Im really glad to have found this thread!
I was having lessons about 5 years ago, took my test but failed. I then moved to Bath and so didnt 'pick up' with the lessons again for a good while. When I did I didnt like the instructor, just didnt feel 'right' or ready. So I stopped again. Plus Ive always been very nervous, panic attacks etc and the mere thought of driving lessons, test etc was enough to bring on an attack. My provisional had obv run out at some point and I was horrified to discover the hazard perception part lol Tried to pass that a couple of times at this point but couldnt.
Anyway last year I thought 'enough is enough now' - Ive got an almost 2 year old son and Im pregnant again, its like this time I have more of a reason to try. Also we've moved from the centre of Bath now and it would be so much handier to drive, plus I think I owe it to myself. Sometimes I think even if I do pass, Im not sure I actually want to drive - I just want this done! Its been hanging over me for years now. So I took my theory and passed, it gave me a lift and I try and remind myself that part isnt in the way of me now.
My instructor is lovely, Im fine once Im in the car and do the manoeuvres well, its like things make more sense now.
The one thing that gets me is nerves. I have my lessons at 8am sats at the mo as its easier with my son etc etc already Im nervous, sometimes I wonder if I'll be able to manage on the day. I know Ive come too far to back out again now but my god sometimes its so overpowering.
Its nice to have found this thread and tell you all how I feel - I havent told anyone Im having lessons as I didnt want to add to the pressure. Its been built up into quite a big deal - I grew up in a small village and its such a big deal there, like you could be the biggest asshole in the world but if you didnt drive - omg whats the matter with you, you know? So its been drummed into me for years.
Big well done to those that have passed, and huge support vibes to those who freak like me! lol