Bloss, I'd love to!
Prufrock, I think you might have told me before? Sorry, my brain is not what it was. Many congrats and sorry about the sickness, it's awful isn't it?
Well, the wedding trip is definitely off I'm sad to say. I tried to talk to him again tonight, I asked him if it would really spoil his enjoyment if he had to cut back on his drink and not smoke. He said to place limits on his intake would spoil his enjoyment. So again I asked him about just sticking to 4 pints on Fri, I'm sure his mate could live with that, and no fags. He said he wasn't thinking of smoking fags, it was dope. That was the death knell really.
He and his mate go back a long way, I appreciate that. I also know that they don't keep in contact that much and that dh felt guilty about staying over at theirs for a wedding. So he says it would be "expected" of him to have more than a few beers and share some dope in return for the room, although this hasn't been said by his friend. What really really hurts is that if I said nothing, if I just went along with it, he would leave me in a strange house, 8 months pregnant, with our dd, whilst he went out, got drunk and doped up, and he would not consider this unreasonable at all. Would not even consider it a problem until I said something. Then accuses me of nagging.
I did mention me and dd staying somewhere else on Fri night and his eyes lit up, so I thought no, why give him that satisfaction? Why give him the green light to get ratted and doped up? Anything could happen when I'm that far gone and he'd be useless to me. I feel that he has no consideration for my feelings at all. It's all very upsetting. I've told him we are not going, much as it hurts to do so. I don't think I will go out with him on his birthday either, let him call his precious mates up, I'm just the missus at home, I don't matter. I seriously want to leave him at this stage, just walk out and not look back. We used to be best mates, now I'm just a wife, a pain in the arse. Screw him.