I'm going to say goodby

[Blandmum]

THis isn't a flounce

It isn't an exercise in getting people to post asking me not to go. Goodness knows you have all bee more than supportive of me in the past, and for that you will always have my greatful thanks.

Please continue to think of dh in your positive vibes, he needs all the help that he can get.

At the moment my world is full of pan, everything causes more, even christmas shopping for my two beautiful children left me wretched, as I don't know how many more I have with my darling, darling husband. Everywhere I look I see things that cause me more pain.

and like a fool I posted to openly, rested my grief on a virtual world. And in the end I caused myself more pain, as if I ever need any more.

I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. In my heart of hearts I feel it will be bad, my darling has got so ill so fast.

Thank you for all of your help. I'll be asking MN to remove all my many posts and to ban me.

Think kindly thoughts of my good sweet man. Tonight my ds told me 'When I grow up I'm going to treat my children like daddy treats us'. I', going to spend whatever time I have left with this good, patient loving gentle man and my kids.

Hx

I think you are right to go and spend every precious moment with your family.

What a lovely accolade to your husband for your ds to say what he said about him.

There are lots of people here sending their good thoughts and strength to you and your family. x

Please try to enjoy your time with your DH. I know it won't be easy. Will be thinking of you and yours.

oh

Martianbishop you know how much respect I have for you and how much I enjoy posting with you .. whether we agree or disagree

You need this place as much as we need you.

But if you need to take time to concentrate on your family then that is totally reasonable

But there is no way you should be 'run off' by some name-changing troll who is just doing it for kicks anyway

I am so sorry that DH is so poorly and I wish you all strength to fight against this as hard as you can

love

oh mb your op made me cry

I will miss you if you go x Enif

I wish you lots of love and strength, I don't see you often but when I do I like it xx.

Very dear mb - I'm not very much present on MN any more, so am not aware of what has happened to make you want to go - other than that I do know that you are going through a terribly difficult, sad time. You are in my thoughts.

You are quite often in my thoughts, to be honest, as I've always thought you one of the most inspirational personalities it's been my privilege to find here. And even if you do want your posts deleted, I'm not ever going to forget them.

xxxB

I'm sorry you are going too mb

will keep you and dh in my thoughts xx

I don't what has happened here but I totally respect and understand your wish to be with your family - love to you all.

Please don't ban yourself - we're here for support if you need us (well I'm notvery good but there are lots of very wise ladies here)

Take care and all the best to you and yours.

do what is right for you and yours MB. i will be thinking of you x

Thinking of you lots MB. There will certainly be a MB shaped hole in MN without you

I don't know you in a real sense MB, but just wanted to wish you lots of luck for the future. Keep your friends and family close by, and MN will be here for you if you ever want to return.

I can totally understand your reasons for leaving-
My thoughts are with you and your family.

Thinking of you MB. I have enjoyed your posts during the time I have posted on mumsnet and you will be deeply missed.

I can totally understand that right now you need to leave mumsnet. I really hope that today brings you positive news.

Martianbishop, I haven't really talked to you, not being particularly prolific on mumsnet, but I read your thread last night and I felt so sad (I didn't post though as didn't know what to say ). My thoughts and prayers are with you and your DH. He sounds like a wonderful man, and you sound like a fantastic supportive wife. I really hope everything works out ok for you. xxxx

So sad for everything that is happening to you. I hope to see you again one day on Mumsnet with good news about your life that we can all help you celebrate. In the meantime wishing you all strength and hope.

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MB - you will be sorely missed

Oh MB, I am so sorry you feel like this. I will definitely be thinking good positive thoughts for your DH and for you too.

I know that you probably won't be reading this thread but I will really miss you on mn, you do realise that I'll be going up to all the Outwell Colorado's at campsites around the country, shouting 'martianbishop is that you?' that is of course when your lovely dh is better.

take care, you are an inspiration to us all.
xx

all the best MB to you and yours x

I'm not going to say don't go, because you have other stuff to be worrying about at the moment and you clearly need some space.

But please don't go forever or delete your posts. There are thousands of us here who've read and valued your posts over the years, and only a tiny fraction even have any idea what happened last night (although seeing the name cowmad I can have a guess).

Even if you are firmly set on leaving forever, please let us know from time to time how you are doing.

And even if you won't do THAT, I shall still be thinking of you and your family. I'll hope for a miracle and that even if you are denied that you have a chance for as many happy times together as possible.

MB quite understand why you feel the need to go but please don't make it permanent. We're all rooting for your dh and your family, good luck and best wishes to you all.

Adding my positive thoughts and prayers for your dh. I had noticed you were having a traumatic time at the moment. Mn is beside the point at a time like this, but lots of people (even strangers)thinking and praying for you and family has to be a good thing.