Motivation has gone - burnt out midwife

[mears]

As you know I am a pretty enthusiastic midwife and have a real passion for my job. I am undertaking a Masters degree in Midwifery because I would like to be a consultant midwife some day. I am pretty active on various groups in the Trust to try and to make the maternity service better in our area. However, I have a home to run with 4 children - 3 of them teenagers and work full-time as of November last year. I have an assignment due in next week which I haven't even started.
I just feel I have run out of steam and think that I should just go to work, do what I have to do and go home. My colleagues think I am mad because I am so involved with strategy at work. Now I am thinking they are right. Problem is I don't know if I could just do that. I know that I can't keep this up much longer though. Is it my age? 43years old - am I just getting too old for it all? I am so tired all the time. Why am I on mumsnet when I should be doing other things?

Mears am thinking of you.

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mears, if you're reading this, you shouldn't be

get back to work

Tissy - was just about to post the samething!!!! - so I echo what you're said.....Mears Stop right here - unless assignment finished (hope it's going well )

Back to work.......

Mears - wish I could think of something useful to add as you have given all of us such good advice on Mumsnet. Hope you can make the right decision which makes you happy.

Hello everyone, I am back

My assignment has been submitted (today ,cause I got an extension) amd I feel so much better. I think I had a massive dose of PMT and just felt pathetic. I am going to take myself in hand and get myself organised.

I had a few sneaky peaks and posts when I was away, but now that a lot of my pressures have eased you will probably see me more.

Going on holiday 4 weeks today so things are looking up. You've no idea how you all helped so thanks again

It's lovely to hear you sounding so much more positive, mears. Good news all round from you today

glad you are back on form xxxx

Glad you're feeling better, Mears. I think we all get an attack of the wobbles, now and then!

That's good to hear mears

I was going to post here to ask how you were feeling now, but thought you'd gone to Florida already.

Glad things are better. Look forward to Florida and relax now!

So pleased you're feeling more on top of things.

I rarely contribute to threads that you are involved in (because I'm clueless about such things) but often read your advice to others, you are a star and so many people have been helped here, let alone all those in the real world that encounter you.

Hope you have a great holiday !

Didn't add to your earlier posts but was thinking about you....glad you have turned another corner and are still moving forward. Enjoy your break and look at things afresh when you return.

butterfly

Mears well done I still have 2900 words to write on last assignment so I ma gone glad you did it

I think everyone on Mumsnet wishes you were their midwife! I am glad you are feeling happier and also, selfishly, you are back on Mumsnet so give your wonderful advice! Have a lovely holiday!