Hey guys, back with another update.
My daughter is doing great. I started her weaning journey nearly 3 weeks ago, just before she turned 6 months. She is happy to try everything. I am spoon feeding her purees but also leaving food on the tray for her to pick up her and try herself. Today she tried some broccoli and cauliflower. Safe to say she hated it. She loves banana, peas, cheese, yoghurt, apple pears etc. Hates potatoes and avocados. She can sit unaided but not for long and leans far too forward, she almost bends herself in half! She's making all the sounds ma, na, da, ba and has long long conversations with herself and everyone else!
On the down side, I've not been great. I know I talked about my mental health in the past and how to go about getting help. Things just have been getting darker and darker. I didn't want to try medication as it advises to stop breastfeeding and I am just so attached to doing it. I feel horrible at the thought of taking that away from my daughter. I wanted to keep breastfeeding until 1 year.
I'm ashamed to say I ended up self harming on two occasions.. not proud of myself. First time in my life that I had done this but I found no other way at that point. It was stopping me from doing anything beyond stupid and irreversible. My health visitor and GP have been great. They've been acting really fast. Contacting me regularly, my health visitor wants to check on me weekly now. Doctor thinks CBT will do me good. I'm still on the fence about medication. If I wasn't breastfeeding I'd go for it in a heartbeat but the thought of it possibly affecting my baby girl is heartbreaking. I don't want to switch from breast to bottle so abruptly either. Sorry for such a dark post girls, I guess even talking on here helps too. I hope you're all doing well with your babies.