint smell of singed dog... he's as close to the fire as he's allowed to get and toasting nicely. Daft animal!

X post @TooManyPaws yes you need to let them dry first or they'll go mouldy. I'm not planning on adding anything yet until the jar is finished. I'll them have to decide between oil or incense, or both!

I love working liminal spaces. My favourite ones are where the land meets the sea. Always moving, creating and destroying in turn.

Perhaps also tell it you understand that you need to do this but patience is needed to allow you the time to do it justice?

Sometimes I wonder if energy is like a hyperactive toddler, sometimes you need to ignore, sometimes you need to tell it off, sometimes you just need to listen and sometimes you need to guide it to express itself clearly. And only time and experience will help you figure out what is needed at what point.

I am hoping for a more restful night, but knowing I am slightly over caffeinated I suspect I am my own worst enemy in this reguard. At least the event I was having anxiety dreams about in a fomo (fear of missing out) manner is over.

Elphame yes to sometimes reading the riot act. Done that too. Try not to do it when there are other people about though, it gets me odd looks especially when I do it at work. But it is definitely needed in some situations

Hope the dog doesn't smell too bad!

More wise words, thank you- I’m taking them all on board and love the toddler analogy!

Paws the place where you live sounds magical. I love your beside the tv altar!

I had a strange dream last night. I've been mulling it over all day and would like to see what you wise witches make of it. The dream featured someone I didn't treat very well in the past (about 10 years ago). At the time, I justified it to myself and brushed it aside and didn't dwell on it, but deep inside I felt ashamed about what happened.

In the dream, this woman wasn't aware of what had happened and saw me as a friend, inviting me into her home, introducing me to her children, etc. I can remember (in my dream) feeling extremely guilty, but I didn't tell her what I'd done.

My feeling is this has come to the surface as it's something I need to process as part of the healing process, would you agree? What I'm stuck with is how to process it. Would love to hear your thoughts 🙏

I agree with what you see as the purpose of this dream Violet

I think guilt and shame can be particularly ‘sticky’ feelings in that we find them too distasteful to ‘face’ so tend to bury them/push them away rather than feel them to their full capacity. My stomach still turns when I think of treating people badly in the past.

To me, the processing is often allowing myself to feel it. Sounds simple but I don’t think we’re very good at just being with uncomfortable feelings without trying to push them away or make them more palatable in some way (like justifying or minimising them)

When similar things have come up for me it’s been about accepting that there are many different facets of me, like anyone else, I’m not always sweetness and light. I probably wouldn’t treat anyone as I have (and regret doing) in the past, but I need to accept that I have that capacity, it’s just that I choose not to. It’s all part of the human condition I think.

Shadow work has been helpful to me- acceptance and integration of all parts of what’s made (makes) me me. I think in that way, when we can simply observe, without judgment that there are less ‘likeable’ parts to our characters, we can learn to accept ourselves more fully. This is more preferable to me than the notion of forgiving myself, which IMO has a flavour of atonement too close to Christianity for my liking!

@YashmisCrone the happenings at your house have intrigued me. I've realised that similar things have happened to me in the past, but I've just but it down to a run of misfortune/untidy husband. Next time I'll listen and try and get to the source of the reason, I never considered it might be a message.

As some of you know I have been spending some time cleansing my friendship circles. This weekend I reaped the rewards of it, all the spare energy I had I invested into my daughter. I made her play dough, it was the first time I ever made, she thought it was pretty great! Does that count as magic?

Myself and my husband are working on our garden this year, we want it to be a family centred place. He asked if we could plant flowers to attract bees as he is worried about the future of bees. When he says things like this I realise how lucky I am to have him.

VioletCharlotte This is exactly the thing that shadow work addresses. I think YasmisCrone pretty much has it covered. I'd also address the "why" of what you did and the reason behind it.

Sockportal - definitely magic!

Once I've taken the dog for his walk I'm off to brave the special level of hell known as IKEA - if I disappear someone come and rescue me from wandering in aimless circles!

Yashmis and Elphame thank you. Can you recommend any books on shadow work? Yashmis like you, I'm not comfortable with the idea of forgiving myself. I can be gentle and kind to myself about things I did that didn't work out very well, but were done with good intention. However, what I did was purely to fulfil my own desires with no thought for how this woman's feelings (I'm cringing as I write this). I was a very differing person back then, and would never do anything like this now. But I don't forgive myself. The whole thing has unsettled me quite a bit actually.

@YashmisCrone So late in catching up so this opinion may not be of any use. I experienced similar, odd phenomena. It took a long time to work out but, eventually I came to the conclusion I had to stop something I was doing. Once I did, the issues stopped. I'm not sure if that is relevant to you but thought I should share that.

@VioletCharlotte I totally empathise with you. I cringe when anyone talks about forgiving myself. I don't. I won't and that's fine. I think Yashmis has totally got it right... we don't have to forgive ourselves, just accept it. Acknowledge what we did. Understand if we can and never repeat it.

@Paws your home sounds so idyllic!

Good morning. Just catching up- so many posts on here- time for a new thread soon!

queenrollo

What a dreadful experience- I hope you are feeling better.

YashmisCrone You have had lots of great advice and ideas- have things settled down a little for your?

TooManyPaws If the river is the Esk- then I live close to it too- just 200 yards from my front door.
It's a magical river, flows just past Roslin Chapel too.

Just a quick pop by- meeting in 10mins so I’ll catch up later.

Just wanted to say I had a lovely quiet night last night which was a relief. Thank you for all your help and support x

Have a good day, look forward to catching up later x

Afternoon lovelies , just checking in while I get a few minutes .
It's like a summer's day here , quite unbelievable for February.

YashmisCrone

I am glad things have settled down for you.

FilledSoda yes the weather is amazing, been a little misty here for much of the day, just hanging about in pockets, so beautiful.

I have done a little gardening, ordering stock, providing taxi services for my offspring- which hasn't yet finished.
Just been doing some meal prep. I think it will be a cold night, I can already feel the chill.

Frost warning for the morning but imo this hot weather can fuck off for now. Throwing me right off centre atm. Transition weather is always problematic for me and 20C from around 12C does me no favours as someone who always suffers heat strokes from big temperature spikes.

It is an odd atmosphere here. The parents are properly at each other's throats, the teen is being an arse in the best teenager manner and I am feeling quite discombobulated in the middle of it. I am just trying to channel my inner toddler taming sense of balance. can I just bollock the lot of them and send them to their bedrooms so I can get all the stuff done in peace? No? Ah well

oooo the energy is all over the place right now. I've had a good day, child back in school and me finding some equilibrium.
Then my ex reminds me why he is an ex, and I am all wound up. Co-parenting is easy in the main because I pick my battles but tonight he has got all uppity about something, which is borne out of a misunderstanding. I explained but now getting passive aggressive responses, because he can't admit he was wrong and just straight up apologise.
I am ignoring him. I refuse to get into a volley argument via text.

I'm going to light candles and incense and draw a protection around me to deflect him.