I just can't come to terms with it.....

[nutcracker]

Now I know i'm mad especially given my current housing probs but, I am really really having trouble coming to terms with not having anymore kids. For anyone that doesn't know, I have 3 (2 DD's & 1 DS). I knew when I got pregnant with Ds that it would be my last, bercause I was having my 3rd section, but it didn't really bother me then, i think because I knew at the back of my mind that women have had more than 3 so it's not a complete no no. However I had the additional problem of anti c antibodies when pregnant and after ds was born i was told never to get pregnant again. Even then i didn't really give it much thought and even refused to go to a meeting so the docs could explain WHY.
I really never thought it would bother me that much but god was i wrong. I feel so jelous when I see another pregnant women, and have even started avoiding a couple of pregnant people that I know.
I got really upset about it the other day and dp said "well you've just got to accept it".
I know i'm lucky enough to have 3 beautiful healthy children and should probably stop moaning and get on with my life, but I can't stiop thinking " i'm only 25 and my baby days are over".
What do you think ?? Am I mad ??

You are spot on Mears, that is exactly it. If I had made the decision myself then I could handle that, but because it's been taken out of my hands I just can't accept it.
The antibodies i have also cause anemia and jaundice.
If you don't mind me asking, how premature were your babies delivered ???

ds 3 was induced at 35weeks + 4days.
dd1 (no. 4 baby) was induced at 37 weeks + 4days.

I was told by a doctor not to have any more children due to a kidney disorder exacerbated by pregnancy, as I risked losing a kidney. I decided to take his advice, and had a mirena coil put in, which fell out! I got pregnant and have a lovely 8 week old baby girl, I had an awful pregnancy with kidney problems and am now suffering PND but I wouldn't be without her. I had 2 children when I was told this and had always imagined myself with 3, so it was a bit weird to get it when I had decided otherwise. We're definitely not having any more - as well as the risk to my kidneys I couldnt put the kids I have through another illness like my last pregnancy and then the risk of PND again.
This is of no help I think nutcracker but it is my story - the docs aint always right!

susanmt, I must have missed your birth announcement, congratulations! So pleased to hear you have a lovley healthy little girl.