TooBusyByHalf, I was half bought up within Christian faith, in the sense that my mom (while an ardent atheist herself) felt it appropriate to take me to (C of E) church, Sunday School etc, and let me choose for myself between the only faith she knew of, or none. No pressure from home for me. (My dad possibly has vaguely spiritualist leanings, though not enough for me to have even been aware of this, if I hadn't asked).
I was lucky enough to grow up in a church where the only (lay) preacher was a very ardent, and inspiring, socialist, who got all of us children interested in helping others, especially those less fortunate than ourselves - and that remains at the very heart of my view of what a proper Christian, and indeed what a proper human being, of any faith or none, is.
Then went through a messy divorce, turned away from faith (though not from my ethics, thank God), became happy again, turned back to faith!
My little family now is a Christian family, I think, but we are liberal Christians. To me being close to God means being close to being the best person you can be, and thus to loving, and working for, others, in both a familiar and a broader sense. We also love going to church, working for the church, knowing God in our lives, and all the goodness that that means/brings.
Sorry, OP, you asked a question, it seems I've replied with an essay! But good luck with your own personal journey, and I hope it brings you peace, understanding and joy.