Lyra, Oggs, Berrie, Zeb and Binkle....OVER HERE!!!!

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Yes, plenty of wine
What are you up to tonight Oggs? This time last year you were watching endless Lee clips on Youtube. Oh how times have changed.

Haven't they just.......

..... tonight I'm watching endless clips of knitting stitches I want to master .

I might allow myself to be diverted shortly by some David Tennant .

Morning!

Poor you Lyra, how horrible! What were you doing to the eggs?

I had a terrible day yesterday as it happens. I'm not well in the head at the moment. I think being at home disguises just how tired and fuzzy headed I am when I'm like this and I really wasn't up to it. I felt panicy in the Gallery so sat outside
under a tree in the rain until it was time to go to the meeting. Anyway, I'm very glad to be home.

Oh Berrie, if there's anything at all we can do to help, just shout. I know that feeling of being panicky, but you do come out the other side, I promise.

Oggs, I think we need to change your name to Oggle! But I did watch Rendition last night with the lovely Jakey-G. Mmmmmm. Followed up with a bit of Rufus S.

Lyra - just enjoy the time alone. Stick your feet up and DO NOTHING!!!!

I'm ok thanks. I'm always going on about it aren't I, so tiresome.
I'm going to try again with Brokeback/beck? Mountain tonight. I've also got some raspberry icecream from M&S to enjoy. If you are a fan of the Roskilleys respberry it comes close...not as good, but close.

Yum yum. I know the sales director of Roskillys, maybe I should butter him up for some freebies.

And really, don't worry at all about 'talking'. It's much much better to let it out rather than holding it all in and festering - and I should know!!!!! I know there's not a huge amount we can offer beyond moral support (unless you fancy a trip to Cornwall to eat ice cream ), but we are all here for you in any way we can be. Besides, who else is going to fill us in on Hamlet?

Yes indeed! The Gooseberry is another favourite. I just wish I could buy it here, tell him to send some to my local organic farm shop!

Tee hee just tried this on and it cheered me up no end

I ordered it through Next along with an all in one thing which did nothing but made ds laugh a lot and a plunge bra which plunged but didn't push up.
I had such a laugh as I looked frightfully silly. I won't keep it because although it won't roll down like the spanx can, it is not as powerful as the spanx. Also I have put on so much weight that there is no longer any disguising the rolls of my stomach.
Twas funny though!
I'm going to a wedding in early September. It's an old friend of ours from our younger wilder days. Dh used to have a thing for her...there is likely to be people from the past who will remember me from our clubbing days and I don't wish them to look at me and marvel at what an old maternal frump I've turned into...you know the kind of thing I mean. I'm looking forward to it though...I imagine that the music will be great and I'd love to have a good dance to all the old stuff but if I feel self conscious, I won't...what shall I wear? How can I find the willpower to lose my tum in a month?

I need one of those! I'm wearing my spanx today, and it does roll down, annoyingly!

I wouldn't worry about the reunion and that whole maternal frump thing. Everyone else will be thinking the same thing. You could also buy one of those gorgeous dresses that floats out from under the boobs. VVV flattering. I tried a few on in Monsoon and Wallis but as I'm broke I didn't buy.
{{http://www.monsoon.co.uk/invt/35200324 This]] sort of thing.

Lost a bit more skin from my face today. It's gonna get worse before it gets better, I fear I really do look frightening
Berrie, we're always here to listen, and I hope it's some help.
I'd go with Zeb's suggestion if I were you - rather than trying to lose weight fast, buy something that will be flattering/will hide the lumps and bumps, and makes you feel sexy and confident. And I bet you at least 75% of the people there will have put on weight since the old days. It happens to us all as we get older.

Oh dear...when do you go on holiday Lyra? Will you have a dressing? You still didn't say what made the eggs explode!

I've been looking at corsets today. I really fancy one but they cost a ridiculous amount of money and whilst I want to look good, a dominatrix is perhaps not the look I'm after.

No dressing, just Vaseline. The eggs exploded because they were microwaved - apparently that happens but I didn't know.
I took them out in their bowl of water. They sat there looking round and fat and angelic - till I put a fork near them, then KABOOM!!! I thought a bomb had gone off. There was egg all over me, the floor, the ceiling etc. I've learned my lesson the hard way

Oh my word!
You need poaching pan...I love mine, use it all the time!

Actually...I think my poaching pan is a useful object but I've no idea why I purported to 'love it' yesterday.

Anyway...what kind of weekend have you had?

We bought some lovely black olive and stilton cheese from the farmers market and had it for lunch. We harvested lots of lovely vegetables from the allotment and are cooking it now. Anyway...I just need a break from myself. I don't want to be dead as such. I just don't want to have to deal with myself at the moment. I need 'time out' from my life or someone to come and look after me.I feel like there is nowhere else to turn. I've been seeing the Doctor for nearly 5 years now and I'm still unwell. Dh is great but it's so unfair on him and I feel sorry for my children and sorry that we are all missing out on these years because I am not well enough to do more than feed them and switch the tv on half the time.
I know I'll regret this post tomorrow. I need help and I can't ask the people who are in a position to help so I suppose I'm unloading to people who can't physically help. I need my friends to consider me a normal person and not a tricky burden and my Mum works and suffers dodgy mental health herself. My Dad is rarely about and would not help anyway. My best friend who was great at this stuff went to live in Uganda working with orphans. She and her family are coming back in September...it will be lovely to see her. I'm sorry to go on...I keep telling myself not to do this on here. I just don't know how to cope any more. Sorry.

Don't be sorry Berrie, it's what we're here for.
Maybe your doctor needs to start looking at a new approach if your treatment isn't working after all this time. Could you see a different one who might have different ideas?
We're off to Spain at the crack of dawn tomorrow and I'm not taking the laptop, so I'll see (virtually) you all in a couple of weeks.

Oh, Berrie . I'm so sorry you're feeling so crap.
Is it the same Dr you've been seeing all this time?
If you need to talk/text/email etc, please get in touch. I only wish I lived closer and could come and help out.

Fine and normal today, breakdown over.

Am going to change Doctors I think. I need to take more exersise and stop drinking. Then I might feel better.

Glad you're feeling better today .

My diet has gone totally to pot and I've gained almost a stone .
Am too ashamed to visit counsellor on Thurs for weigh in and will arrange to go a week on Thur instead, in the hope that I can ditch some of the lbs by then .

Is Lyra away now then?

Yup seems so.

You are allowed to gain some weight on holiday.
When is the festival and what is the line up?

Thanks for being nice everyone, it's great to have you there. I was worrying in bed last night that I hadn't said that...I think it's because I'm embarrassed about being mental!

Have a huge massive hug Berrie. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better today. And, difficult as it is, try to remember these good bits when you are feeling dreadful. If you can remember that you WILL feel better again, it does help, not much, but it does help, I promise. And you have my email address. Not much help at night, but if you do email me I'll send you my new mobile no. so you can text if you like, whenever you like.

I know this could be almost impossible, but you are more than welcome to come and crash with me in Truro, even if for only a couple of days. I have the space and spare bed, although I guess there's the issue of where to leave your DCs, as bringing them down with you could be a bit on the stressful side. But you only have to say the word.

And Lyra's in France now I think.

thanks Zeb.
Wasn't it Spain?

Yup, Lyra's in spain.

Next festi is next month. Not sure of the line up yet as I've been avoiding thinking about it until dd goes back to school (next week).

Another crap day diet wise. Did really well all day. Two Cambridge bars. Then went and blew it by scoffing loads of veg from the garden and a full packet of choc chip cookies dunked in tea .

Had a lovely dream about Mr Tennant the other night . Berrie you are soooo lucky to be seeing him .
Will watch the final 2 episodes of Dr Who tonight .

Cold Comfort Farm still lost in black hole masquerading as secret safe place .

Morning all.
Went to MFL's exF last night with another friend and had a lovely time even if I did have to play scaleletrix.
It looks like it's going to be a lovely day.
We are going to have our conservatory next month. We might not be able to afford a floor but we'll have the room. Woo hoo! We are pretending to ourselves that it isn't going to be too hot or too cold but the lovely extension that we really want.

Why is he YFL's exF? Has L's head been turned by stardom thus leading to the abandonment of his previously stalwart friends?

That's a coincidence actually - after months of no mention of the curly locked one I had a rather yummy dream about him last night. He was looking rather tired and fragile after his stint as the multi-hued coated one, and I ministered to him .
For some reason he was riding a black racing bike with no brakes when we met . Have not the slightest idea why.

Conservatory is good news . You've been hankering after one for a while haven't you?

Zeb, seen any good Hugh recently ?

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Now 3 months since Cold Comfort Farm was mysteriously transmogrified into something else.....