How to cope when you just can't

[Theyweretheworstoftimes]

Hi, this is my first post but I have lurked here forever, cancel the cheque, Mexican house thief, millions of parking threads.

I have a toddler and I can't cope. It sounds so simple.

I had a horrible pregnancy and I wanted a termination at 8 weeks but my husband didn't support this. I had HG and spent 5 weeks in hospital with my eyes closed unable to move. I had an emcs after it was discovered the baby was breech at 40 weeks.

I have struggled and struggled, I went back to work full time as soon as physically possible to escape the hell that I am in.

I can't cope at all, I dread the baby waking in the morning, I dread coming home, I dread the weekend. My husband just tells me to get help but deep down I blame him for the situation we are in.

I don't even know what help I might need or where to get it. I don't trust the NHS after the pregnancy and delivery so don't know where or how to seek any support.

Please bear in mind it's taken me two years to put this into writing.........

I am a shadow of my former self

I'm very sorry that you didn't experience a more sensitive and compassionate approach. Is there any health care professional in your life currently with whom you have a good rapport who you feel you might be able to raise all this to? If not, then I wonder whether a private therapist might be a good first step.